Author's Note: Second chapter, yay~ I really appreciated the feedback I got, and Shan, I know, I he should've just come clean and told her it was a façade. But hey, Jesse is too stubborn to admit that Rachel's moved on and he hasn't. Even though Rachel hasn't really moved on, TROLOLOL.
Okay, enough of this long, pointless Note.
Rated: Definitely M (SPOILER ALERT: It's not St. Berry –cries-)
Disclaimer: Le does not own anything ~ only my imagination. Though, sometimes even my own imagination is too strong-willed for me.
After that last text she felt like crying. He had moved on already, how stupid was she?
She nodded to herself. Good thing she had lied about the topic of conversation. At first it was just an attempt to make him jealous, but if she would have told the truth, she never would have found out he had a girlfriend.
Rachel called Kurt, hoping he'd pick up. He answered on the third ring and soon, after informing her Dads of her absence and packing an overnight bad, she was heading over to the Hudmel house.
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Rachel knocked on the door to the Hummel's house, and was greeted by Kurt, who pulled her into a tight hug. "My favourite hag, how are you, love?"
Rachel felt a tear run down her cheek. "He's already moved on."
Kurt shushed her, stroking her hair. "Let's get you upstairs and in some pajamas. We can watch Babs and snack on non-dairy ice cream." Rachel nodded walking farther into the house. When they reached the top of the stairs she looked into Finn's room, seeing him lounging on his bed, playing video games with a pop by his side.
This was going to be her night to take control. She was going to make Jesse so jealous.
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An hour or two after Kurt went to sleep she snuck out of the room, it was midnight or so. She was wearing Jesse's favourite pair of pajamas for her, pink shorts and a white tank top.
Rachel knocked lightly on Finn's door, before opening it and seeing him sitting upright playing one of his many weapon induced games. He looked over after a minute, seeing her leaning against the wall, arms crossed.
She saw his vision move to her lower half, as he stopped the game.
She smiled at him, "Hi."
"Uh, hey, what's up, Rach?" He licked his lips.
She walked closer to him, sitting on the end of the bed beside him. "Nothing, Kurt fell asleep." She gestured towards Kurt's room across the hall. "And I heard the TV on, so, I decided to come check it out. I thought you'd be asleep by now, but obviously not." A sound of innocence tugged at her words.
He was speechless, God she looked so fucking hot. Only she could rock such a girly outfit like that. "Yeah, glad I didn't fall asleep."
She took a deep breath. Before whispering at a level only she could hear. "This is for you, Jesse." She leaned in and kissed Finn.
He kissed back, a bit surprised at first, but he adjusted. The kiss became heated and he pulled her flush against him. She pushed him down on the bed, climbing on top of him.
He groaned into the kiss, moving down to her neck. She smelt really good, like strawberries. "Rach, you don't know what you do to me."
Jesse. All she wanted to say was his name right now. She wanted Jesse to be under her. She wanted to let him be the one saying that to her. But instead it was Finn. That's when she stopped. She couldn't do this. If all she thought about was Jesse, while she was doing this with Finn, then he obviously wasn't right for her. She got up, feeling flushed.
He sat up with her, going to kiss her neck. She quickly held out a hand to stop him. "I'm sorry, Finn. I shouldn't be doing this. I shouldn't lead you on." She got up and moved to Kurt's room, not looking back at Finn's face. When she got back she noticed she had five missed texts, and one missed call. All from Jesse.
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Jesse sighed, running his hand through his hair. Was he really out at a bar right now? No, the real question was, was he really trying to pick up a girl? And to top that, trying to pick up a girl the complete opposite of Rachel?
He just needed to get her off his mind. And this was the only way he could think of doing just that.
A woman with black hair and a nice body walked up to him. "Hey," She looked down at his pants. He had chosen to wear tighter than usual pants; it really helped when you were trying to get a girl.
He shook his head, "No, I'm not going to have sex with you." He looked at her hair; it was too close to Rachel's hair color for him. All he could see was Rachel, Rachel, and Rachel. "Nothing personal, just… no."
A few minutes later he found the girl he was looking for. She was blonde, with a big ass. Then there was that small nose, and green eyes. A perfect opposite of Rachel.
In what seemed like only a few seconds after, she was up against the other side of his bedroom door.
She unbuttoned his pants and he let her slide down his body like it was her fucking job. After a few minutes of her sucking him he got tired of the worthless feeling, and threw her on the bed. All he wanted was a little pleasure, something to take his mind off of the oaf loving brunette.
He didn't let a second pass, before he was in a condom and thrusting deeply in and out of her, he groaned, this didn't feel right. She felt so used. It was disgusting.
She screamed for him to stop, he was going too fast for her, he rolled his eyes. "Just fucking take it."
She came that night, he didn't, and no matter how hard he tried he couldn't. And he wasn't satisfied with that in the least. He didn't even bother to learn her name. He never wanted to see her again.
He made his way to his phone, sending texts to Rachel. Each about twenty minutes apart.
Hey,
{text 2} Rachel. I think we should talk.
{text 3} Are you there? You might be sleeping... I don't know. But like I said, we need to talk. I'm not asking you, I'm telling you.
{text 4} Okay Rachel. I know you are awake, Jacob just blogged about it. You and Kurt are having a sleepover. Fuck. Why can't you just accept that we need to work things out? You are acting like me getting over you is a big fucking deal. When really, it seems like you got over me before I got over you. Just... talk to me? Please?
{text 5} Okay, fuck you too. It's bad enough I had to go out and find a dumb bitch to fuck, just to try to get over you. But the fact that it didn't work is worse. If you didn't want to talk to me, you could have just texted me back saying that you didn't want to. Instead of leaving me to think I'm a fucking loon for wanting to see you at least acknowledge my presence.
He immediately felt guilt ridden. He shouldn't have said that. He decided to call her this time.
-Beep-
Hey, Rachel… It's Jesse. I am really, really sorry about those last texts. I just got really mad, and… I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I just... It's just... I don't know. I really just don't know what to say right now. I... need you Rachel. And I've always been too scared to say it. I want to say that you are mine; I want to know that I still have a reason to be happy with my life. You are the only person that I think about, anymore. And it's so hard sometimes. Knowing you can't get someone off of your mind, and you try so hard to stop being so fucking... sorry... so soft, but really it's them that make you that way. I just wish you would tell me there is a way we can be happy together again, even if it's texting every day until I go back to Lima. I don't want to get on lower terms with you, Rachel. I want there to be an us,
-Beep-
He wasn't sure whether or not he should call back just to say 'I think I love you'
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Rachel went home right away.
He had sex with a girl…
That was all she could think about.
He had sex with another girl…
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The next week passed in a blur, with both Jesse and Rachel basically rotting in sorrow.
Jesse continued to call her, and text her, with no response.
Rachel continued to ignore him, soon starting a relatively fast moving relationship with Finn.
One day, Jesse became furious once more. He was madder than he had ever been before. Rachel wanted to play stubborn teenager? Okay, he would play.
Author's Note: CLIFFHANGER. Goodness, I fell like this is going slow. I'm impatient as well, so I'm trying to revise and post chapters as soon as I can. Hope you guys liked it!