A/N: Hope you guys liked the first chapter. I must apologise if this chapter is rather rubbish. But I hope you enjoy it. I must thank EmmaAmyPillsburyPond for helping me with Santana, as I wasn't sure what she could have said and she helped me out with it. So big hugs and loads of kisses to you, EmmaAmyPillsburyPond xxxxxxx. Oh and even though I am just making the New Directions still have the choir room, I am setting this chapter after the Sadie Hawkins Dance. Maybe like a few days after? And although Marley and Jake are together now I am just going to work around that because nothing at all is going to stop me shipping Jyder.
Ryder just walked into the Choir room, knowing that it was now or never. He just had to tell Jake now. Well sing to him and just, hope that Jake understood what he meant and accepted it even if he didn't feel the same. He couldn't put it off any more.
He felt his heart racing as he looked up and saw Jake sitting there next to Marley.
Everyone else was already in the Choir room when he walked in so he just walked to Finn
"Finn, I'm ready to sing that song now" Ryder smiled slightly.
Finn just looked at Ryder and placed a hand on his shoulder "I'm here if you need me dude" he smiled before turning to the rest of the New Directions "Okay guys, before we start anything there's a song that Ryder needs to sing" he then sat down at the front with a smile aimed towards Ryder.
Ryder then took a deep breath before beginning to sing.
Ooh you make me live Ooh you're the best friend that I ever had Ooh you make me live Ooh I've been wandering round Ooh you make me live You're the first one Ooh you make me live I'm happy at home
Whatever this world can give to me
It's you you're all I see
Ooh you make me live now honey
Ooh you make me live
I've been with you such a long time
You're my sunshine and I want you to know
That my feelings are true
I really love you
Oh you're my best friend
But I still come back to you
In rain or shine
You've stood by me girl
I'm happy at home
You're my best friend
Whenever this world is cruel to me
I got you to help me forgive
Ooh you make me live now honey
Ooh you make me live
When things turn out bad
You know I'll never be lonely
You're my only one
And I love the things
I really love the things that you do
You're my best friend
You're my best friend
Oh you're my best friend
Ooh you make me live
You you're my best friend
After he had finished he felt like he had just made the biggest mistake of his entire life. He just stood and stared at the floor before, biting his lip and running out of the choir room.
"Ryder!" Finn shouted after him and went to go after him but Jake stood up.
"I'll go talk to him Finn" Jake smiled as he then walked out, leaving Finn to whatever it was he was planning to do with the remaining New Directions.
"Ryder, what the fuck is wrong with you? Why did you sing that song and then just walk out?" Jake asked Ryder as he walked over to him.
Ryder just looked up to Jake and smiled slightly "Sorry, it's just that I realised something that I didn't know how to say so I thought I would say it with music and afterwards I just felt like I had made the biggest mistake of my life" when Jake didn't say anything back to that, Ryder just carried on "What I've realised is that I have all of these feelings, feelings for you that I'm afraid of dealing with because I'm afraid of dealing with the consequences. I wanna be with you but I'm afraid of the talks and the looks. I'm so afraid of what everyone will say behind my back. Still I have to accept that I love you. I love you and I don't wanna be with Marley, Kitty or any of those other girls I just want you. Please say you love me back, please."
Jake then just looked rather stunned "Wait what? You….you're in love with me? Ryder, don't okay. You're my best friend and…..well to be honest I don't love you. Not like that. Yeah I love you but like a mate and I don't love you in the same way you love me and I don't think I want to either."
Ryder then just frowned, feeling a single tear roll down his face "Wow, who ever thought that telling the truth could mean you can be so stuck."
Jake just sighed softly "Dude, I'm sorry" he said to him before he then went to hug Ryder.
"Get off me" Ryder said to Jake as he pushed him away, before turning away and walking off with tears rolling down his face.
A few moments later Ryder looked up and found himself almost bumping into Santana Lopez, who was walking towards the Choir room. Santana stopped walking and looked at Ryder.
"Woah woah woah, I know that look" she said to him as she wrapped an arm around his shoulders and lead him into an empty classroom "You just tell Auntie Tana everything" she smiled at him.
"Wait what are you doing back here Santana? Did Finn call you?" Ryder asked her.
"Never mind that just tell me what's wrong. I know that look. I had that same look after Brittany blew me off the first time I told her that I loved her" Santana replied to him.
Ryder just sighed "I told Jake that I loved him and…..he said that he didn't love me back and that he didn't want to love me back. It just hurt more to hear him say he didn't want to love me"
"That sounds similar to my situation. Trust me things will work out in the end. But just leave I for a while and then if things are still all screwed up then try talking to him." Santana smiled at him before hugging him.
"Thanks Santana." Ryder smiled as he hugged her back.
Santana then pulled away from the hug. "It's fine. Like I said I have been through the same thing so I know what it feels like." She smiled as she then left the room.
After talking to Santana, Ryder actually felt slightly better but he still felt as if Jake had ripped out his heart and ripped it into shreds.
After a few moments, Ryder then finally walked back into the choir room. Finn just looked at him "You okay Ryder?" he asked.
"Yeah, thanks to Santana" Ryder smiled as he then sat down as far away from Jake as he possibly could. Tina had a frown on her face and was almost glaring at Santana who was standing next to Finn. Had he called her here again? Why had he done that?
"What is she doing here Finn? Is she playing one of the lead roles in another production?" Tina asked as she folded her arms across her chest.
Santana then sighed "I'm here because Finn said that he wanted the girls and boys to both have a sing-off. He is going to work with the boys and he asked me to come along to work with you girls. If that's alright with you Asian Princess" Santana replied to Tina.
Tina just frowned and didn't say anything afterwards.
Brittany was just happy that Santana was back and she looked to Tina and frowned "Tina I don't understand why you could be so mean. Santana is your friend and she always will be. I know you're upset about the fact that she got to play Rizzo in Grease but you have to learn to put the past behind you and just get over it. Don't let something as stupid as a part in a play break a perfectly good friendship" she said to Tina.
It wasn't until after Glee had finished, and when everyone was starting to leave, that Ryder noticed that Glee was actually over. He had been too busy trying to work out what he should say to Jake to try and sort things out. As soon as Ryder had walked out of the choir room he almost walked into Jake who was flirting like mad with Marley.
"Hey Ryder, are you alright? You weren't even paying attention in Glee" Marley said to him and just looked to Jake with a confused expression when Ryder walked off without saying a word.
"Did I do something wrong?" Marley asked Jake.
"I'll go and see what's up with him" Jake smiled as he then kissed Marley's cheek before walking after Ryder.
"What the hell dude? Why did you just walk away like that, without answering Marley?" Jake asked Ryder when he'd caught up to him.
Ryder just stopped and turned around "Because of you. How do you think I felt when I saw you flirting with her like that? You know how I feel about you Jake. I wasn't going to stand there and watch you stare at her like that." Ryder said to him as a single tear rolled down his face.
"Oh okay so now I can't flirt with anyone because you love me?" Jake asked him.
Ryder just sighed softly "I didn't mean that. I just meant that it fucking hurt. It really hurt. How would you feel if you told me that you loved me and I told you that I didn't love you and that I didn't want to and then you end up catching me flirting with someone else?" he said to him, trying to stop more tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Look just because it hurts you that doesn't mean that I can't flirt with her." Jake said to him "As far as you know I could really like her. I'm not going to stop it just because it hurts you. I'm allowed to flirt with whoever I want to flirt with I want to flirt with and you are not going to stop me from…" Jake said to him with a glare but he was cut off by Ryder pressing his lips to his. Jake instantly pushed Ryder away from him and just looked at him as if he was stupid "What the fuck was that?" he asked him.
Ryder just looked to the floor "I'm sorry okay I just….." Ryder began to say but couldn't actually finish the sentence.
"You just what? Wanted to kiss me in the middle of the corridor, where anyone could see it and try to get me to kiss you back making people think that we're dating or something?" Jake said to him.
Ryder then just looked up at him, the tears threatening to fall down his cheeks now "You know what? Forget it. Just forget it" he said as he turned around and walked off with the tears streaming down his face.
Brittany was walking down the corridor headed to her locker when she ended up seeing Ryder leaning against the wall, with tears streaming down his face. She just walked over to him and smiled sadly. She really hated seeing her friends cry and although she didn't know him all that well she classed Ryder as one of her friends.
"Ryder, are you okay? What's the matter?" She asked him, just hoping that if he told her she would be able to help.
Ryder looked up and smiled ever so slightly. He knew that he could tell Brittany and she wouldn't judge him, not that any of the other New Directions would either. If he could trust any of the New Directions with this type of problem then it was Brittany because she was the kind of person who would always try to help and if she couldn't help then she would try and make you feel better. He knew that he could always talk to Finn but he knew that Finn probably wouldn't be able to help. Brittany seemed like his best bet right now.
"You know when I just left after singing that song and then Jake went after me? Well I ended up telling him that I loved him and he just blew me off. He said he didn't love me and that he didn't want to, and then just before when I left the choir room I walked out to see him flirting with Marley and even though Marley spoke to me I just walked off. I only did it because it just hurt to see him flirting with her and when Jake came after me to ask me why I ignored her, I told him and he practically said that he didn't care and that he could flirt with whoever he wanted to flirt with, but it was mainly the fact that he said it and…and didn't even seem to care about the fact that it hurt me" Ryder said to her. Hoping that he hadn't confused her or bored her or something like that.
"Never get upset over a guy, no matter what he did. No guy is worth your tears. I know it might seem pointless to think this, but if it's meant to be then it will be but if it's not then you'll get over him and find someone else. Santana taught me that, no matter what happens if things are meant to be they always turn out alright in the end but if not then things still work out okay. She might be a spastic Lebanese but she is probably one of the smartest people I know and she knows how guys minds work." Brittany said to him as she pulled him into a hug. Ryder just hugged Brittany back, with a small smile. She had made so much sense, well apart form when she called Santana a spastic Lebanese. What did that mean? Although that had confused him she had helped.
After a few moments Brittany pulled away from the hug and smiled at Ryder before practically skipping off to her locker.
Tina then just walked over to Ryder "I heard what Brittany said about Santana. Don't worry that is all I heard I promise. When she said that Santana was a spastic Lebanese she meant a Hispanic Lesbian" she smiled at him and just sighed softly.
Ryder just smiled slightly at Tina "People always say she's stupid but she's not. She really helped me"
"Yeah, that is Brittany for you" Tina smiled.
Ryder looked to where Jake and Marley had been before and saw the Cheerio that he had gone to the Sadie Hawkins Dance with. He quickly turned away, hoping that she hadn't seen him.
"Oh God! Its her." He sighed.
"Who?" Tina asked him, rather confused.
"You know that girl I went to the Sadie Hawkins Dance with?" Ryder asked and when Tina nodded he carried on "Well I think she's like obsessed with me or something. I mean the day after she followed me around as much as possible and yesterday she kept bumping into me, making it seem like an accident, and giggling and just staring at me. She's freaking me out. She keeps following me"
Tina just laughed "Sounds like you have a new girlfriend"
Ryder just laughed "No seriously she's scary. She's a freakin' psycho bitch. I swear she's stalking me"
The Cheerio then walked up to Ryder and grinned at him and giggled slightly before speaking to him "Hey Ryder. Why have you been ignoring me? I've been calling you. Is it because you don't recognise my number?" she said to him.
"Wait what? How did…..how did you get my number?" Ryder asked her.
"Well in Cheerio practise afterwards I asked Kitty to give me your number and she did. Should I give you my number? Then that way you will know it's me" she said to him with a smile that actually freaked Ryder out slightly. He couldn't even remember what her name was, so when she gave him her number he wasn't sure what he could even put her under.
Ryder just didn't say anything to that. If he had her number then he wouldn't have a reason to ignore her because he didn't want to tell her that she was freaking him out.
"Why not give me it later; I kinda need to be somewhere right now." Ryder said before running off. He knew it wasn't fair on her but he couldn't help it. He had to just avoid getting her number for as long as possible. He couldn't do this anymore. He couldn't just keep getting hurt or upset over Jake. He just didn't know what to do anymore.