Before they knew it they had indeed got Merlin out of his wet clothes, it had been too long since they saw each other last, Arthur had missed the feel of his boy under his hands, the taste of him on his lips. Therefore, there wasn't much conversation to be heard coming from the room, their lips crashing against each other, constantly battling for control, their tongues searching deeper and deeper, exploring the known territory with a new eagerness, in search for something, something new and exciting, the warmth of their breath brushing against the skin of the others face. Merlin moved over to the bed, laying down on it pulling Arthur along with him, as he did so he whispered in his ear 'I missed you too…'
That was all Arthur needed and he was on top of Merlin, a leg either side straddling him with ease, leaning down, crashing their lips together again, hands all over each other, pale in blonde, tanned in dark, roaming the others body till item by item their clothing was removed, laying there, wanting more of each other but taking their time, the flesh they touched was familiar to their fingertips, yet there was so much need to reconnect, to remember everything they felt as if it was new to them. Leaning over to the drawer next to his bed Arthur pulled out the essentials, the tube of lubricant placing it on the side as with hesitation he put his hand back in the drawer, his fingers brushing against the small packet at the back of the drawer, the edges grazing against the soft skin, he looked down into the sapphire orbs glancing up at him, hope in his own eyes, but joined with fear, there was a silent question in them… 'Are you still just mine, are we still safe' but his fear was only short lived as Merlin placed a hand on his cheek, answering out loud 'I'm only yours Arthur, always.' With that he shut the drawer with a smile, the unused precautions getting trapped away again.
Leaning down to plant a kiss on Merlin's mouth Arthur sighed softly, this kiss was different to the others, it was sweet, passionate, but also reassuring, telling Merlin that Arthur was his, and only his also. After preparing his fingers with the lubricant, he trailed his hand down Merlin's torso, round his hip, over his leg and down in between his thighs until he found the area he was looking for.
Pressing lightly against the skin at his entrance he began slipping in his finger, moving it in and out as he heard the other man sigh next to him, kissing him again, slow and deep as he added a second, then a third finger, Merlin's hand on the back of his neck, the other on the bicep of the arm Arthur was bracing himself up on so he could be above Merlin, granting them both better access to the others mouth while Arthurs fingers did their work. Suddenly, without warning he bent his fingers, hitting the spot that made Merlin cry out, again and again, over and over until Merlin was begging him for more. He knew what he meant. Withdrawing his fingers he repositioned himself so that he was once again above him, straddling his lean hips, arousal growing as their increasingly hard members touched. Putting more lube in his hand he coated himself before moving in between Merlin's legs. Leaning down to plant another kiss on his boys lips, followed by one on each of his nipples, and all the way down his stomach Arthur started to push himself into Merlin, gaining entrance. The warmth, the tightness that surrounded him, it was the greatest welcome he could ask for and it was something he would never tire of. He had been with one or two guys before him and his best friend finally admitted they loved each other, but none of them had been like this, nothing he had ever experienced made him feel the way being inside Merlin made him feel. The look on the face of the man below him made it all the better as well, his skin was shimmering with the slight sheen of sweat forming, his cheeks pink with arousal, his eyes were closed and his lips.. just the sight of his lips made Arthur moan, still swollen from the amount of kissing they had endured, they were wet and slightly parted, whispering his name over and over again. His head tipped back over the pillow showing off the expanse of pale neck, Arthur couldn't help himself, leaning down he placed a kiss on the pulse point before starting to suck on it as he built up the rhythm with his hips, a continuous motion of pulling out before crashing back down, until eventually he hit the spot again.
Once he had found the spot inside that made that sound escape from Merlin's lips, a sound that only Arthur could get from him, a sound that only Arthur would hear. Ever. He started to suck harder on the pulse point until he pulled his head away seeing the purple mark he had made on the other boys neck, claiming him as his own. Leaning back he smiled at the boy below him, smirking as Merlin looked back and said in a teasing voice 'see something you like?' … or at least he attempted to say it but not only did he have to form words around the moans that kept escaping his lips, but Arthur had just put his hand around Merlin's leaking hard on, wiping the pre-cum across the top with the tip of his thumb as he started to pump it in time with his hips.
'Arthur… Arthur, I cant… oh God Arthur, I'm going to…' but he was cut off yet again as Arthur kissed him softly, moving down to his ear as he whispered sweetly 'come for me Merlin, your lips around my name…' and almost as if he had been waiting for the permission Merlin came, shooting all over Arthurs hand, his ass tightening around Arthur making him come also, riding it out he tried to continue to move before collapsing on Merlin's chest, breathing heavy he pulled out reluctantly, they were both sticky and in need of cleaning after their games, so standing Arthur offered Merlin his hand.
Walking into the en-suite bathroom that extended off Arthurs room they turned on the shower and stepped under the steaming water, Merlin stepped in front of Arthur, leaning his head back against his shoulder as Arthur wrapped his arms around him, just letting the water run down on to them, the water trailing down their smooth skin while their hands caressed each other. Rinsing off their bodies in amongst kisses; passionate and long, Arthur massaging Merlin's shoulders as he washed his back, the water eventually started to turn cold.
Stepping out and wrapping towels around themselves they walked into the bedroom. After drying off and climbing back into bed, Merlin's head resting on Arthurs chest as they held each other, there was silence between them, not totally uncomfortable, but there was something about it Arthur didn't like. 'Where've you been Merls?' it was a conversation they were going to have to have at some point, so why not now… 'I didn't hear from you for nearly two weeks, let alone see you…' there was no other way to put it, he just had to say it like it was, however there were some things he wouldn't say, he couldn't, not even to Merlin.
Merlin didn't know where to begin, he could hear the pain in Arthurs voice, heard the things he wasn't saying and it broke his heart to know what he had put him through, the man he loved, the man he swore to himself he would never hurt. 'I'm sorry Arthur, I never meant to put you through all that, I… I just had to sort out some things, work out what I want from my life, since Freya died, It got me thinking about stuff…' he knew it was vague but it was all he could manage. Feeling Arthur shift slightly underneath him he should have expected the questions that came from the other boys lips.
'What does that mean though Merlin? You say from your life, does that include us? Is that why you've been avoiding me, do you not want to do this anymore…?' he heard his voice great Arthur Pendragon, the boy who could never be seen to break, never be seen to show any emotion. Merlin was an exception to that rule, but not completely, he usually had limits, the walls not completely broken down around them. He found that bit of freedom in Merlin, that spark of hope, a glimmer of true love, he didn't want to lose it. What Arthur wanted Arthur got, but he knew this was different. If Merlin wanted to call it off, he would let him, he wouldn't keep him beyond his wishes, he wouldn't hurt him like that.
Pulling himself up off Arthurs chest Merlin looked the other boy in the face, he could see all the feelings hidden, the fear that he was about to lose him, but also something that said he wouldn't stop him if that is what he really wanted, he wouldn't force him to stay if he didn't want to… 'I said I'm yours always Arthur, I still mean that. Even if it meant I had to lose everything else, I would sooner die than have to leave you!' he truly did mean what he said, Arthur was his world and he wouldn't let him go for anything.
Arthur couldn't help but smile at that, letting out the breath he didn't realise he had been holding, pulling his boy back down into his arms. Soon they were both asleep, holding on to each other, together they would get through whatever came at them, whatever it was Merlin was putting himself through, Arthur wasn't going to let him do this alone, and he knew Merlin felt the same!