People deal with loneliness and anxiety different ways….and this is just how Cagalli found to deal with hers….but it brought horrible concequences.
He had just been dumped.
It hurt.
The girl he had been engaged to for a long time had just dumped him for his friend.
He could not fathom why.
It was all so sudden. Well not really, they had been having an affair for a while, and that was what hurt the most.
She wouldn't even let him hold her hand, yet she was already sleeping around with him. Yes he knew that it was an arranged engagement, but still he liked her and he thought she liked him too, but apparently he was wrong.
In an enclosed battle ship it was almost impossible to avoid them.
Unless he stayed locked up in his room, he would have to see them and work with them.
It made him angry.
She had never talked to him before.
He was the quiet type.
She's probably scared him off. She had a short fuse, but that was only for show. Really she was a scared little kitten. She had learned to put on the fiery façade in order to protect herself. If she didn't do that, her inferiority feelings would overwhelm her. She would break under pressure.
The only time when she was vulnerable since she was a kid was on that one eventful night, and look where it got her.
She wanted to feel needed again, and it didn't matter who it was. She wanted to forget her problems.
"I wonder if I can get some cigarettes?" she asked herself, but she knew she couldn't smoke.
That would only hurt the fetus.
"Hey Cagalli." The Gundam pilot greeted her upon entering the ship's lounge.
"Oh hey, Kira." She greeted him.
Kira was the one that kept the Archangel from falling into enemy hands, but that took out a lot from him. She knew personally just how distraught he was, and she really wanted him to comfort her, but at the moment it was impossible. He had a girlfriend.
"So how's everything going?" he asked.
"Eh…I want to get back on the sky grasper again, but I guess that ain't gonna happen." She said.
"Well you know that time… the captain broke the rules by letting a civilian fight and something could have happened to you." He said.
That time…. that was when it happened.
She wanted to feel useful so she pushed her stubbornness on the captain until she let her join the fight. Then her life went down to hell.
She got shot down and landed on a deserted island, but apparently it she was not alone. He was there.
She became his prisoner.
Yes, he could have done whatever he wanted with her, but he didn't. He waited until she would consent.
Maybe if he had just raped her she wouldn't be pregnant.
She knew that much. It was rare to get pregnant after a rape.
Maybe it would have been better. At least for the psychological trauma she could get help to learn to deal with it, but how could she learn to live with a child growing inside of her?
She already needed psychological help, but she didn't want to admit it.
She was broken.