Disclaimer: Do you really want me to stop and show you the right I have to write this? Did not think so… (Stops holding breath and walks away faster)
Stuttering
I know this is so symbolic of everything. Everything that is wrong with you and me, so tell me what I am supposed to do. It has been ages since we have been honest, but I can make changes if you really want this. So maybe I will just keep my mouth shut, at least until you kiss me.
He stood in the middle of his bedroom, which was currently a mess; clothes everywhere expensive ties now lying in the floor, and still nothing that he put on looked good enough. Why did he care so much? It was after all only Jack, He could be naked and Jack would not care. On the other hand, he would care so much that the whole date would go to hell, and he did not want that, he had missed him so much it hurt. Thousand of butterflies had a party in his stomach as soon as he had heard his voice. While searching the office with Jack making all those kinky remarks about office relationships, he had to fight the urge of forgetting why he was mad at him. Then Jack had come out with the most ridiculous idea in the whole history of time: a date.
His first instinct had been to throw a stapler to Jack's head and render him unconscious. But what good would that provide, after all he would just feel sorry for hitting him, for it was Jack who was supposed to feel sorry not him. What was the point of this so-called date? Making sure that his knees would still weakened at mere sight of him. He could easily probe that without the need of going out. He grabs another shirt and looks in to the mirror; suit or no suit, become the ultimate question now. He looks to the floor thinking of the time he is going to spend in organizing his closet once more.
Once finally agreeing with jack, another question had begun haunted him. After he asked about John, Jack simple response had been, "He is part of my past and I want him gone." Why? Was the real question he wanted to ask instead of just nodding and allowing Jack to leave without a proper explanation. All day he had been thinking about that, when the time came would he Ianto Jones be only a part of his past also. Would he ever want to erase all the memories of them being together? He knew the most probable answer for that was, yes. Then why go on with this. Why would Jack allow him to build castles in the sand just to step all over them in the future? It was ridiculous, and yet he knew he could never say no to Jack, when had he become such a masochist.
No suit, just a jacket, although the place was semi-formal he could get away with wearing a jacket. He had no clue were to take Jack on a date, he had not been in a date since Lisa, and pretty much did not want to end up in a gay bar. He thought about asking Owen, he was out in dates almost all the time. Then an image of Owen laughing at his face and saying disgusting made him decide otherwise. He thought about Gwen, but in his mind it sounded as if he was about to stab her in the heart, or rub it on her face. He was not sure about Toshiko; he almost never saw her go on dates. However, she had gone out with Mary. After approaching her in the most discrete way possible, first she had giving him a look that said. Are you going out with him after what he did to you? However, to his surprise her response had been "I think you make a great couple." They had spend hours in Google looking for the right place, and after narrow it down to two places he had made a choice" Japanese cuisine, who cares that jack could not eat with chopsticks. It was a nice place, semi-formal, private, and away from the hub.
Putting on a third Jacket, caused him to pause for he remember that one, he had been wearing it the first time they had meet. Again, it follows the other two to the floor, and decides for the last one. He was just about to grab a tie, when the doorbell rings.
"Fuck"- He curses under his breath and goes on to open the door holding back a smile.
Authors Note: Thank you everyone who had read this, but why not take it to another level, just tell me what do you think about it. Please do not hesitate even if you hate it.