A/N Here is the second chapter of this story. This is definitely a Rizzles story. Thank you so much for all you wonderful feedback! I'm planning to write a few more chapters. If you haven't already, I would advise you all to listen to ""The mess I made" by Parachute. It's the inspiration for this story and while writing, I have it on repeat. Please let me know what you think about my story and if I should continue. Thank you for reading and have fun!

Chapter 2

Jane lay back down in her bed and put her hands on her face. What did she do?! It took her a lifetime to find the one person she truly loved and who accepted her for who she was. With all her sarcastic jokes, grumpy comments but most of all for the job she did. Maura was the first person in her life that didn't have a problem with her job. Of course she was worried about Jane and her safety, but she understood what it meant for Jane and she supported her in it.

Thinking back to the wonderful dream she woke up from not so long ago, the pain in her heart started coming back. The feeling of being so close to Maura made her heart swell, but it also made her afraid. Afraid of all the things that could happen with them being together. Hoyt was in jail, but it wouldn't be the first time he would send someone after her. And with Maura being so close to her she would become a target. By breaking up with her, Jane thought Maura was safe from him. She was no longer a target. It was the best thing to do. She had to protect Maura. She could never see her get hurt.

She couldn't tell Maura the real reason why they broke up, because she would've never accepted it. She would have argued with her for all the reasons Jane wanted to end things. That's why Jane had to tell her that she didn't love her. Maura would accept it and move on, Jane hoped. But the truth is, Jane loved her more that anything in the world. She was the love of her life and doing this broke her heart. But she would do anything to keep Maura safe, even leave the one person she truly loved.

It was time to get ready for work, so Jane swung her legs out of the bed. She took one long and deep breath before standing fully and walking towards her bathroom. She looked in the mirror in front of her and saw her red eyes. Maybe a long and hot shower could wash all her regret and sorrow away. Even if it was for the time being.

After the breakup

Maura felt like her heart was broken into a million pieces. How was this even possible? They where so happy together. She never saw any signs that Jane did not love her. Even her eyes told her otherwise every time she looked in them. Maura held her head in her hands, tears still streaming down her face. Then she heard a knock at the door that led to the little patio. Before she had time to give an answer the door swung open and there was Angela. When she saw Maura all she could do was run over to her and put her arms around her.

"What happened? What did Jane do?" Angela asked her, already angry at her daughter for causing this pain in the doctor. Maura looked into Angela's eyes an tried to get a few words out, but all she could do was sob louder. Her head fell to Angela's shoulder and she let all the tears and pain flood out.

After a while of rubbing soothing circles on Maura's back, Angela noticed that her breathing slowly came back to normal. When she felt Maura take a deep breath, she pulled a little away. She used the thumb to rub away some of the tears and smooched makeup still on the honey blond's face. When Maura opened her eyes again, Angela tried to find some answers. "Honey, what happened?" Maura's eyes fell to the ground. She could not look in Angela's brown eyes that reminded her so much of Jane's. "Jane.. Jane broke up with me.." A few tears escape her eyes.

"What?!" Angela almost screamed. "She did what?! Why on earth would she do that? She love's you!" By those last three words all the tears Maura tried to hold back streamed down her cheeks again. "She told me.. she doesn't.. That she only loves.. me as a friend." Maura tried to get out. Angela looked shocked. "What do you mean? Of course she loves you as more than a friend. Everyone can see it! The way she looks at you with that smile plastered to her face. It can only mean one thing, honey. Love."

Maura put her head back on Angela's shoulder. "But if that's true, why would she lie to me and say that she is not in love with me in that way?" Angela softly chuckled. "Let me tell you something about Janie. Her whole life she was alone. Of course she had some friends, but nothing was like the friendship I see between the two of you. She has never let someone get as close to her as she let's you. You know you are the only one who she let's touch her hands, right?" Maura slowly nodded, but had a feeling Angela wasn't finished.

"Maura, sweety. Jane loves you. I know it! She'll probably got scared. Certainly so close after the attack. You know she likes to pretend she is this strong detective, but actually she can be a real softly sometimes. And you being there with her, I think it scared the shit out of her. Excuse my language." Maura chuckled slightly at Angela scolding herself for cursing. "Jane loves you, never doubt that. I thinks she just needs some time to figure things out. And before you know it she'll be standing at your door trying to apologize." Maura turned her head up. "I sure hope so. I can't imagine my life without her."

"Maybe you can give her a push in the right direction by showing her what she lost." Angela says. This made Maura look questionably at her. "What do you mean by that?" Maura asked curious. "Just let her see what she is missing out on. Dress like you are going out on a date. Make her jealous. If I know my Janie, she will and soon realize what she has done. She'll be back here before you know it." Angela says.

After her long and hot shower Jane wrapped herself in a large towel and stood in front her mirror. She dreaded going to work today. She had the weekend off. That meant that she did not saw Maura after their breakup. How would Maura look? Would her colleagues know and how would they react? Hell, how would her own mother react to the news that she broke up with Maura. She saw her as one of her own children. Maybe if she went early her mother wouldn't be there. She could not handle her just now.

Arriving at BPD she made her way to the cafe, hoping her mother was not in yet. Carefully looking around the corner she could not see her. The only one there was Stanley, standing behind the counter wiping it down with a cloth. She made her way to the coffee machine to make herself a cup. When she put the lid on her coffee she heard someone call her name. 'Janie!" Oh no, was all Jane could think. I wasn't here early enough. Slowly she turns around and looks at her mother walking towards her in a quick pace.

"Janie! I've been trying to call you all weekend! Where were you! And do you know what you did to Maura?!" Angela scolded at Jane. She was afraid this was going to happen. That's why she was avoiding her mother by not answering her calls. With her living next to Maura she would certainly find out quick what had happened.

"Ma!" She almost shouted at her mother, just for trying to stop her rant. Her mother stopped talking and looked her daughter in the eyes. "Janie, what where you thinking? How could you hurt Maura like that? I raised you better than this! She is the best thing that ever happened to you. Why would you walk away from that!" Jane looked at the ground "Ma, I just.. I had to do this. I have my reasons, okay?" she spoke with a small voice. "Janie, whatever your reasons are, are they worth it? Losing her over it? Because even if you only have a little bit of doubt in you, just talk to her and fix it!" Angela said. "Ma, I can't right now. I have to get to work" Jane said, turning around and walking out of the cafe.

With her swagger on overdrive Jane walked into the bullpen towards her desk. She put her coffee down, turned on her computer, sat in her chair and leaned back. A day full of paperwork. She hoped the rest of her day would be easier. When she heard a sound she looked up and saw Frost and Korsak. They where smiling until they saw Jane and how terrible she looked. "What the hell happened to you! Rough weekend with the doc?" Frost asked a smirk playing at his lips. Jane was afraid of this. She knew her partner would see something was up, but she was not ready to talk about it. "Just peachy" She said with a deadly glare, which silenced him immediately. They both went to their desk and knew not to ask any more questions about the issue.

After a few hours of tedious paperwork Jane ran into a problem. She was working on a file that need some forensic evidence included, but the report was down in the morgue with Maura. And the last thing she wanted to do now was going down there and see her. It would only make things harder for them both. Maybe if she played this well, Frost could get her the file. "Hey Frost, do you have that forensic evidence file on the Matthews case?" Jane asked him. "No, I think it is down in the morgue. Why don't you go get it?" He answered. "Oh come on. Could you grab it for me. I'm in the middle of this file!" She replied with a whine. He crooked one off his eyebrows. She never said no to a trip down to the morgue. What the hell happened between them this weekend. He figured it was bad, but was not going to get involved in whatever it was.

"I'm not going to grab you that file so you can avoid her, you know. Whatever happened this weekend, fix it Rizzoli! Strap on some and fix whatever it is you did!" Frost said firm. "What the hell makes you think I did something!" She shot back at him. "Come on Rizzoli! We both know she's to polite to mess something up and not try everything to solve the problem." Jane sighs in defeat. She knew her partner was right and she was not going to win this argument. So she had to go down to the morgue herself and get the file. Her partner certainly wouldn't do it.

She stood up from her desk and took a deep breath. It was time to face the music and see where she stood with Maura. How much the damage was she did. Walking towards the elevator, she pulled her jacked back on and fixed her hair. Pushing the elevator button she stood there waiting until she heard the sound signaling it had arrived. The doors opened and she step inside. Leaning against the side wall of the elevator, she sighed and closed her eyes. Thinking about Maura, how she would look, what she would be wearing, but most of all how they would interact with each other. The doors closed and the elevator went down. Time to face the mess I made.