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This isn't really bad, maybe a T-rating because it mentions rape but that's all. Nothing bad in it.

There may be in later chapters though ;)

Disclaimer: Don't own Naruto, never have and never will.

Tears of Silver, A Heart Full of Pain

Sakura sighed slightly as her body forced her into the living. She struggled against her opening eye lids, she didn't want to be awake yet, the bed was too comfortable. Warm and comfortable. Her nose opened as she took a deep breath and a foreign smell hit her nose.

Something smelled off, she didn't know how to explain it but this just didn't smell like her.

"If I have a smell," inner Sakura muttered. "What the heck is the dea-"

Last night hit her like a ton of bricks and the pink female jerked up in the bed causing her head to spin. It had to be a dream, a nightmare something like that wouldn't have happened. Kakashi wouldn't do that.

Her breath caught in her throat as she stared at the unknown walls and room. "No, no no no no," she repeated over and over gripping the blanket tightly in her fists. She moved her legs and felt a sharp pain of discomfort. She didn't know if it had been what had happened last night or just her imagination.

"What had happened last night," saying the words out loud made them true. She'd admitted it.

She heard a slight rumble beside her and jumped out of bed ignoring the "discomfort" between her legs. On the opposite side of the bed face first slept a shirtless Kakashi Hatake, her sensei. Fear rose in her with a large blush on her cheeks as she backed away. She looked down at herself and noticed his shirt. She was wearing his shirt, and just the shirt.

It was true. It had happened. She couldn't deny it.

Sakura didn't know what to think when her back hit the wall and she leaned against it for support. For some reason she was calm, not what she thought she should have been. "I should be crying," she muttered. "What the heck is wrong with me?"

Thoughts of last night finally came through the mist of her mind. She felt him all over again, touching her, breathing on her, kissing her, and-Sakura shook her head getting rid of the offending thoughts.

Kakashi groaned again and fear like she had never known jumped in her spine climbing its way up to her neck. Suddenly she felt exposed, raw, and most of all dirty. She hugged herself and glanced around the panic didn't subside it increased.

"I have to get out of here," Inner Sakura cried. "Now, now, now," her inner self gripped her hair almost pulling it out at the roots.

Sakura felt scared stiff but the urgency in her mind made her move slowly, quietly, so he wouldn't wake up. If she hadn't been so freaked out she'd had noticed that she had switched places with inner Sakura. Her inner, the strong much like Ino was crying, and her outer shell was calm. Calmer than it should have been.

Her hands slightly shaking she found her clothes. She didn't dare open the door, even if he was asleep Kakashi was still a jonin with the hearing abilities she couldn't hope to fathom. Going through the open door bathroom she used the adjoining room to change.

"Why," she thought. "He's already seen me naked so whats the point in hiding to change?"

"Because what if he sees you and decides to do it again?" Inner Sakura yelled. Sakura stopped and yanked up her panties as fast as she could. The thought of what had happened last night happening again scared her more than Gaara in his beast form ever could.

She got dressed and walked slowly back into the bedroom thanking anyone who was listening that he had stayed asleep. If she was lucky he'd sleep forever.

She walked over to the door steadying herself. She was going to open it as silently as possible but if he moved on inch she was gone. Sakura looked behind her already gathering chakra to her feet. She couldn't outrun him if he decided to case her, but she'd give him a hell of a race to catch her. Besides with chakra and surprise on her side she was bound to find someone before he could do anything.

The door opened and squeaked. Kakashi didn't move.

She walked to the front door careful not to hit anything but kept an eye on him the whole time. Her heart beat hard in her chest and she was sure it was going to fail her at any moment. She hit the front door and opened. No footsteps, no yelling, no chakra being built in the other room. Maybe someone was looking after her.

Kakashi's eyes opened as soon as the door closed. He knew Sakura had woken up but had stayed still pretending to sleep so she didn't freak out. She needed time to gather herself yes, he stood, but he was going to be her shadow wither she liked or not. He threw on his shirt, jacket, and slid on his sandals.

He stared out the window and saw the Hokaga faces in the mountain. "Please let her be strong enough," his eyes rested on Yondaime, the only man he ever trusted. Jumping out the window he moved down the street following her trial.

Everyone seemed to be out on the streets and judging by the sun it was already late in the morning. Sakura was suffocating. Every man, woman, and child that glanced her way she could see it in their eyes. They knew. They knew exactly what he had done. What she had let him do.

Hugging herself and power walking she turned the corner and walked right into her peers. Gai's team along with Asumas.

"Jeez Sakura watch where your going."

Ino's voice rang in her ears but didn't register. This morning was surreal. Nothing made any sense.

"What the heck happened to your hair and clothes forehead," Ino pointed at her wrinkled attire and bed ridden hair.

A hand went up in alarm to her hair and Sakura stuttered. "I…I…I…um…broke my comb this morning!" The lie came out forceful and louder than she had intended.

"What?" Ino voiced. Did she hear right? A look of disbelief and a raised eyebrow made Sakura's blood pressure rise. Ino couldn't know? Could she?

"Come on Ino, we've got practice," Asuma voiced. "You and Shikamaru need to go through the new formation." He walked by, "Tell Kakashi to meet me at area 44 this afternoon would you Sakura?"

Sakura flinched back violently and fell backwards tripping over a dis guarded bottle.

"Sakura!" Lee was by her side in a second pulling her up.

"I'm fine," the feel of his hand on her arm made her stomach flop. She yanked her hands out of his fast, "Thank you Lee."

"That is just like the Sakura I know never letting anything keep her down," Lee flashed a smile and a wink in her direction.

Sakura knew what that wink meant and she wanted to vomit everything that had entered her stomach yesterday.

"The power of youth is full today!" Gai spoke. He laughed, "Why even the sun is smiling. Sakura as Kakashi's favorite student I need you to give him something."

"Fa…Favo…Favorite Student?" Sakura stuttered again. Her fists clenched and shook. Her breath became shallow and uneven "Is that why he…" she let her voice drop.

"He what?" Asuma asked his voice coming full of concern. He didn't like the way Sakura was acting, especially when it came to Kakashi.

"Tell anyone of this and I'll do the same to Naruto and Sasuke," his voice rang in her ears.

"He let me get away with not having to go to practice this afternoon!" She lied. The junin looked at her, the response was too fast and her pulse was racing. Why would she lie about something like that?

It was none of his business. Of course he did plan to talk to a silver haired peer about it later because that wasn't normal in any student.

Sakura could feel every inch of dirt on her body. She felt so dirty, worthless, like trash that had been disreguarded and all she wanted was to run. Run as fast as she could to get away from them. But society rules kept her in place.

"Well alright Forehead we'll see you later!" Ino chided running off with her team. The blonde looked back slightly as Sakura didn't reply with the typical Ino-pig remark. Something was wrong, she knew it, but she shrugged it off. Sakura could handle Sakura.

"We should go too," Lee looked at his sensei. "We have three hundred laps to catch up on!"

Gai looked at him and agreed walking off. Ten-Ten and Neji followed. They had been so engrossed in each other's conversation that they hadn't even looked at Sakura. And the girl was thankful.

Unable to keep herself under control she ran. Her lungs felt hot as she ran harder and harder, her eyes watering. She had to get away from here, anywhere but here. Home entered her mind. Her room, her bed, her shelter, her safe place. But she was torn. She wasn't the same person anymore so why should her home bring the same comfort?

She ran harder and into the side alleyways. The slums of the town.

Kakashi kept up with the female from the roof growing worried. She wasn't taking this very well but he couldn't blame her. The male had thought she would run home but instead she'd taken the wrong road and ran further and further down into the bad side of the village. Any further and she'd reach the dead Uchila compound.

"Damn it turn around," he hissed. Didn't she know that the people here would take everything from her? She wasn't safe. He sighed. He really didn't want to make an appearance sure that if he just popped up in front of her that she would freak out and might lose herself deeper into the dark pit.

A dark pit he knew all to well.

But if she kept going she'd leave him no choice.

As he leaned down ready to jump in front of her a blonde caught his attention as well as a certain raven haired boy. Naruto and Sasuke.

"Aw come on are you chicken or something?" Naruto looked at the other male. "I could take you on blindfolded."

"Dream on loser," Sasuke spoke as the cut around the corner. A pink blob came at them and the Uchila's reflexes kicked in and he swerved to the side.

Naruto however took it full impact sending him to the ground with the pink thing on top of him.

"What the heck!" the blonde yelled out loud looking down at a clinging thing. He immediately was meet with greenish blue eyes that stared up at him from his chest. "Sakura?!"

"Na…Na…Naruto," she whispered. The face finally became clear in her head. "Naruto," she wailed this time. The force of what had happened finally catching up with her. She whished she could have run forever, but that didn't happen.

She grabbed on to the boy's shirt tightly and hid herself in the fabric. She let herself cry hard and uncaring that she was sprawled out on top of him. His smell was something familiar. Safe. She let it engulf her as if she let go she would die.

"Sakura?" Naruto questioned looking down at her. He frowned. What had happened? He glanced up at Sasuke who looked about as clueless as he was for once. The boy stood off to the side wide-eyed staring at the scene. Sure he'd seen Sakura cry, but never like this.

"Um…Sakura," Naruto stuttered. He put a hand behind her back and watched as she flinched slightly. So he backed off and just laid there narrowing his eyes. It hurt him watching her like this, the girl who always brought smiles and motherly love into his life. Any other time he would have been overjoyed at his crush holding him like this but…

"She's asleep," Sasuke announced kneeling beside them.

"What happened to her?" Naruto asked.

"Don't know," Sasuke looked at him. "Someone must have hurt her or something."

"I don't see any wounds," Naruto moved up slowly so the girl fell to his chest. "Do you?"

"No," Sasuke frowned.

"What do we do?"

"Let's take her home," he picked up the girl and held her like a bride. "Do you know…where she lives?" he felt a little uncomfortable having to ask where his team mate of two years lived.

"Yeah," Naruto looked at him. He was slightly jealous of the fact that he got to hold Sakura but the sight of her asleep stopped him from protesting. She looked so much more peaceful than she had moments ago. "Follow me."

Kakashi watched the boys walk away and felt grateful for them. Sakura would make it, he realized. She would come through, she had too, with friends like that. His gut turned as he remembered what he had done. Flashbacks of that night flew into his head and he pushed them away.

Anger swelled in him. He'd done what he was told. A good little puppet. Puppet his ass. It was time, he decided, to see a certain Hokaga and elders. He'd be damned if anyone got in his way.

"We have enough to support our cause," the female elder looked at Tsunada. "Math proves it."

"You can't be serious," the Hokaga sighed back. "This is not going to make the problem go away."

"It is the price to pay for being a female ninja," an old man voiced sitting in the back. The way he said it made her skin crawl. Like it was just another part of the job that second class females should have to deal with. It was as if he got a kick out of it or thought it funny.

"Taking away the virginity of young women is going to help the situation. You know as well as I do sometimes we get missions were the virginity of boys have to be lost to other men. What's next, raping them?" She was almost yelling now.

At the thought of raping boys the man's face became a large frown in disgust. Tsuanada wanted to strangle him. So it was okay to rape girls and not boys? Double standards…

"Hey! You can't go in there!" Loud noises appeared behind the rooms doors before it burst open and a very angry silver haired junin walked into the room.

"Kakahsi, you can't…"

"Genma," the man turned to the other ninja who had been watching the door. He pulled out a kunai and stared at him in the eye. "Go wait outside."

The male looked at Tsuanada who nodded before going out and closing the door behind him. Fine, just let whoever wanted walk in.

"Who is this?" the male stood up pointing at the intruder in outrage. He, another male, the female elder and the Hokaga was the only ones who were supposed to be here.

The young man looked at him hard. "Hatake Kakashi, junin of the leaf village, ex-ANBU black op leader." He added that little bit of information at the end to tell the man that he had no clue of who he was messing with.

"What are you doing here," as Kakashi expected the man faltered and left him be. Sometimes it paid to be a genius.

"I let myself in to discuss a certain matter with you and the Hokaga." One look at the Sanin told him that not all was going well and that he better watch his grounds.

"What matter?" the man seemed more willing to cooperate.

"The new addition to the female chunin exams."

The man sighed looking exhausted. "Our orders aren't going to be removed." He looked at the junin with a new found spirit in his eyes.

It occurred to Kakashi that this man was used to power and flaunting it. He doubted that anyone would be standing up to him on a regular basis. So he was going to have to show a little more power.

Clenching his fist he looked at the old male. "What's your name Sempai?"

The man growled at how impolite he was being and Kakashi could see Tsuanada drilling a worried look in his head. Good let her squirm. After all this was half of her fault.

"Akito," the man growled back. Kakashi narrowed his eyes dangerously.

"Akito-san I'm going to have to ask you to rethink your new law."

"You're a junin," the woman looked at him. "You have absolutely no right to ask us that."

Kakashi sneered at her from behind the mask. He felt his body begin to shake and forced himself to stay calm. Loosing control was good but if he loosed it all they would all be dead. The only one who might survive was Tsunada. How could a woman agree to this?

"Your right," he spat. "I'm a tool only to be used in killing and war. A machine. And when I'm home I supposed to be turning others into new weapons, sharpening them for your liking."

They seemed taken back by this and Kakashi felt himself feel a little better despite the situation. He admitted that he'd been waiting a long time for this.

"Your right you are a tool," the other man spoke up. "You should do as your told."

"Wrong," Kakashi looked at him. "I'm not just a tool, I'm a soldier, a human being who cares about my village enough to lie his life on the line." He felt himself get heavy with emotion.

"This isn't about me though," he looked at them. "This is about the future of our village, the future of our female fighters and I'm telling you your wrong."

"What do you know?" the woman looked at him. "You're a smart mouth junin who apparently has no respect for those in charge." She looked at Tsuanada. "I'm surprised that you are still in uniform."

Before Tsuanda could defend herself Kakashi rammed his fist into the wall. "Your right," he almost laughed. "I am a smart mouthed junin. I passed my entrance exam at age five, graduated the academy at age six, led ninja twice my age during the war, became junin at fourteen and ANBU leader at sixteen. I believe I have a right to be heard because I stayed home and did my homework before going out into the field."

He stared at them. "I get a right because when it comes to genius' in this village I'm the smartest one, I've broken more records than anyone else, I've had the second to the highest scores, I've only lost twelve people in my entire career on missions, and I'm a sensei of a female who qualifies for your little test."

The people in the room stared at him in shock as he shook back and forth in rage. "Do you know what I did last night?! Do you have any idea of what I put a little girl through?"

"What are you talking about?" Akito asked trying to get back in control.

Kakashi wouldn't let him. "I raped my student last night because you said that to obtain her dream she had to lose her virginity."

The others stared at him. A wild look was in his eye.

"You make me sick."

He stood up staring at them. "She was forced to cry and beg me to stop while I was a good little ninja and did my job. Now she's at home crying and trying to make sense of why it was done. DAMN IT!"

Kakashi felt hot tears reach his face. He had just admitted what he had done. And admitting it made it real.

"How the hell do you expect me to show up at our practice session tomorrow and train her? How do you expect her to fight for the village who betrayed her?"

The woman looked down slightly and closed her eyes. Kakashi knew he was finally breaking her shell. She would oppose it now, but what about the other two?

"I just finished watching the brightest, strongest girl in her class cry and hold on to her male team mate like he was a life line. And when he dared touch her back she flinched."

He looked at them. "I've killed any chance of her fully trusting another male again. It'll be a miracle if she can work with her team mates on any mission again."

The other male nodded processing the information. Good he'd given him doubt. He glanced at Akito. The man didn't want to back down.

"The statistics…"

"STATISTICS!" Kakashi almost blew. "Is that all you got? Do you realize that those numbers are so fricking fickle?!" Akito frowned staring at him hard.

"But those who aren't raped in the field of work…"

"But raping them as part of a test is the same damn thing as them loosing it in the field. Either way it's for the village! I'm telling you that it'll hurt them either way!"

"How do you know…"

"Because I was raped in the field!"

That got their attention. Kakashi nearly fell back at what he had told them, but there was no going back now.

"Explain." Akito looked at him.

"I was seven and the mission was to infiltrate this man's home. My job was to be the boy he had hired to give him pleasure, a sex toy," he closed his eyes. "But nothing was suppose to happen. My back up was suppose to come before night fall had fallen, I was guaranteed to come out without having to do anything."

He paused. Thoughts of that night ran through his head. "But the village decided that it would be better to come later. They knew what would happened but assumed I would do it for the village. I was a ninja it was my job. What became later turned into two weeks that I was at his mercy."

The silence in the room was unbearable and Kakashi forced himself to look at Akito. The man had to understand. "If it wasn't for Yodaime, then I would have killed myself. I'd been raped before by my uncle but this was different. The village had betrayed me and all I wanted to was to die. You have to understand, if it comes unexpected than it's got to be better than knowing that they, the ones you protect and the ones that are suppose to look after your interest let it happen."

Akito sat down slowly his eyes hard. "It's not your decision to make."

"Let me put it to you this way," Kakahsi walked up to him and pulled out a kunai loving how the man pulled back in fright. "If Sakura dies because of this I'm killing you and becoming a missing nin and this village will be my target. And right now you can't afford to loose me."

He threw the kunai into the desk.

"We shall rethink it" the woman looked at him. "You have given us a new side to review this," she smiled thankful. "And your compassion for your comrades show that you are a true ninja."

Kakashi looked at her and knew immediately that he had found an alley. She would fight the other men on the issue til death.

"Leave us," the other male voiced.

Kakashi bowed and walked out the door Tsuanada behind him.

"Well you got emotional," she looked at him. "You got a lot of guts."

"Hn," the old wounds fell from him. "I want you to get them a new sensei."

"What?" the sanin looked at him as they stepped into her office.

"I can't teach them anymore, not after what I did."

"Kakashi," her eyes softened with understanding. "That's impossible. You have to teach Sasuke how to use the sharingan."

"Fine. But Naruto can go with Jirya and Sakura can start her training with you," he looked at her. "It'll help if she doesn't see me."

"Will it?" the woman didn't look convinced.

"Trust me." The male moved to scrolls that would be missions. "Any S-rank?"

The woman narrowed her eyes. "Why?"

"I need to do something."

"Oh no your not," she glared. "You are in no state to go on some suicide mission."

Kakashi grinned at the word. Suicide. If only he wasn't such a coward to do it himself. "I need to do something."

The woman sighed. "We'll see after they get done debating."

Kakashi nodded and sat down closing his eyes. Tsuanda watched him finally convinced he was asleep before beginning her paper work. What he had said in there…it weighed heavily on her heart.

Four Hours Later

"Lady Tsuanada," Shizune voiced from behind the door.

Tsuanda lifted her head and wiped away the drool quickly. When had she fallen asleep? "Yes Shizune?"

The woman came in and cast a weary glance at the sleeping male.

"The elders have come to their decision."

The Hokaga got out of her chair and quickly took the scroll from her hand reading it. The law had been overturned.

Kakashi appeared beside her and she almost gave a start to how fast and silent he had been. Had he always been that good?

"Good," he voiced reading it. "About my mission…"

OKAY- I hoped you liked the chapter.

Sorry it took a while to update.

Anyway I do realize that Sakura isn't as angst as she should be. But trust me next chapter she will plunge into darkness with vivid enough description.

I've rethought this too and decided that it is a Sakura/Kakashi fic but there will be way more twists than originally thought. And it will get a little darker than first thought. This isn't going to be your average fic.

I've got another Sakura based fic idea too. That one might come up with in the next few days as well as a Naruto one. So look out!

Now that you've read don't forget to review, because if it isn't any good I'll just get rid of it.