I awoke early the next morning from a dreadful nightmare that just reminded me too much of the future i will never have. I was in a dressing room. I had a cream vanilla wedding gown on with pink laces on the end with a floral print somewhere in the middle. I also had on cream vanilla satin lace shoes with a creamy pearl necklace and bracelet. I was glancing at myself in the mirror looking at my image not quite satisfied with what i was seeing. Then i turned around and saw my mother with tears in her eyes saying, "this is your day", "be a good wife for Liam". I then smiled and let my mother put a piece of blue silk in my hair for tradition, of course as my mother always said something old and blue spreads a smile across the grooms face. Then i heard my que i quickly rushed out of the room, being very careful not to mess up my hair or any of my expensive acceceries. I then set my pace to the wedding music smiling elegently at everyone i passed. Then i saw who i was waiting for a very handsome bushy eyed blonde boy smiling just like the day we met. Then everything got blurry all of a sudden i wasen't in the white gown anymore it was Nichole.
She took all of it from me i started to yell, "No no no please no" but it seemed nobody heard me. I was the air nobody could see me, hear me, or feel me but i was there. She approached him, them both standing at the altar starting there vowls. I yelled louder then screamed I tried to break them apart but i couldnt do anything but stand and watch the man i love marry her. In the end the "i do's came"
The preacher said "will you love her cherish her and respect her as long as you both shall live"
I diden't want him to answer.
"I do."
"Will you love him cherish him and respect him as long as you both shall live"
Then Nichole said, "i do"
Then i woke upright in my bed sweating bucket loads of sweat. Then i hoped in the shower thinking of anything but Liam. The shower immeadiatly calmed me down and released all the muscle pain from staying in one stiff position. I turned the water up on full heat and just stood there singing the corus to What I Found Out About You, Emily Osment one of my favorite artists.
(i don't own the song)
We were picture perfect Flawless on the surface We were walking on a straight line
We were automatic You seemed so fanatic I was confident And white eyed
Tough times watched us come undone You found someone
Tell me why i think about you And tell me if you think about me And tell me when you touch her Is it really love or just another fantasy And tell me does she make you laugh And tell me does she make you move And tell me does she get you Take away your breath Just tell me that it can't be true What i found out about you
It feels like a nightmare To see your hands in her hair You seem happy ever after
I'm stuck in denial I can't fake a smile You play innocent It's so damn hard So down I want back what's mine Can we rewind?
Tell me why i think about you And tell me if you think about me And tell me when you touch her Is it really love or just another fantasy And tell me does she make you laugh And tell me does she make you move And tell me does she get you Take away your breath Just tell me that it can't be true What i found out about you
So much for happy endings So much for miracles So much for trusting you It-it feels so typical I miss you I miss you
We were picture perfect Flawless on the surface We were walking on a straight line
Tell me why i think about you And tell me if you think about me And tell me when you touch her Is it really love or just another fantasy?
And tell me does she make you laugh And tell me does she make you scream And tell me it's over It's only a dream What i found out about you
And tell me does she get you Take away your breath Just tell me that it can't be true What i found out about you
And tell me does she get you Take away your breath Just tell me that it can't be true What i found out about you
As i realized i was thinking about Liam i shut off the hot water threw my hair in a messy bunn reaching for the makeup, when i realized i don't have anyone i want to be pretty for. When was i going to except the fact i could never forgive him he could tell me he loved me a million times he can't take back the past it was...over. So i just walked down the stairs in a tanktop and shorts with a messy bunn without makeup i couldn't care anymore.
"Miley Ray Cyrus!", my mother exclaimed. "What on earth are you wearing", "I told you when you come down to breakfast you must be presentable for the day!" I heard her faintly in the background ranting about how i looked but mostly I ignored her.
"Miley!","hello", "Miley Ray answer me!"
"What!" i finally screamed if she didn't shutup i was going to have a freak out.
"Don't speak to me like that young lady!" she said. "Weren't you and Liam supposed to go on a boat ride today?"
There was Liams name what was i supposed to tell my mother, "Oh yeah he kinda just cheated on me with the housekeeper"...Not going to happen.
"Our plans got cancelled" i said dreaily.
"We'll then yo should have tea with my White Glove Society at the country club"
I usaully would have said, "Yes" or "tha'd be lovely" but i wasen't in the mood to pretend anymore not only that i liked some snobby rich people about anything. Liam was the one who made me be ladylike who actually made me try who put me in a respectfully cheery mood but he was gone now...
"No mother i don't wan't to hang out with your Black Glove Society" i said letting much sarcasm run through my voice but she was already halfway out the door, I guess she couldn't put up with my mood today.