I had a lot of fun with this chapter because Haley and Lucas are joking with each other through out, but a the same time it was so serious. I wanted to show how well Haley knows Lucas

Lucas's Pov

Everything in my life is screwed up. I love two different women and for different reasons and I don't know which I love more. How hard can it possible be? My heart should know by now which I love.

"Haley, I don't which one I love" I say looking her straight in the eye.

"Yes you do" she answers simply.

"How can you say that, Haley?" I ask confused because how can she think I know.

"Because I know you" she says smiling softly.

"That doesn't mean you know who I love, Hales" I say patting my sister-in-law on the shoulder.

"Lucas remember that I've been here since we were kids and I believe that you know who you love in your heart, but because you head is saying a different thing they are confusing each other" Haley says this as if the situation is the simplest in the world.

"What is in the bag anyway?" she asks pick it up and examining it.

"I have no idea" I say sitting down on the stool facing her and she sets it in front of me. I open the duffel bag cautiously wondering what Brooke is trying to kill me with it.

The duffel bag is filled with assortment of different things which I have given to Peyton over the years.

"Wow no wonder why I couldn't find it for the past four years" I say showing Haley my worn down Keith Scott's body shop sweatshirt.

"What's this?" she asks pulling a portfolio that is leather.

"It looks like there sketches" she says handing it to me.

I look through it and find a picture big enough to hang on the wall. It is beautiful; it is a perfect resemblance to the flaming heart Peyton had chalked onto the river court when I was in the hospital after the car accident during junior year.

"I think you should read this" she says handing me a letter that had my name written in Peyton's artistic scrawl.

All I can give is Haley a smile before grabbing for the letter. I'm not sure if I'm full prepared for what Peyton has to say to me because I'm one hundred percent sure I'm the reason she left. I open the envelope because I know I can't hold this off any longer. I take a deep inhale.

Dear Lucas,

There is so much I would like to say to you right now, but I'll start my saying that I'll love you and I think I always will. This is me letting go Luke. I told you before that I wanted you to be happy and I still want that with all my heart. I don't want you to blame yourself for the fact that I've left because even though it just happen to leave the day after you tell me you hate me happens to be a coincidence. I need to do this so I can move on and eventually find the man who is going to help me create the life I've always dreamed of. I'm hoping that this trip out to L.A. will remind why I left L.A. The life I led there is something that I'm not proud of. I need to be able to fall out of love with you and just love you as a friend.

I'm really sorry that Brooke came and yelled at you and I tried to tell her that it wasn't the reason, but you and I know how Brooke assumes things.

As for the things I gave back to you I realized that I was holding onto all of these things because I had this believe in my heart that we would get back together, but now after all this time you are still clearly in love with Lindsey and I'm not going to break that. The pictures in the portfolio are part of my wedding gift. I hoping some of them will remind you if all the good times in high school and some are for you and Lindsey. The last one is one I would like you to hang, it will remind you that love is something to hold dear.

I really hope to be able to come to the come to your next wedding. I'm going to try and find a way to be nice to Lindsey because she is what you deserve. You deserve more then I could give you and she can give you that. Just remember that even though I'm not here right now it doesn't mean that I'm going away. I will always be there. I do hope that eventually when I find that guy who will make my world whole, would you please be nicer to him then I was to Lindsey because man I was a really bitch to her. May all your dreams come true Lucas.

Love always,

Peyton

As I read her words I realized that I had hurt her so much that she had to be all the way across the country to fix her broken heart. I never realized until now how much of a broken heart Peyton has had and I wish that I could fix that, but sometimes you don't get what you wish for. I learned that the day I went to L.A. and proposed to Peyton. I was so sure that she would say yes that the thought of her not being ready, never crossed my mind. I told Lindsey at the party that I think about her every day, but what I would never admit is that I think of Peyton also and wonder what could have been, what should have been. Now after all this time that's not possible. Mistakes on both of our parts have caused this. If things had gone as planned in L.A. would I be in this much pain? I don't think I would because Peyton and I would be married. Lindsey wouldn't have been there to fix my broken heart. If Peyton would have said yes I wouldn't be here reading her goodbye letter. Can I'm so angry with myself and her. It's all her fault! How can I blame her when she's the one I love the most in the world. In this moment as I sit before my best friend with a letter in hand I finally know which woman I want to be with. Which women makes me want to be a better person then I've been in the last couple of months. I had my darkest hour last night and I'm going to fix the damage I have caused.

I literally tried to pull some of Peyton's actual lines from Hundred through last episode. I tried very hard to comined all of what she said through out the second have.