A/N I am now so addicted to writing that I get 7 hours sleep per three days and am planning more stories and writing chapters for the other 65 hours (my week is usually a three day week cos of all the work I do)

"I feel like I take a step forwards and he takes ten steps back, my work colleagues feel the tension between us and more than two of them know I love him so why does he distance himself?" Sara felt another bout of tears coming

"Have you ever just considered sitting in a room and talking to him?" the brown haired guy asked "Oh and I don't believe we've been introduced my name is Todd"

"I'm sorry Todd, I talk too much and I'm betting you wish you'd stayed away now" she replied taking a swig of the lager she now held in her hand "It's just I don't feel as though I have anything to stay here for now and even though my friends and work colleagues are the greatest they won't miss me and a certain guy probably won't even know I've gone" Sara said thinking she should definitely take that leave of absence

At that Sara noticed to guy with the hooded top, he seemed to be struggling with his seat and she shook her head, 'great I'm back in the land of drunks' she thought.

"From what you've said about this guy I think he seems to genuinely love you, maybe he's fighting against something in his life that is personal and more risky than taking a chance with you. Gil Grissom is an oddity, he has worked really hard to get where he is and loves you more than anything in the world and he always has Sara" and with that he was gone

"Wait how'd you know my name?" she said to the bar which was emptying of people and she noticed that her friends had also disappeared. 'I guess its home time' she thought finishing off her drink and letting her thoughts stray to the mysterious guys parting words

Thinking she would walk home instead of taking a taxi she flung her coat on and set off in a slow walk deciding on how long to leave the lab for, the hooded guy from the bar walking steadily walking behind her.

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So Sara Sidle loved him at least that much was true. Sitting at that bar was both the worst and best idea he'd had in a while. He hadn't meant to eavesdrop on her conversation he planned to just watch her from a distance. He didn't see who she was talking to and thought the drink may have her too out of it to notice she was talking to herself but then again the things she was saying hurt him, he'd hurt her he could almost see the pain in her eyes and felt his own chest ripping in two. How could he make it up to her, he was ready now more than he had ever felt to take that risk and grab Sara and love her for the rest of his life. He hoped she was willing to let him love her and even though he realised too late that she was planning on leaving he made his mind up to do something. He stood up deciding to follow her and even though he didn't know what to say but hoped the words he felt in his heart would hopefully suffice… I love you Sara Sidle.

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Turning down a one way street, two blocks from her house Sara's senses caught hold of a familiar scent and realising she was being followed she sped up a little hoping to get home before the person following her could do something.

"Sara…"

She stopped dead in her tracks, "Grissom?" she said turning around and seeing for the first time the face of the hooded guy from the bar.

"Oh my god, that hooded guy was you Griss, how much did you hear…I mean How Dare You Eavesdrop on my conversation!!, I thought it was just some random drunk listening to other peoples problems but it was you all along" she stopped to take in a deep breath "I thought you weren't going to come with us" she whispered feeling her throat tingling from the shouting she had just done

"Sara…I'm sorry, I never meant to…" he stopped what didn't he mean to do, "I mean I'm sorry" he finished lamely

"Sorry for what, for finding out I love you, for finding out you've hurt me, for eavesdropping into my conversation or for realising its too late to do anything because I'm taking a leave of absence?" she yelled

"I…didn't…don't know what…" Grissom was stuttering

"You didn't know what to do about this, and 'I'm guessing you still don't, so what now Grissom…I'll tell you what I'm leaving and at least that way I'll be far away from here so you don't have to make the decision to tell me you don't or can't love me" Sara said trying to hold back the tears.

"No Sara…that's not what I want" Grissom said feeling the hope in his chest die

"No then you want me to stay and forever be the sitting duck, waiting to be told those three words and then chucked back against the wall when you realise you can't, well news flash Grissom I've passed that point, I passed it years ago after you turned me down for dinner, I realised then that I'm not the person you want" Sara said getting more frustrated.

"I…I love you" Grissom whispered

"Look enough is enough…What?" Sara stopped realising those three words he'd just said "You what?"

"I said I love you Sara, I always have and always will, you've been in my thoughts day and night for ten years ever since I met you at that seminar, you are the most beautiful, intelligent, unforgettable woman I have ever met and to lose you because of the stupid mistakes I've made will break my heart Sara" he looked at her drop against the wall to slide into a sitting position "Sara I know I've hurt you in more ways than I can tell, I'm sorry I over heard your conversation but I was confused because you weren't talking to anyone and then I heard you profess your love for someone who I guessed was me and realised that I had been foolish Sara, I never took my head out of the microscope long enough to see exactly what I should have seen all that time ago…I belong body mind and soul to you and no one could ever change that" he stopped to see silent tears flowing down her face

"I love you but I never wanted to feel like this, I feel broken, alone and miserable Grissom and your not to blame for all of it but you were the deciding factor in me going away" Sara finished looking up at Grissom

"Sara, please give me one chance to make it up to you, I won't ever leave you or hurt you again. I'm tired of being the person who doesn't see what's going on around him, I didn't see Catherine and Warrick and they are right under my nose every shift and Sara I don't deserve you, I know that now but I wish I could turn the clock back and find myself in your arms giving you every bit of me that possess. I am in love with you and I want to change the stars so that you're the person I go to sleep with and you're the person I wake up to… please Sara stay and let me prove to you just how much I love you."

In response Sara leant in to kiss him, the electricity flowing through their bodies stirring the emotions so that they poured freely from one another, they stopped to breathe and she shivered here take my jacket he said pulling the hoodie over his head to reveal a white t-shirt clinging to his taut body, "I didn't know you worked out" she said in appreciation

"I think there are a lot of things you don't know about me but I hope you will soon find them out" he said standing up and offering his hand to Sara

"You want to come and have a coffee Mr. Grissom" Sara said shyly

"If that would please you" He answered feeling more confident about the two of them than he had ever done

They walked the two blocks to her apartment and she let them in throwing her purse on the counter before grabbing Grissom by the neck of the t-shirt and pulling him into a passionate kiss.

A/N There will be one more chapter to this and yes it will be smut and yes GSR rules :)