She loves me not

by Sofistinha

A Cleon fanfic about mixed feelings, past stories and friends helping and hurting friends- And now I'm here, alone on the telephone line. I'm right where you want me to be. And I know Ill wait alone and never I ask. Ill be where you want me to be. Ill say what I think: Ill never be what you want me to be. Why don't you tell me? Tell me it's not true. -

2. Chapter II- Pristina

AN: This chapter is REALLY LONG, BORING and OVER DRAMATIC. I am very sorry for that. I really am. But it is needed. I'm just filling up so the sex scene wouldn't be out of nowhere. I still hope you guys can endure it.
The smut it's probably going to be delivered on next chapter.
Stay tuned IF you can.

My best regards.

She loves me not–
An Resident Evil CLEON (Claire Redfield and LeonS. Kennedy) HOT AND BOTHERED PWP FANFICTION

Subtitles:

|Lyrics|
-Dialogue-
"Thoughts"

Chapter II- Pristina

|I'm watching you|

The thought of Claire suffering from Stockholm syndrome made his blood boil and his heart ache. It hurt him beyond repair just to imagine all the things his friend may have suffered under Wesker's… care?- She did put it like that, didn't she? And it angered him.
- …I'm so sorry, Claire… I didn't want my presence to push you… You shouldn't have to remember about…- He couldn't say it. Instinctively, as a body reaction to all that pent up emotion, Leon was about to disengage their tangled hands and clench his into fists, but Claire stopped him.

|I'm watching|

-…Oh … Leon… no…- she got even closer and squeezed his hands into her own again, bringing them to her lips, kissing it while looking him in the eye with watered ones, a small and sincere smile playing on her face.
-… Chris had this same reaction… it's not like this… it wasn't like you may be imagining it to be, Leon… …- her voice was so low and full of emotion. Wet tears were running down her pale face.
-…..I…shouldn't bring his name up so soon….I'm sorry…- she kissed his hands again. - …Just know that he didn't hurt me …I'll tell you everything you want to know about it… I promise… -

|You shall weep no more|

Claire looked so fragile with all that emotion displayed on her features; and even knowing that she wasn't, he still felt somehow touched by it. Leon was trying to fight the urge to hug her protectively. He started to caress the back of her hand, trying to comfort her. His eyes were shiny too, but he wasn't about to cry, he was just so confused and worried… he wasn't used to deep conversations and emotional outbursts. Simple and clean always suited the agent better.
- I had so much to tell you, Claire…but… now that I have the opportunity, I feel so nervous…and..- he was again trying to make some sense, to avoid hurting her more than she already was. He just didn't know how to do it.

-..Leon...Please… I need you to understand that all this time I was away, I was treated right…all things considered of course…and I also had a lot of spare time and loneliness to think my whole life through and … a LOT was going on my head. And …- her voice cracked. She closed her eyes and sighed.
-… and I realized all the mistakes I have made. All the wrong decisions and all the consequences of it… you…Sherry…were-

- always on your mind…- He added to her speech. He knew she was going to say it; it was just like he felt his whole life too. He understood.

-Exactly...-
She laughed and smiled again moving slightly her head up and down as if saying yes, that he was right…
-..Look, what I want to say is that I saw that I did you wrong. I did both of you wrong… You and Sherry were everything that I had for real after we survived that nightmare… We had been through hell and back together…we needed each other…and I have left you guys. There is no excuse for that. I know that by now… I was selfish. And I know that that episode on our lives was the reason that we became so apart. I knew we had bond and I just overstepped it. I know that you were going to say that you missed me when you started this conversation and... Hell, there are no words to express how I have missed you.- she was crying copiously now. All the real drama involved her personal life and her neglected relationships with everyone and facing Leon right now was just too much of it.

|Its your last breath of air|

Leon couldn't fight it anymore. He untangled their hands and pulled her for a hug. He squeezed her hard and so did she, hugging him back. She was weeping so much, her frame shaking in his arms. Without thinking, he simply took her whole body to him and cradled her like a small child, leaving her to sit on his lap. Instinctively, he started that soft and slow motion of back and forth, soothing her. The only way he could think of doing so. Leon put as little space between them as possible, just enough to be able to look her in the eyes again, still cradling her.
-Shh….It's ok… It's ok, Clairebear…We all did what we had to do...-

- Leon… I just wish I could have made everything turn out different, But I couldn't. All this time I had during my captivity, gave me space and maturity to view our history as it is: destiny. If I had stayed with you both back then, we wouldn't be here right now. I was so young back then… So naïve and reckless…Maybe when the government showed up, everything would turn into shit. I wouldn't let them take Sherry, Leon… I wouldn't trust them like you did… I would have caused you guys nothing but harm…. I thought I had all the answers… But I did not! and If you had done as you told me you would do and go with me after Chris, we both would be trapped on that damned Island. We could all be dead by now. I know I can't say these things as if they could make all the hurt go away simply because it was "destiny" … but all I want to tell you is that I am trully sorry that I have hurt you, because I know I did. I can't change the past, and in all truth, I'm not even sure I would… But … You have saved me, Leon….more times that I could count…even when I didn't deserved it…I owe you my life…and I love you and Sherry so much… You two are my family too damnit… And I want you to believe that leaving you two behind was by far the most difficult decision I have made my entire life. I NEED you to believe that. I was blinded by my fear; I was so fucking afraid I would lose Chris, that I would never be able to tell him how much I love him. I needed to do something. It's just how I am… I simply throw myself into trouble. I am a trouble maker, Leon…-
She was now laughing and crying.

|These walls won't week them out
They'll keep you in|

- You are a trouble maker indeed, Redfield!- Leon was glad that the tension seemed to suddenly dissipate. Claire is always so confident, so fierce. She opened up so easily. Exactly the opposite of Leon. He came so sure he would the one to spill his beans… And there she was… the one doing it. He laughed at himself. "You are such a wuss, Kennedy"- he told himself, while cleaning up with his thumb a tear threatening to roll down her face.

- and since you're being so honest, I'll give you the truth, Redfield: since that day back at Harvardville, all I could think of was how to tell you exactly these things you just told me. I have been playing on my head all the ways to say how important you are in my life and to my story, Claire. Through the good and the bad, I never stopped admiring and caring for you. NEVER. -
He hugged her again, this time snuggling into the crook of her neck, breathing her in. There wasn't any malice in his doing, just a gesture of affection between two long time friends. But he shivered when she did the same to him, instinctively hugging her tighter. He closed his eyes and tried to refocus. Leon cleared his throat and continued…

-…When your brother came to me about you missing… I was so afraid that I would never see you again…. It was then that I finally understood your motives back at the day when you chose to leave for him…I believe you, Claire…. I really do… And I love you and Sherry too. We're family.-
He made her look him in the eye again, cradling her face into both of his hands, keeping her in place. Her smile was so wide open, her eyes so blue and bright. Claire had the features of those idealized angels. She was so beautiful, and she looked so very innocent.
- I believe you. Do you believe me? –

|But whos going to protect you?|

- I do!- that cheerful tune was back again. And then, she did it. She stole a peck, just touching her lips to his.
-We are family, Leon Scott Kennedy…- she did it again and got up all of a sudden, leaving a stunned, flabbergasted Leon sitting completely still, on her couch.
-Want some more beer? …- she headed for the kitchen and was already by the fridge grabbing two more bottles as if nothing has happened.
-We have so much to talk about…I'm pretty sure you wanna know everything about my newest adventure!– Claire started to gather some appetizers for them, getting a bowl and filling it with potato chips and picking some spicy dips.
- But You are not drunk enough for that!- she added playfully.

|Whos going to protect you?|

It took Leon some time to get over the strange feeling of being so…bewildered. He knew she wasn't flirting with him. He knew it. But his body did not. That was so unexpected and… kind of arousing. He heard her saying something at the back of his mind and suddenly he got up while drowning his second beer and went to the kitchen to help her.
-Sorry, what did you say, Redfield? …. I was lost in my own thoughts for a minute..- he said approaching her in order to help.

- Nah, not much…I was just asking if you wanted some more beer. - looking him over her shoulder, she saw the man come to her wearing a beautiful and unusual broad smile. Claire could swear that she was seeing Leon with red cheeks. Was he shy now? Why ?

-May I help you, milady?- He came from behind. His tall frame stalking her, the agent was looking at her doings by her shoulder, invading her personal space, being very close to her back. They weren't touching, but they surely could felt the heat of each other.

Leon started to feel bold around her somehow.

- You can help me get you drunk if you may, Sir.- she retorted feigning seriousness, looking him over her shoulder. Her cheeks suddenly turned pink. She's the one who somehow felt shy now. He was so close to her sensitve back.
- I cannot get you drunk if you don't drink, Kennedy.- She winked at him over her shoulder, trying her best not to blush even more with all that proximity. The vibe around them seemed so different now. What have happened? Did she do something?
-… so… movie night? – she suggested, trying to distract herself from all the different vibe around them, while opening their bottles and trying hand him one. She grabbed the bowl of chips and the dips and was about to turn around and head for the couch again, but realized that Leon wasn't moving. She was cornered between the kitchen counter and the agent.

|Who?|

-..Leon?- she asked unsure, with a raised eyebrow, while trying her best to turn around without brushing into him with all that close proximity. – Are you ok, Sir?-

Leon was looking deeply at her without saying a thing. He seemed to be silently observing her, studying her. Then a smirk appeared.
-I'm so glad you are back, milady. Let's get me drunk.- He grabbed his bottle and then turned around and headed back towards to the couch.

Claire followed suit, laughing to herself. She has never had the time to explore this side of Leon. She was feeling like they had never been apart at all, so in sync.
-…Let's do it, Sir!...You're staying for the night, right, Leon?-
Leaving the bowl on top of the center table and bringing it closer to the sofa, she started to look for the remote controller.
-damned remote! What the fuck is the problem with those devices?- she was now talking to herself on all fours, looking under the couch.

Wide eyes. Leon swallowed. Suddenly his throat felt so freaking dry, that he almost emptied his beer in one single gulp. "Get a hold on yourself, Kennedy. She's practically your sister."- Easier said than done though.
-What are you doing, Red?- he asked, clearing his throat again and trying to divert his eyes from her rear so round and up. "So close and yet, so far away at the same time". Maybe all those months of sexual abstinence were taking a toll on him.
-Want some help?- he crouched near her resting a hand on her back, near her rump.

Claire nearly jumped when she felt his hand. Sensitive back.
- hahaha- she laughed nervously.
- no… no…that's fine… it's… just that I'm …FOUND IT, motherfucker!- she raised her trophy.
-Hahaha Sorry, I was just looking for the remote.- and wriggled it in front of his face, coming to sit by the couch and grabbing her beer in the process, taking a sip.

-Hey Red…Do you mind if I get another one ?- he raised his empty bottle.
- I'm suddenly feeling really Thristy haha- this time he was the one to laugh nervously. Such image craved into his mind had him dry.

- Sure! Help yourself, baby.- the young woman was now looking for something suitable on tv for their movie night, clueless about what she was evoking in him now.

- …So …. Are you ready to talk about what you went through? – he asked casually, trying not to sound like he was pushing her. He got his beer and got back to couch, sitting right beside her, all too close again.

|In every dark land|

- …Well… What can I say ? Life isn't always so black and white, Leon. Who could have imagined that I was infected? I was always put under tests and checkups. After Raccon, Antarctica…even after Harvardville the BSAA got me tested and they couldn't find any trace of viruses. Once again, I came to believe that it's all about fate. I was destined to be with the tyrant, you know? And I'll tell you what… He isn't a good and moral person indeed…But…- she closed and her eyes and sighed.

Leon saw it coming. He frowned before she even let it out.

-…Wesker isn't all bad either… -

An image of the Asian spy crossed his mind. The woman in red…Ada. He understood what Claire was saying. There's always much more than what it seems. " Life isn't always so black and white". His frown dissipated then.

- and for the love of god my brother will never hear me say it out loud or I'll be dishonored.- she added laughing at how childish she sounded.
- But seriously now… I was really afraid I was going to die… But Wesker assured me. He cured me, Leon. He has saved me too, just like you good guys always did. For selfish purposes, of course…I'm not naïve. At first I was abducted alright… and that frightened me. But … when I realized what situation I was really in, what exactly was at risk, I was convinced that the best course of action was to cooperate with him. Wesker knew I was infected before hand, he knew about the viruses and well... he wasn't treating me like I wasn't human. I began as a test subject, yes…But … I was treated right. He always acted like a jerk. So bossy and aggressive and impatient…always demanding something… kinda sexy sometimes…haha – she said laughing to herself - I'm just kidding…anyway …He made clear that his intent with me was genuine. I can even risk saying that at some point the freak was even concerned about my wellbeing…. Maybe I am delusional…who would know?- she sipped her beer and took some chips dippin' them.
-Huuum, yammy!- she made a … face.

|In every flower bed|

Leon had to look away. Such a sexy face. "Why is she affecting me this away today? What the fuck?" He gulped his beer again. "Maybe is the alcohol. I better slow down." He then took a portion of chips too.

-Anyway… after sometime, He let me share the house with him instead of keeping me locked up, and started to teach me simple procedures in the lab to keep me busy…I get really cranky when I'm bored… and although He never talked on a personal or intimate manner of himself, he shared a lot about my own condition, never keeping me in the dark… and promised me that if he could have my virus to research, in exchange he would find me a cure. Did you read my files?- She looked at him, curious.

- No…not YET… I'm hoping.- this time he winked at her trying to sooth the subject. He knew her file was personal and all, so couldn't risk being nosy.

- Once the BSAA is done with it, I'll show you…But just to forward, I have been infected with the veronica virus since Antarctica. The virus was lying dormant, that's why the BSAA couldn't find it. Did you remember when I hurt my leg at the explosion caused by Curtis at the willpharma site? – he nodded, feeling his heart skip a beat at the memory.-Thru the cut I've got infected with G…Such a mess, huh? The sickness I was feeling before my abduction was due to Veronica fighting off G….I'm a freak, Kennedy- she laughed.

-… Yeah, I think you are, Red… Always did…- he added playfully hitting her on her arm.
- I'm kidding…But, are you virus free now ?-

- Well, after all that have happened, I'll never be 100% sure, but not just Wesker, but the BSAA as well told me that yes, I'm virus free and immune to those two strains now. Whos the cool kid, huh?- this time was her turn to playfully hit him.

He became serious again all of a sudden. - And did you know where you two were located? Do you know where the bastard is now?- He wanted to ask about Jill too, but he felt this was way too much for now. She obviously didn't know anything, otherwise Chris and the BSAA wouldn't be still searching at the Spencer State. So he left it.

- …no… unfortunately I do not. – she replied, disappointment in her voice.- I was drugged on the way in and out. I have no idea. I tried to figure where we were. But it was such an isolated place and I had no access to internet and television and stuff. I just remember that it was around a mountainous area and had this cold and damp climate…. Which doesn't tell us much. It could be anywhere. But I would guess it was somewhere in Europe.- she added hopeful.

- I see.- he sipped again and they both fell into silence for a moment. Leon was the one to break it again.
-So..if you don't mind, I'm staying the night…Will my integrity be safe, Redfield? – he eyed her suspiciously.

- I can't promise you anything, Kennedy- she replied serious. – Who knows what the night holds, uh?- then the young woman threw a potato chip at him, laughing and proceeding to find a decent movie for them to watch.

Leon kept observing her. He was feeling so comfortable around her. Then a flash of her round rear flooded his mind. He drowned his fourth bottle.
-Hey Red, do you mind if I use your toilet?- Leon asked a bit on edge. He started to sweat. The alcohol and those images where taking the best of him.

-Sure…on the hall, first door left, agent.-

|In every marriage bed|

While he was using the restroom, Claire gathered some pillows, blankets, a comfy and thin sheet to cover their bodies and a mat. Pushing the center table away and using the mat and the blankets, she made a makeshift bed on the living room floor for them.

In the bathroom, Leon did his thing and also washed his face and neck, looking himself in the mirror. " What's happening to you, Scott? Will it really be a good idea staying the night? She's your sister, man….with such a beautiful as..eye! Such beautiful eyes, you perv… Chris told you to take care of her…not advantage… But she's so nice… so soft…and smell so good… Damnit Claire… why are you having this effect on me?…" He washed his face again… "How can I look at her again and don't see her on all fours in the back of my mind? I can vividly remember that night at the motel on Raccoon outskirts….she snuggling into me… fitting perfectly in my arms….oh that asssssss..STOP IT!"- he gave himself a little pat on the cheeks on reprimand."You're messing up, Scott. BIG TIME. Get a hold on yourself…Think about Chris and keep your distance. Tomorrow you are going for a sexhunt, get some, get laid… everything will be fine. Just keep these unwanted thoughts away. She doesn't deserve it."- Resuming his musings, Leon went back to the living room decided to block out any dirty ideas.

The lights were turned off and Claire was laid on the makeshift bed still switching through channels. The chocolate box he gave her lay now on her chest and she was savoring some.

-Couldn't find anything yet, Red?- the man asked coming to sit by her side.

-Nah, I couldn't find anything appealing just yet.- she looked bored.- And by the way ...these are delicious, Baby.- she motioned the chocolates.- Thumbs up!- she made the gesture.
She then turned to him and patted his thigh.
- You can lay down, Kennedy, it's the same price.- she smiled and got back to her "finding a good movie mission".

He obliged and laid down beside her. There were close again.

-YEY! THIS IS IT, Kennedy! Tighten your seatbelt and prepare for our ride! Have you ever watched Original Sin? …such a nasty and good movie!- she was grinning.

-Nah, I never have. But you seem so excited about it… Let's do this, ma'am!- He then shifted, getting comfortable. Leon inhaled and exhaled deeply. She was wearing such a sweet perfume. He so wanted to sniff her.

And as if reading his mind, Claire put aside the chocolate box and snuggled into him, hugging him and placing her head against his chest. At first he got stiff, surprised by her actions and actually afraid that she might have read his mind indeed. She made a sound, almost a moan, showing how comfy she was. So he relaxed. "Just keep these unwanted thoughts away, huh? Easier said than done though"- he thought to himself.

-I hope you don't mind.- she said.

- No, not at all, Red.- he kissed the top of her head and without reservations, decided to sniff her indeed. It wasn't like he was taking advantage of her or something… just a sweet and innocent sniff. "right?!"

She started to laugh. Such a nice laugh. He could feel the vibration of it reverberating on his chest.
- What is it, Red ?- he asked curious.

-You tell me, man! hahaha…Are you sniffing me, Kennedy ?- she raised her head a bit from his chest and eyed him suspiciously, raising an eyebrow.

|Ill be with you|

-Maybe I am.- and he made a naughty face, just like a pampered child caught doing something wrong. – What are you going to do about it huh, Redfield?- he challenged.

-You creep! Im going to… do this!- and then she bit his chest, clenching one of his nipples between her teeth even thru the fabric of his undershirt.

-OUCH!- he cried, trying to shove her head away.

She was deliciously laughing, so heartily.
How could two adults act in such childish manners around each other?
Leon missed it. It felt good.

-Redfield! You pest!- Leon shifted his position again, and without consciously noticing, he was on top of her.

His cheeks were bright red and so were hers.
Silence fell between them.

|I'm watching you|

They seemed to be under some kind of dry spell, drawn to each other's gaze. Both were now eyeing one another. Increasing Breathing rhythm.

Claire reached for his face, uncovering part of his eyes as she tried to pull his hair behind his ear.
And then he did it. Leon lowered his face and kissed her.

-/-

AN: Well, Well, thank you for reaching the end of this never ending chapter. I know it kinda sucked….but … I had to do it…and well, I'm not used to play or read Leon (fics), so he can seem OOC, I don't mind. I'm only using his handsome body anyway LOL I'm Kidding…Or maybe I'm not. You figure.

Anyway…
I would really appreciate any feedback regarding this "plot" and characterization. I'm open for suggestions and advices. What should I change, what not… I hope you guys can help me.
I hope that you had a good reading and that this babbling didn't turn you down so you can be here again for the next chapter to come.

And a special thanks to my sister Xaori, whos helping and encouraging me along this journey. I have never found anyone so nice and willing like you, sis.
You have become my motivation here.

With nothing else to add,
My Best regards.