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RPOV
It was quiet for a while; the silence was unbearable that's why I was glad when Jase woke up. His wails filled the whole field, which woke up Nessie, and together they told everyone they wanted attention. Once they were taken care of, we all went back to getting our own food. Mom and dad went to the meadow for some alone time, aunt Alice and uncle Jasper went back home, aunt Alice was tired of not being able to see most things, aunt Rose and uncle Emmitt went hunting in the woods, and grandma and grandpa went to the hospital. Aunt Alice's visions were getting better now that she was always around the wolves; grandpa discovered that the more time spent with the wolves the more she would be able to see the events that happened when we were with them. But for some reason she could never see things clearly, everything was always hazy and she hated it.
Leah transformed into a wolf and acted like a regular house dog, the twins laughed and tried to crawl away, thank god she wouldn't let them. I was watching the spot where the "guest" had been and thought I'd seen one of them again. -Nes, look - it was Leah; she was sending me a message. I looked at her and saw that my son was no longer my son, but a mere puppy surrounded by red-brown fur. He looked up at me and barked, my heart broke at that moment and the tears came, on their own, I couldn't control them. I was happy and hurt and lost and found, I looked at each one of the pack members, they were still in wolf form. -Leah, I'll be back. I need to get away, do you mind watching the twins...- -you don't have to explain yourself Renesmee...I understand your pain. I'll be happy to watch the twins, they're safe with me- I nodded at her and walked into the forest.
I'd run right into the spot where they had been, they're warmth filling me completely, their sent washed over me in waves. I didn't care about anything else at that moment; I started running, following their sent. I stopped about ten minutes later in front of a cave; it was barely lit so I had to trust my senses to find my way around. I started walking with a human pace; I had taken thirty steps when I heard muffled voices ahead. I walked a little faster this time and stopped when I was just around the corner from them. I didn't want them to know I was here, I also hoped that they couldn't smell me because then I'd be dead.
"Why did you make us turn back? They were all there! Why are we still in hiding, damn it to hell. I WANT to go back and I know you do too!" I'd heard that voice before but where, I couldn't tell. The next voice I heard I would know anywhere. My heart turned a hundred ways, some I didn't even know it could turn.
"I do, more than you think. But I don't think it was time, we'll try tomorrow when Nes and Leah are alone. Did you see her, she looked perfect, standing there, feeling me. I want to go home, to my wife, to my dad, and I know you want to go home to your family but it wasn't the time." My heart hurt, how he could think it wasn't the time, it's always the time for him to come back. Anger rose in me and I stormed around the corner. Seth saw me and froze, then pointed to me, and HE whirled in response. I could tell he finally caught my sent and my emotions; hurt, happy, sad, anger, betrayal, jealousy, misery, joy, and most of all hatred.
"How the HELL could you think it wasn't the right time, you mutt. It's always the right time for you to come home. How the HELL could YOU STAY AWAY for a whole FUCKING year. You ungrateful bastard, how could YOU LEAVE us when we were dying without the two of you. We had nothing, Leah tried to kill herself just to be with him and so did I. But I guess you don't care do you. We have nothing; we wanted nothing more than for you two to come home, how you could even think it wasn't right. Did you even consider how we felt, how BILLY felt, he ended up in the hospital for three months, THREE GOD DAMN MONTHS. He would have giving up if it wasn't for..." I stopped, the tears I had been holding in flowing freely now. I would not give him an ounce of my love or an explanation as to why we picked ourselves up. I looked at Seth, he was crying and I ran into his arms. I held him just like that while he cried, when he finished my own dam broke again. I could forgive Seth, a little, after all who was to stop him from coming home? If he had come home Leah would be happy and in return I would be happy and eventually I would have been ok. But knowing this, I didn't think I would ever be ok.
"Don't even think of coming home, either of you. We just found our lives again and we don't need EITHER of you to ruin it, we don't need to go on another rampage. Enough people died once, we can't afford to do it again. Don't come home! If you do you will get nothing from us, NOTHING! Billy may accept you but we won't" I was going to protect Leah anyway I can, even if it meant saying good-bye! I turned and ran out, they were running after me, I growled and led them to my house. There they were jumped by my father and Emmitt and while they fought I ran back to Billy's.
Once I reached the small clearing I went straight over to Leah. When she looked up and saw me she warned the others of danger. I walked over to Leah and I touched her cheek showing her what happened in the cave. When she realised her brother was alive she jumped to her feet and howled. The others joined her, when they finished she growled at me. I touched her cheek and spoke freely with all the pack members; Sam, Quill, Embry, Leah, Paul, Jared, Collin, and Brady. -I had to tell them they couldn't come back home. Leah they weren't thinking, how could they even think it wasn't right for them? If you want you can forgive your brother but please… - -what's going on Ness, Leah? - It was Sam. I showed him what happened in the cave through Leah's mind. They were quick to agree with me. - I will take him back into my life and I will forgive him because he is my brother, it may not be like it was before but I will still accept him, and I hope for the sake of the twins you do the same with Jacob- I took my hand from her and looked back toward the woods. I was shaking with anger and hurt, I bared my teeth at her and she knew it would be a cold day in hell before I let him hurt me in anyway again. She could also sense that I was pissed off that Seth would be welcomed back home with open arms without graveling to be let back in. Everyone was coming back, including them. I placed my hand back on Leah's face and told her what my father told me. -they're at the edge of the clearing; daddy's waiting for our permission to bring them any closer. Leah, I don't want to hurt anymore...- -I understand, I just want to see him and have him answer my questions. Then we'll go away, just me, you, and the twins- I nodded and took my hand from her face.
I didn't want them to see the twin, so I looked at Billy, now holding two red-brown pups, and said
"Billy, he doesn't deserve to know. Can you please bring them inside and stick them somewhere safe? I'll ask Auntie Alice to keep an eye on them. He nodded and did as he was asked. Auntie Alice came running up to me and frowned, she was sad because she wasn't going to get to see the conference, but she was relieved for the "pain killers" from her "headache". I sighed as she left; I stood next to the pack and waited for them to come home again.