Soo I hope you guys enjoyed the first chapter. I decided to go ahead and post the second chapter to give you guys more of a clue about what's happening. Please favorite, follow, leave reviews, something so I know somebody is interested in my writing. If there is anything you don't like, want to see, anything at all let me know in a review or a message. I'll post again when once I continue to see positive feedback and activity! The beginning in italics is from Divergent, it's just rephrased as if told from Tobias POV. Thankssss

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**Tobias POV**

"I have something I need to tell you," I said. She runs her fingers along the tendons in my hands and looks back at me. "I might be in love with you." I smiled a little. "I'm waiting until I'm sure to tell you, though."
"That's sensible of you," She says, smiling too. "We should find some paper so you can make a list or a chart or something."
I laughed, my nose sliding along her jaw, my lips pressing to her ear.
"Maybe I'm already sure," I say, "and I just don't want to frighten you."
She laughs a little. "Then you should know better."
"Fine," I say. "Then I love you."

The flashbacks come frequently. I remember that day perfectly. Max had just announced the final rankings, and I had never been more proud of anybody in my life when I heard that she had ranked first. She ran over to me, almost hesitant of how to embrace me in front of her friends. I hugged her and she kissed me, leaving all of her friends and other spectator's mouths on the ground in utter shock. She gave them a wink, grabbed my hand, her small body attempting to pull me towards the exit. I chuckled at her apparent confidence in her strength as I was probably almost twice her size, but I followed, I would follow her anywhere.

She took me to the trains and I wrapped my arms around her, it was the first time we had been alone all day and I craved her lips. I picked her up and she wrapped her legs around me waste as she leaned in kissed me. I squeezed her tightly, for as close as we were I just wanted her, I wanted us to be closer. I ran my fingers along the spine of her back as she parted her lips from mine and placed them on my neck sending shivers down my body. To my distaste the train sounded in the distance and she jumped down, took a deep breath and sighed.

I chuckled at her obvious frustration, and she punched me playfully in the shoulder before running off to catch the train. Watching her run is beautiful, her blonde hair flowing with the wind. She looked back and smiled, waiting for me to start running before she jumped into the last car. When we boarded, I sat on the floor and she sat on my lap straddling me. It was that moment I looked in her eyes that I knew I loved this girl.

Two weeks later, and I don't know what to do with myself.

I can't eat, I can't sleep.

Part of me is missing, part of me is gone.

When she walked away I could see she was trying to be strong. I could see she was trying to hold back the tears in her eyes, that determination and that fire in her eyes to hide the pain I caused her which was much more apparent in her voice, which cracked with every word she said. I agonized over the last words she spoke to me as they left her mouth:

"You know, I should have expected this, because you loving a girl like me never made sense."

I remember reaching my arm out to grab her, but she used all her might to shake out of my grasp. Her body still not strong enough, but I didn't want to do anything to cause her any physical pain, so I let her go. She started walking away, and I stood there, waiting for her to look back.

If she would have looked back then I would have had a small hope to hang on to, just the slightest bit of hope that she would one day be able to forgive me. I don't suspect she ever will, and even if she could, I don't think I could ever forgive myself for causing that look in her eyes, from taking away the sparkle that I used to dream about since I first lifted her out of the net on choosing day.

Her words just replay themselves in my head over and over again as I shake my head with disgust in nobody but myself. I try to get my mind off of her but there is no escaping her. There is no escaping the guilt I feel.

I'm sitting in the control room with Zeke, watching out for her as I would always do. They were given two weeks off after the rankings were announced to enjoy their new lives in Dauntless, explore without having to worry about training or work. There have been a lot of parties, but I can't bring myself to step foot in another one of them. I noticed she's been staying in her apartment for the most part all week, occasionally leaving with Christina to get some food. I have also seen Uriah coming in and out of her room all week with bags of food, and other stuff I can't really recognize. I honestly felt a cringe of jealousy and anger working its way through me at the thought of them being able to spend time with Tris.

"Tonight's the new initiate party Christina's hosting" Zeke says from the chair across the room. I just keep my focus on the screens. "Look man you look terrible, we all make mistakes, just give her some time to forgive you, you know she loves you, I'm sure she will except your apology sooner or later."

I ponder that statement. Apologize.

"Dude I don't know how to get her to even listen to my apology. She doesn't have a reason too, I don't deserve her. And I am not going to another part. I am not going to look as if I have moved on, because I haven't. I won't. I need her back in my life, and I will do whatever it takes in order to earn her love again."

Zeke stays in the control room with me, he really is a good friend because I know how much he likes parties and missing this one isn't something he is probably thrilled about doing considering it may be the last one for the week.

A few hours later and I notice Tris and somebody else, both of them obviously drunk, fumbling with the keys at the door. I zoom in and clench my fist on the table as I recognize who is supporting her and keeping her steady. Uriah.

It's not that I suspect that he is going to take advantage of her in anyway, but no matter how much of a hypocrite I sound like, I don't like the idea of her allowing anybody else to support her other than me. Zeke must have noticed the change and my heavy breathing because at some point he managed to make his way over and stand behind me studying the screen. I look up at him and he freezes as well when he notices his little brother walk in with the love of my life and shut the door of her apartment.

"They're just friends, Uri wouldn't do that to you, you are like a brother to him" Zeke tries to reassure me, and with the hesitation in his voice, I assume he's trying to reassure himself too.

"Uriah hasn't talked to me since what happened with Tris, he won't even look my way" I State flatly.

"Doesn't mean anything's going to happen, he's probably just making sure she gets to bed safely, and then I am sure he will leave. We should probably get out of here too, you need to get some rest, clear your mind, and I am exhausted"

"Go ahead and go back, I'll be fine, I will probably head out of here soon." He looks at me warily, but then nods his head, grabs his jacket, and heads out of the control room.

Hours pass by, and contrary to Zeke, Uri is still in there.

I can't bear the thought of him consoling her in any way, it's too much. I storm out of the control room and head towards the dormitories. I'm pretty confident that I am going to follow through in my plan when I realize that I am not on my floor. Next thing I know I am standing outside her door, and I knock.

This chapter really wasn't necessarily what I wanted it to be, I wanted to do more but I really wanted Tobias view out there, so you guys could get a look inside his head. I am sure you are wondering what exactly took place between Tris and Tobias and I will let you know soon enough, keep reading!

Oh and if you want shorter chapters, longer chapters, umm just let me know. This is my first time writing and I am not quite sure what people prefer!

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