I sighed. Dinner was full of questions and my couple worded answers. Rich wasn't even looking at me and I knew it was because he didn't want to ruin dinner. I would have gone to my room and kept to myself if I didn't want to see the sunset from here again.

I went right though the floors until I reached outside. I sat where I used to and just watched the blue go to orange to pink.

Before it started I heard the back door open and then close slowly.

Richard had either followed me or has been doing this same thing since I left.

When it was over I simply pushed off the edge not needing another shouting match and glided back into the tower where I could get some water before heading to bed.

"Raven?" I heard Cy's tired voice and looked over at him.

"Hey." I said wondering if he was going to be the one to ask why I left and tell the other ones.

"How are you?" He asked and I just let my small smile fall.

"I just want him back so I can go home." I said honestly and he just walked over and hugged me until we broke apart at a throat clearing.

"She's awake." I heard Rich's voice rang though the room and I knew exactly who he was talking about.

I basically bolted from the room not caring if the doors opened up fat enough, I just went through them anyway.

"Raven." I heard BB's commanding tone. Since when was he so serious and trying to stop me?

"She knows where my son is. You tell me that if that was your own you wouldn't do what I am doing." I had turned on him so fast he seemed a little scared.

"She tried to bite off her own tongue. Speedy put a mouth restraint on her until she decides talking is better than hardly breathing." BB explained making me understand why he was stopping me.

I was so irritated that I felt myself start levitating and all I saw was red. My four eyes were coming out and that was when I felt hand on my shoulders holding me down.

"Go BB, I got her." Richard's voice rang out, comforting and commanding.

"Are you sure?" He asked knowing that we, Richard and I, were not on the best of terms now.

"Yeah." He said and I watched as BB walked away, looking over his shoulder at the both of us. We hadn't moved. I didn't plan to. Not unless I was walking out or through a wall.

His hands were off my shoulders but this time I was still grounded. I felt the bond we shared budging. He was trying to get into my head.

"Listen-"

"I don't have to listen to you. Not anymore. And stop trying to get through our bond. I sealed it for a reason." I said turning to leave only to have him grab onto my arm and pull me to a stop.

"Listen for a moment Raven." He said and I turned on him and retched my arm from his grip.

"Why? So you can blame me for Star? Or maybe yell at me again because I didn't know what the hell was going on?" I asked crossing my arms and making my hood come up.

"Don't do that." He said yanking it down so he could see my face.

"Why not?" I asked making it come back up.

"Because you know I hate it. Because you never used to speak to me like you were hiding something." He sounded broken but I couldn't respond to it.

"You heard that phrase right? Used to. We aren't teens anymore Richard we are grown and we have grown apart." I told him keeping the hard tone I had used before.

"Why can't we go back to that? The way things used to be. It wouldn't hurt. We could be like that until we find your son." He said and I thought about that.

"Are you forgetting why I left in the first place?" I asked seriously.

"We needed to be a team and a relationship could have ended badly." He said the same thing he had before making me scoff and turn around.

"But you had one with Star? Love your ideas Robin." I said walking through the window and right out to the water.

I sat on a rock and pulled my feet up thinking about Jay. I just kept thinking the worst. What if Trigon already killed him? Why did he even want Blackfire to take him? I would have gone willingly if they even looked at him the wrong way.

"Hey!" Cy scared me making me almost fall of the rock I was perched on.

"Hey…I thought you would have been charging up." I said looking over at him a bit calmer now.

"I can't until I know you are going to be okay for the night. How long were you-"

"Jay." I supplied when he sort of tried to think about his name.

"How long were you Jay's mother?" He asked leaning against what I was sitting on.

"I found him as a baby. Newborn. I took him home and I found out he has be power." I told him and he looked shocked and blinked a few times.

"What does he look like?" He seemed to get a little mushy on me, but after being a mom I kind of got used to it.

"Here." I said summoning a bunch of pictures I had taken of us. I came back to earth for Christmas… it was my favorite time of year. We would never get our pictures done in the same place just in case.

"He looks like you and-"

"I know… I realized that when he got to about 2 and a half years old." I cut him off and he looked at the picture more intensely.

"Why did you really leave? We know it wasn't because you had a fight over command issues with Rich." He said letting his hand fall with the picture in it. I guess he could keep that one.

"It's hard to talk about Cy… if he didn't say anything I won't either." I told him sternly and he just shook his head bringing the picture back up.

"Can I show him off?" He asked and we were right back to the mushy guy that seemed like an over caffeinated teenager.

"Go ahead… I'll be in, in a little bit." I said and he basically ran back to the tower while I stayed out watching the waves.

After about 5 minutes I went back in and saw all of the hardcore guys I once knew melting over my son's picture with Santa.

"He is the cutest little boy!" Speedy said and smiled at me. "He looks like me. But with spiky hair." He said rubbing his head a bit.

"What!" I heard Rich's shout from behind me and made the picture come right to me from Speedy's hand.

"Nothing." I said turning to glare at him.

"Show him the picture Rae… just in case he sees him when we find out where your father is hiding. He should know." Bee's voice of reason hit me and I just pulled it out slowly before handing it to him.

He took it carefully, not breaking eye contact with me until the picture was right where he could see it clearly.

"He looks like-"

"Me right?" Speedy cut in running over and peeking over his shoulder.

"No he looks like-"

"You." Batman said from his corner by the fridge.

"True, you and speedy look alike… but different at the same time." BB said and I rolled my eyes.

"Do you style his hair like that?" Rich asked with his mask pulled together I could tell he was glaring at me.

"No… it doesn't fall flat." I said giving him a glare of my own. "I wish he didn't look like you at all." I lied and as I walked past him I snatched my photo from him and shouted a goodnight to people before heading right to my old room.

I set up a couple pillows where Jay usually sleeps when he has nightmares and got ready for bed.

I heard a knock but stayed silent.

"Raven… you still awake?" Bee's voice called and I let her in. "Are you going to be okay?" She asked walking towards me tenderly.

"No." I heard my voice crack as I held the pillow tighter.

"Oh honey…" She was hovering above me now and saw the pillow. "You really have turned into a mommy." She sighed out and sat on my bed. I forgot how big this bed was, but with her sitting with her legs hanging off seemed far away.

"I just want him back Bee." I whispered and felt the hot tears fall down my face.

I heard footsteps running down the hall and thought of my son… he would always run down the halls to get to me and sleep with me. I started crying harder into the pillow when I heard his voice.

"I need to talk to her alone." Rich said and I heard his footsteps walk in without being invited.

"I don't think right now is a good time." Bee's hard voice didn't faze him… I knew because his feet didn't retreat, they didn't move at all.

The bond was being pushed at and I just closed my eyes and let the tears fall as I tried my hardest not to let him in… to keep up my barrier.

Bee's weight was gone and soon his was near my curled up feet.

"We're going to get him back Rae… I promise." He whispered and when he tried to set his hands on my feet I sat up and glared at him.

"You don't need to help." I seethed and he just stood quickly and started pacing.

"I want to…you saw that photo Rae." He waved his arm around and I nodded.

"Yeah, it was the picture of my son, me and Santa last year." I said wiping my face up some more as I pulled the picture out to really look at it again.

"You expect me to believe that? You were the one who believed in fate. And you must know as well as I do that, that little boy was supposed to be ours." He started to walk to me.

"He's mine. Fate gave him to me! You weren't around Richard! You told me to leave! I did and the second I get back you want to give me some big hug. When I ask a simple question you shout at me…I went home only to have to come back because he knows about the only thing I love!" I stood and shouted in his face this time.

I wasn't going to let him try and make this about us so we could fight as one like before. NO! I would fight enough to get my son back. He would fight to avenge the love of his life.

I would be gone when all this was over… making sure never to come back no matter how safe I think it is.

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