Officially: De-Throned
And so falls the playboy Prince
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I'm fine.
Really, I'm okay.
The first few night frightened me a bit though.
All I could see was his face.
Axel's.
And hear his voice....Seifer.
The way that he looked at me. Like I was nothing more then pray to a blood thirsty beast.
It still sends chills down my spine.
I don't think that it's something I'll forget anytime soon, but I'll live.
I'm going back to school today.
-I don't know if I'm really ready to face them or not.
See, when you're on top, you don't have to worry.
Everyone loves you. Wants to be with you, Wants to be you.
When you're on the bottom....you have to watch your back.
Kids on the bottom often get beat up.
Like, say by the football team.
I don't think I had to worry about that much though.
I might be the laughing stock right now....but maybe they might try and understand.
One could only hope I guess.
When the Principal called and told me about starting back up with school, he sounded a little strained as he asked how I was.
I knew he didn't really want to hear it.
He had seen that vid. So did everyone else.
But I gave him my sweet as honey voice, even a small smile from my end of he phone line.
When I told mom I was going back so soon, she flipped.
Like I knew she would.
"How can they be so...so- insensitive!"
She yelled, stamping her feet.
I told her to calm down but...
She could be awfully childish sometimes.
...make that, most of the time.
Her light brown colored hair was a bit of a mess this morning, falling to her shoulders.
Her piercing blue eyes had that 'out for blood' look in them.
...It's pretty easy to see where I got my good looks from.
I did my best to calm her down.
I told her I was okay. How I could handle it without a problem.
Flashing one of my trade-mark smiles.
She sighed, trying to return my smile.
Though it was strained.
This whole time sense I got back from the hospital and the police had started to question me,
Mom has hardly left my side.
She really is very protective of me.
Constantly checking to make sure I'm okay.
She even tried to convince me to tell her who raped me, so she could find him and string 'em high, she said.
I didn't tell her, so she started to form her own ideas.
Yesterday, she told me she thought it had been my brother.
She called him a sick fuck. She told me to tell her where he lived now so she could kill him.
I wouldn't.
I did my best to convince her he had not even been involved...but that proved extremely difficult.
After a while though, she let that fantasy go.
She might have just want a reason to end Roxas' life.
After all, he was a gay freak of nature.
As I drove away that morning, She watched my go from the curb.
Looking in the mirror I could see her there until I turned the corner.
...she as probably still there.
I began to wonder on the way to school-
Just what my mom would think of me if I told her the truth.
That I think, I'm pretty sure even, that I liked it at least a little.
I wasn't going to tell anyone about the nights I awoke to find I had been fingering myself.
As I pulled into the parking lot, I did my best to put on my normal sly, playboy smile.
Though I'm sure it would have looked better if I cut out a picture of it and stuck it to my face.
That's how fake I was sure it looked.
The stares weren't so bad...
Though the names they shouted at me the whole way up the walk began to piss me off.
Sick man-whore. Dick-sucker. Loose ass, and anal slut.
Just to name a few.
I had seen Olette waiting where she normally did for me, right in front of the main doors.
Before I could so much as wave, some girl came up to her.
They started talking and then went inside together.
Without even a glance at me.
I knew we were over.
I knew it the moment that I watched that vid myself.
It was okay though...
Olette had only wanted the popularity that came with dating the most popular kid in school at the time.
That was how all the girls had been.
Sure, they wanted the title.
They also wanted what came after the break up.
The other guys in school loved to grab up my most current ex's just as quick as they could.
I guess, if I had been banging 'em, they must at least be a good fuck.
As I walked into my first class, I saw the same words scrawled all over my deak.
Either in permanent marker or engraved.
They were just names....right?
So what did it matter.
It was only my pride that was crippled.
That I don't think I wanted much any more anyways.
It was like this at lunch as well.
The Jeers just seemed to follow me where ever I went.
The guys were at our usual table.
Though they hardly looked themselves.
They all sat on the one side, and I knew they left the whole other one for me.
Hayner gave me a slight wave, not pausing in his conversation with Tidus as I sat down.
Tidus glanced up, giving me a slight nod.
Riku didn't even look at me as he mumbled a greeting.
It was kinda funny really...and all my fault.
Because I had kissed him, I'm sure that Riku thought I would simply pounce on him.
How gay.
But then again...I wasn't sure what I was going through right now.
Being still so confused...
I felt like a puppy.
With people on either side of me, calling my name-
I wasn't sure who to go to.
Lunch passed in a fog.
Neither of the guys really talking to me that much, and after Hayner was done talking to Tidus, they just sort of shut up.
It was right before the bell rang that I went into the bathroom.
I was freshening up, washing my face as I told my self I only had a few more hours left.
When I heard a noise behind me.
Standing up and looking in the mirror, I saw one of the more bigger and burlier guys in the school.
Vexen-
And he had a couple other buddys with him as well.
I turned around only to be pushed down.
"How do you like it, Whore?"
Vexen asked, leaning down and smirking at me evily.
His buddys laughed.
I could only look up at them with wide eyes.
Shit.
Anything but this.
As I was pulled up to my knees, I heard a zipper being pulled down, and buttons being undone.
Somehow...I had expected this to happen.
As Vexen grabbed hold a of head to hold it still, I simply closed my eyes.
As his dick was shoved into my mouth...I focused on breathing.
As it was thrusted in and out....harshly down my throat and back,
I did my best to keep my tongue out of the way as I tried not to gag.
-And as that hot sticky liquid flowed down my throat,
I could only think on thing.
How sick and twisted some people are.
But was I really any better?
I had tried to kill my brother...
and now I was dirty because of Seifer and Axel.
Why try and clean up now?
As I started to move my head on my own, the next guy let out a small surprised gasp.
Hah, weren't expecting that, were ya?
-And as they left me there in the bathroom, having missed already almost an hour of my next class,
I had a moment to think.
Washing my face again, I looked at my almost totally empty eyes.
I was slut.
A no good fucking whore.
I guess it was something I just had to except....
I, Sora, the former homophobic bad-ass,
was gay.
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I found out...soon after excepting this new fact,
that didn't really mind.
I guess you can't hide from some things.
Maybe this was the way I was meant to be...
I mean, look at Roxas.
He's gay.
Always has been apparently.
There's this part of me, though...
That wishes I had just acepted Roxas back then.
Told him it was okay.
That I still loved him no matter what.
That would have been the right thing...I know that now.
So after school, I gave Mom a call.
Told her I'd be a little later getting home.
That I was going over to Riku's house.
But when I got into my car, I had no plans to even head Riku's direction.
I was heading for Twilight Apartment complex.
To see my brother.
...Hoping that Axel wouldn't kill me for showing up.
-And that Roxas would welcome me back.
Unlike what I had done to him.
Then again I wasn't sure it was such a good idea on my part.
I needed help.
I needed someone that had gone through this...Like I was now.
I just wasn't sure what I'd do when I saw Axel.
That man had been in my dreams ever sense that day.
I know he hadn't been the one actualy....well, fucking me.
But still, he was there. In my face.
I let out a sigh, turning into the parking lot of the apartments only to sit there.
I stared the building where his apartment was.
I ducked down slightly as the door opened.
Out came Axel, who turned around slightly to wrap an arm around the blond that stood in the doorway.
Sora felt his heart race as the red-head leaned down and kissed Roxas passionetly.
When they parted, I could breath a little easier.
I waited for Axel to leave in his car before sitting up.
Roxas watched Axel drive away with a look that screamed adoration.
He closed the door slowly.
I couldn't believe it.
I had never seen them act intimate before....this was the first.
I swallowed hard as I started my car back up, pulling out of the lot.
It was then I realised something.
"Shit." I mumbled, raising a hand to my forehead as Ihe drove in the direction of home.
....I had a small lump in his jeans.
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