Hi everyone! Thanks for the nice reviews, I know I havent update The Way I Really Need You, in a week, buts its only because I wanted to get the ball rolling with this one.
This chapter has a flashback, so it gives information on their past and background of their marriage, and I know people are shocked that Ryan is the cheater, its just a story, real Ryan wouldnt do such a thing.
R/R xoxo
"So that's sorted, I will be the ones to distract the kids, say our car broke down, and they need to come and get us, before we head out?" Julie asked one of her eldest friends. Kirsten nodded at Julie and went back to their list.
"I'm so excited, they both will be so surprised" Kirsten said enthusiastically, whilst Summer looked on with concern.
"Are you both sure this is a good idea? I mean, Marissa has voiced to all of us, that her and Ryan had hit a bit of a rough patch" Summer knew ti was more than a rough patch, she knew what Marissa suspected of him, but denied to herself. Things recently had become extremely tense between them, and she didn't want a surprise anniversary party to be the tip of the iceberg.
"Well Marissa, never said anything was that bad, she wouldn't lie to her mother Summer dear" Julie arched a botoxed eyebrow, as if asking her stepdaughter to correct her. Marissa hadn't really voiced her problems with anyone except herself
"All I'm saying is I hope they are both in the right state of mind, You wouldn't want to tense anything up" Kirsten nodded with her daughter in law and then reasoned with Julie
"Maybe she's right Julie, are you sure this is a good idea?, Maybe we should wait until their next anniversary"
"Guys, this is my daughter were talking about, I know we hadn't always got on in the past, but I know her, and her marriage with Ryan is fine, they have just hit a bumpy spot, Summer, you and Seth argue on a daily basis, but no one is questioning your marriage" Summer nodded unconvinced, and moved quickly as her doorbell rang.
"I will be right back guys" Summer moved through her fairly big house that her and Seth shared. As she past Sophie in the sitting room, she smiled at her 7 year old sister on law.
"Alright Sophie Bee?" Summer asked her moving quickly,
"Yep!" Sophie said excitedly, with a lot of love for her, she admired Summer and Marissa in so many ways, and was so lucky to have the both of them as her 'sisters.
Summer slowly opened their wooden door, not expecting to see her best friend standing there, mascara streaking her face, with her very concerned goddaughter on her hip, also shedding light tears. She immediately opened her arms for her to console her.
"Marissa! What happened?" Sophie immediately came running to the door also, hearing Marissa's name heard, Marissa shook her head as more tears fell, Summer reached over to hold Darcey, afraid that Marissa wasn't able to hold their weight anymore, she looked pale and tired.
"Sophie, here take her to the other room" Sophie nodded and lead the baby's tiny hand into the sitting room where she had been previously, and helped her onto the sofa.
"Coop! What happened" She said as she soothed Marissa's shaking form by stroking her back like she was a child.
"Here come here" Summer ushered her to sit on her step, however Marissa was still in tears and still quiet.
"Marissa, your starting to scare me now sweetie, what happened?" Summer urged her to take deep breaths as her sobs subsided and her small voice came out.
"I…I saw him Sum" Marissa said weakly
"You saw who?" Summer answered her confused
"Ryan" Marissa responded her in a mouse like voice, silent tears still streaming down her perfectly structured face.
"Marissa, what did you see with Ryan?" Summer asked her in all seriousness, not wanting it to be the answer in her head she thought it was.
"He was….I saw him with…..his secretary" She broke into a fresh batch of tears and fell against Summer shoulder once more. Summer was speechless, and hung silent. She knew things had been terrible between them, she had even suspected him of it himself, but she didn't know he would betray her quite like he did.
"Oh Marissa, I am so sorry" Summer told her best friend apologetically. They sat in quiet for a while longer, although all that could be heard was Marissa's tears, Summer figured it would be best if she just let her cry. Like she needed to get everything she had inside out. Neither of them noticed Kirsten walking through the house to find them, soothing Darcey who was whimpering from her hip.
"Marissa is everything ok?" Kirsten asked her worriedly. She looked at Summer who tried to avoid her eye contact, not wanting to tell people if Marissa wasn't. Kirsten sat down with Darcey on her lap, who looked sadly at her mother. Marissa clenched her eyes tightly shut.
"Mommy" Darcey held out her arms, indicating that she wanted to be held, Marissa slowly lifted her head, and moved her daughter onto her lap, holding her closely, it had just struck her that Darcey was all she had, as more tears hit her, Kirsten instinctively began to rub her back.
"Sweetie, what happened? Is it something with Ryan?" Summer looked on awkwardly, Marissa let go of her hand that was tightly holding hers to cuddle her daughter. Marissa nodded and looked down towards the floor.
"Is Rissa alright?" Sophie asked, making her presence known,
"Baby, go and finish watching TV, and take Darcey with you" Kirsten told her daughter
"No!" Marissa spoke, startling everyone.
"Darcey is staying with me" Marissa said deffiniatly, Sophie nodded unconvinced and returned to the family room.
"Come on now honey, I know something's wrong to deserve tears. Have you and Ryan had an argument?" Marissa shifted awkwardly, under both of the gazes.
"I would rather not say Kirsten"
"Ok sweetie, but you and Ryan always work it out," Marissa nodded not bothering to wipe the tears that continued to cascade, Darcey looked on quietly, Summer was amazed at how well she had behaved, she had been quite and let her Mom deal with the things she needed to.
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Marissa had just taken the pregnancy test, she had forced herself to buy. The pink plus sign was staring her in the face, as if it were a competition. Her first thought was that she was going to be sick, however she had dry heaved for like the last hour, so there was nothing more to come up. She was tracing her mind back to thinking who it was. It didn't take long, she had only really been with one person, whilst being single this past year. Well she had woken up with that person more than once in the morning, but they would get up, and pretend nothing had ever happened, carry on their normal life, then there might be a text, asking for drinks and the next thing she knows is that her clothes are on the floor and her last smart thought was long gone.
She was 24, technically single, and now she was pregnant. Great.
She bit her lower lip, as some tears began to fall. She had no idea how to handle a baby, she could barely look after her cat. Her job as a marketing assistant for a small fashion label wouldn't cover its costs. Then there was Ryan, her ex boyfriend of nearly a year. But friend with benefit ever since then. They had broken up, due to the fact she had allegedly been 'flirting' with a guy she had met a work. At the time, everyday was a new argument, however in love they were, nothing helped. There time was becoming more and more limited after starting new jobs, and with Ryan trying to prove himself to Sandy in the Newport Group, it left little time for their love.
They both amicably agreed that if they broke up, it would be for long, however it had been nearly a year and both of them were too scared to make the move. So that's why the sex worked for them, they both got what they wanted, there were still there for each other, caring for each other, just in a different way, without the pressure of their relationship at the specific time. But that didn't comfort her when she was cold at night, and just wanted to be with the person she loved the most.
What felt like hours later, she heard her phone buzz with a missed call. She rung her answer phone and received her message.
"Hey Riss, Its me, I know you said you were busy this week, but I just got some good news, and was wondering if you were at your apartment, ok let me know." She heard Ryan's excited and happy voice ring through her ears, and she felt terrible for what she was about to tell him. The time on the message said she had missed her call 2 and a half hours ago. She decided to ring him anyway, he sounded really happy, and today might be the day he called to take her back, putting any baby or future related queries to the back of her mind. She waiting for Ryan to pick up his phone when her daze was interrupted.
"Hello" Marissa was surprised at the woman's voice on the end of the phone.
"Um, Hi" Marissa said confused as the woman laughed a throaty laugh. The thought of Ryan being with anyone else made her feel sick, she didn't expect him to have been sitting around moping this past year like she had.
"Who is this?" The woman asked impatiently, whilst she heard Ryan fighting for the phone on the other side.
"Marissa" She spoke firmly, worrying horrifically about who this woman was, and why she was with Ryan.
"Riss, is that you I-" Ryan spoke fast and sounded apologetic,
"Yes, Look Ryan I think we should talk" Marissa said not being able to control her words
"Um, okay, I have news actually" Ryan said excitedly, trying to ignore her sombre tone
"Yeah, so do I, I'm pregnant" Marissa mentally hit herself for telling him, she had decided in her mind, abortion would be the best route out, never need to tell anybody, and she could carry on as if nothing happened, that seemed he most logical answer.
"Oh" Ryan said meekly, shocked by her words.
"Do you want to meet, talk about this, and us?" He asked her, wanting to know some answers.
"If you want, you know where I live" and with that she hung up the phone, confused and in an even bigger mess than before her 1 minute and 9 second phone call.
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"Summer, I…I have to go do something real quick, could you look after the baby?" Marissa asked snapping herself out of her gaze. She had been at Summer's more or less the whole day. Julie and Kirsten had left shortly after, both concerned over Marissa, although she stressed it was nothing. Marissa had handed Darcey over to Summer, and had retreated to one of Summer's guest bedrooms, and had been there ever since. Summer looked up from where she was feeding her neice, who was sitting on her lap. Summer had never been overly maternal, so when it came to looking after Darcey she kind of panicked not knowing what she was meant to do and not do.
"Mommy!" Darcey moved from Summer's lap and onto the floor where she ran over to Marissa's legs, Marissa weakly picked up her daughter and kissed her forehead before handing her back to Summer, much to Darcey's disappointment.
"Do you want me to set up your rooms for tonight Coop" Summer asked her wistfully, she had spoken fully to Marissa, all about how Ryan had been acting distant, to her suspicions, to him actually cheating, and she felt heartache for her.
"Yeah that would be good thanks" Marissa said appreciatively, from the red circles under her eyes, it was obvious that she had been crying and not long stopped.
"Darcey be a good girl for Auntie Summer" She kissed her daughter's blonde hair and nodded to Summer, who stood up to soothe her niece who began to cry again, and with that Marissa was walking fast out of the door to her car.
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She pulled up on her drive, and parked her car, tears stung her eyes, and the lights being on and Ryan's car being in front of their house, their home. She slammed the door of her car and walked up to the door, and let herself in. She heard nothing and slammed the door loudly, she stood quietly before moving, Ryan was obviously not home, that made everything that she had to do a lot easier. She raced upstairs to her room passing all the pictures of their life together on the stairs. When she got toe their room, it was exactly how she left it this morning, however it felt a lot colder. She walked to her closet and pulled out her Louis vuitton suitcases and started to throw all of her clothes inside it, ignoring any of his clothes, in fear that she would have an emotional breakdown. When she had packed at least one case, she moved to start on her daughters things, Darcey would need more or less everything she had in her room. At least if Marissa forgot anything she could borrow Summers. She moved frantically around her daughter's room, focusing on the task in hand, that was what her Mom had told her. Marissa never thought her life would turn out like that, taking divorce advice from Julie Cooper Nichol Roberts. As she packed all of Darcey's toys and pretty pink outfits in another case, she didn't even notice his presence in the house.
"Marissa"
"Stay the hell away from me, I can't even bare to be near right now Ryan!" She said warningly with her back toward him.
"Don't you think we should talk" Ryan asked her hopelessly
"What is there to talk about?" She asked him with her back still facing him
"Your seriously going to pack up your lives, don't I get a say in this? I think we should talk, work it out!"
"Ryan, why is it you haven't wanted to talk for the last couple of months our marriage had been going down the drain?" Marissa asked him, with tears in her eyes. Ryan looked pained, he moved forward to try and be nearer to her, but she backed away.
"Marissa, I'm sorry, I--"
"Please, I don't want your excuses Ryan," She moved to get out of the door, but he blocked her path.
"Marissa please" Ryan pleased with her but she shook her head, trying to be strong in her decisions.
"How could you do this to me?" Marissa whispered as tears flew down her face, he reached up to brush them away but she shoved him away in anger.
"Its over Ryan, my lawyers will be in touch" She croaked as tears consumed her voice, she struggled to carry all of her luggage down the stairs.
"Marissa, please don't do this, she wasn't worth it, you know you are the most important thing in my life"
"What a mistake you have made Ryan Atwood, you threw away your marriage for someone who wasn't worth it!!." Marissa said as she looked at her husband, who
"I hope your happy together" Marissa said shaking her head at him,
"Marissa, I love you" Ryan said, at one last plea with her to stay
"Ryan, its not enough anymore, I will come back when your at work to collect the rest of our things." With that, she walked out to her car and threw her suitcases in the back, knowing her life wouldn't ever be the same without him in it.
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