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That night fell fast and day rose quickly all though still dark the day began. AL was up and about around 530am careful not to wake Ed. The point was mute however because Ed was still wide awake. Al cooked some oatmeal ate his share and set some later for Ed to eat. Then put his scrubs on and took one last glance at his brother and out the door he when. AL was a DNP so he was so busy even early in the morning but lately it seem to get earlier now. He made great money 4 dollars a day concerning a average person make .25 a hour in his day. Ed heard the door shut as Al left and laid thinking about how sleep would be nice. It was between the ached in his metal ports and the ache in his heart that kept him awake. He knew he would have to fall asleep soon or later. He thought of her again Winry how he missed her. She the first women he ever fell in love with in this cold world. He looked at the clock and noted she be by shortly if she was alive. Eight o clock every week day she would come by and give him a hard time about being late for work. He after all did work for her family. He looked at the clock and knew 8 would come,8 would go. She would not come and time when on even with out her. He felt his heart skip a beat when he thought of his childhood friend and first love Winry Rockbell. He knew they were so a like he haven't seen her in 10 years. He also wonder if she would think he betrayed her by falling in love. He hoped she had moved on for his shake but he always would love her. He knew if he had married the Winry in this world it would be because he loved her but never as much as his childhood friend in his world. He was human none the less yet some how they were connected. He believe faithful for falling in love with this world Winry was to easy. Winry of this world looked a little different but not to much she was a strawberry blonde with the same feisty ways. He smiled thinking of her hair because it was the one thing that made him remember it was not his childhood friend Winry Rockbell. He remembered the day before she died and sat up with his head in his hands. .FLASHBACK

"Ed would you stop that already!" she laughed hanging over the work station

"Why it so so much fun to watch you squirm" he laughed grabbing her tighter and tickling every inch or her. He felt her against him the excitement the pleasure and the heart ache it was then she stiffen .She turned her head with a sad smile on her face. He felt his heart pounding as he felt her lips brush his cheek and her warm breath.

"I can't" she said sadly pulling away breaking free. She tried turn away but it was to late it felt to much like when him. The tears streamed her face as she searched his face with a sober stare. He was so much like him yet not her Eric Edward Hohenheim. He long gone but his love always in her heart. She would love only him until they met again. She believe it she had too she was staying alive for him. It was only a fair trade more of an Equivalent Exchange she would suffer to she him again.

"What?" Ed said as his face drew back in shock. He for a brief moment felt guilt for coming on to her so strong. Yes he did like her a lot and could not no matter what he did hold the feeling for her as his Winry of his world. He started feeling sick at the thought of his Winry's suffering the rest of her life without him. He felt the guilt if she could never love him why should he regardless of her double. How was that Equivalent Exchange fair in his eyes. It was then Winry spoke taking Ed's hand gently.

"I am sorry Edward I am in love" she said looking down to her feet and moving towards him. She held her place and spoke again

"His name was Eric Edward Hohenheim" she said pausing for a moment she noticed Ed eyes as he drew back as if he was being burnt. He knew that name but no way he though trying to hold his self together. He was the me of this world he looked up suddenly as she began to speak again.

"He died 12 years ago" she sobbed out reaching for Ed again she was becoming weak in the legs just speaking of him. Ed let her lean on him gently and rubbed her back for comfort.

"It's okay" he purred gently touching her tear stained face.

"NO IT'S NOT I LOVED HIM SO MUCH HE IS NOT YOU! " she cried throwing her self into his chest violently

"But I want him to be I miss him so much" she whispered wiping tears on his shirt. He was holding her as she shook violently. He felt if he let go she would disappear and his heart was going to explode. My god she was doing the same thing he was and faulting horribly as well. He held her for along time until she no longer shook. He peeked around to see her face had soften and tears had stopped. She looked was pale and peaceful as she looked back at him. He saw her eyes still glassed over from the tears dwelling within threaten to come again.

"I am sorry" she said again pushing gently away and taking his hands in her. She looked at him her eyes met his. She stilled her self to explain the great out burst and pain she was feeling. Ed looked at her caringly brushing some hair behind her ear and spoke in a whisper to not alarm her.

"Tell me about Eric?" he asked in a calm tone as if he didn't already know. He had to know if this was his self in this world. She smiled tears falling again and it seemed she was in a slight daze. She start to speak out of order in kind of a rant to say.

"He was 16 oh he loved the idea of flying and me he loved me" she laughed as her tears fell fast she stopped and held place for a moment. She took in small breath then found the strength to go on.

"He was my age, his younger half brother Alfonse and I grew up before and during the war." She went to continue on but he stopped her

"Half brother?" He ask looking confused.

"Yeah he had a half brother his mother Trisha was not married when she had Alfonse both had two different fathers. Eric's father disappear before the war" she explained watching Ed reaction. Ed remembered Alfonse's blue eyes not like Al's the only different. She stopped and smiled at Ed as he was taking it all in and she even laugh out loud.

"What is it?" Ed ask shocked

"Oh I am sorry it just like I am telling Eric his life story because you look just like him if he had long hair of course" she said with tears mixed with emotion as she pulled his hair.

"OCH!" He playfully yelled as she gave him (a you know that didn't hurt look.) Winry back at home pulled it that way he thought. He looked up to the sound of her clearing her throat to speak again.

"Eric's Father left when he was 2 year old and that is when Mr. Heiderich Alfonse's father came in the picture. He loved Trisha enough to have his only son with Trisha and raise Eric with. Even if she would not marry him because she kept hopes Eric's father would come home. Trisha was horrified when they took Jason away in a steel truck one day. Eric remembered his mother face and all he could do was hold his brother. She pleaded don't take him please!" Winry stopped there to catch her breath she looked down sadly. Ed couldn't read her so he ask impatiently

"What did happen to Jason" he said accidentally out loud he watched Winry head come up and she looked him in the eyes seriously.

"They say Germany needed his skills to win the war the year was 1915 .Eric was only 10 and Alfonse was 8 we lived right down the street from them at that time. She came in the middle of the night beating on the door begging us Eric and Alfonse I remember they slept my bed room floor that night but Trisha" she paused and looked up at Ed again. He looked as if he was a kid listening to a intense fairly tale. She cleared her throat and spoke on.

"We never saw Trisha again we heard her yelling at my father and than a door slam I remember Eric's face. I held him down he wanted to go and he kept telling me mommy said stay here mommy said stay here he cried so much ED" she said sadly looking at him with tears in his eyes. Ed guessed it was the night they loss their mother.

"Three year Ed Three years they were like brothers to me and then the army came for them both thanks to their fathers. Germany was losing the war Edward and they blamed them because of their blood! " she yelled sadly sitting in her chair. Ed couldn't believe pain she was bearing.

"They were send to a military camp a school for future soldier because Germany would get their revenge on all. I was now the women crying out for them not to take them three years passed before Hoheheheim and Heiderich found out and saved their sons. Ed I hated them both for what they had done to Eric's family. They saved them both in the end she said smiling remember the day Eric and Alfonse came home to her. He told me he stayed alive for me." She cried getting worked up again Ed reach in to calm her she took some breaths and when on.

"We were happy again he was 16 and in love we were in love." She stopped to smile then frowned and spoke on. "Alfonse was with his father and Jason got deathly ill very fast. We noticed him coughing but thought nothing of it but…" she stopped there sighing Ed knew what was coming next by the look in her eyes as she put her head down.

"He died didn't he?" Ed said softly putting his hand on her shoulder she looked up with such a sadden look. She shook her head conforming his question.

"Yeah same week Eric was killed by one of the last raid for Germany's surrender in Munich. Alfonse did not see his brother die but his father he did in Berlin" she said weakly rubbing her hands over his. The tears now ran down her face as she sighed and looked at Ed again. He could see her emotions in her eyes and listen contently.

"But I did" she whispered as she held a sober look. He jolted back some at her words for he relived these final moments. He felt his heart ach in his chest as she buried her face in her hands.

END OF FLASH BACK