Chapter Two
I woke up to see James sitting by the door writing "James what are you writing?" "A song" he said "you want to hear some?" "yes" "I, I'm really falling for you I, hate what you're putting me through What have you done to me now? I just can't sleep at night my bed is wet don't know how Will someone please turn on the light?" he sang "You showed up at my door Just like in a teen movie I said are you the whore? I paid to come and screw me I guess she found it funny When I said "hello honey" The piercing in her belly They turned my legs to jelly" "nice" I said "you are really good" "thanks…Matt and Charlie went to get the RV" he said "you want to go meet up with them?" I nodded and got up before sitting in his lap "James I feel like I know you" I whispered "like you are the one I've been waiting for" "me too" he said "I feel you have always been there waiting for me to find you" I held his hand "You should get ready for the tour" I said "you'll be gone for a while" I got up and walked out "hey we don't have a ride" "bike" I said "let's go" "ok let's go" he grabbed my hand and stuck it in his pocket with his "how about we walk?" I nodded not wanting to look up into his blue eyes in fear that I would fall more in love with him.
As we walked to the RV place I looked at my feet till James let go of my hand and places his around my waist "are you ok?" I nodded "Dylan if something's wrong you can tell me" "WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS TRYING TO GET ME TO SPILL MY GUTS TO YOU" I snapped "I SAID I WAS OK LEAVE IT AT THAT!" "Dylan I won't let you keep it in any more you can tell me and I won't judge you" "YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY I ACT THE WAY I DO?" I yelled "WHEN I WAS FIVE MY DAD DIED THAT SAME DAY I WAS RAPPED BY MY MOMS BOYFRIEND WILE SHE STOOD THERE WATCHING!" he looked at me "Dylan" "go on run away from me" he pulled me close to him and whispered "I won't run from you, I will protect you from everything" "that's what my dad told me before he was shot by Logan" "who?" "moms boyfriend" I said "because of him I can't…I scared of men" "Dylan you don't have to be afraid…you want to come on tour with us?" "what?" "you want to come and hang with Matt me and Charlie?" "I'd love to James" I said "but what about them do they want me to come" just then an RV pulled up to us "hey need a lift" Matt said "hop in this thing is awesome" "woo!" James ran in yelling
When we got in Matt was at the wheel "this place is so cool where's everyone staying?" "well you are out here and Matt has the bed" Charlie said "I sleep on the couch in the room" "Where's Dylan gonna sleep" James asked "she's coming with us" "what James Dylan doesn't want to come with us" "I would like to Matt if you had room for me" I said "but if you don't want me to go I can stay at your house" "you can come with us as our cook" Matt said "and we better get a damn good breakfast!" "oh yes master fuck you" I said "you know I am a damn good cook" "I know Dylan" I walked back to the bathroom and took a shower then I stood there it was nice to shower and not have someone with me "Dylan we are going out to eat get ready" Matt said "and dress like a lady" " I don't have clothes let's stop at a store" I yelled "or…get me one of James shirts and some skinny jeans" matt ran back with them and James following "ok tell me why you have my shirt" he said "its three sizes too small for you" "but it's a perfect fit on me" I said "but Flannel?" "hey it's my shirt I wear when I sleep" he said "but you look good in it" Matt gave him the 'and It will stay on her' look and I laughed "I bet it looks better on you" then Matt glared at James a dirty look "hey she said it" "come on I got our seats and everything" Charlie said the stopped "Wow Dylan you look good"
The boys were real gentlemen James pulled out my chair and Matt didn't hit on any girl Charlie was just his polite self "I have to use the ladies room" I said and James pulled out me chair "thanks" Matt made kissy sounds "get a room" "ok then well use yours" I said then walked to the bathroom "hey you're the girl who was sitting with busted so who are you gating?" one girl said "oh I'm Nikki" "um Dylan and I'm not with any of them" I said "I'm just their friend" I walked out to see the table empty "hm the bill madam" "put it on the tab, Jackie Moore" I said walking out "those asses" I sat down and covered my face "aw Dillanie" I heard a voice say "were you ditched?" I looked up to see a brown haired boy "Danny" I hugged him "hey I'm so glad to see you again" "well I told you I would come back and see you" he said "now how is my little cousin" "DYLAN hey why did you come out here?" Matt yelled "oh um Danny you're back" "shut up" I said "Danny how long are you in town?" "I'm just passing through and well my ride dumped me so I'm stuck" "Matt can we drop Danny off on our way?" "ha ya why not man glad to see that mug around here". Just then James and Charlie came out" "Dylan who's your friend?" Charlie asked "this is Danny Jones from Mcfly" I said "god I haven't seen you in like eight years" "oh Danny" James said "hey that calamari isn't agreeing with me can we get on the road?" "ya let's go we have to drop Dylan of on the way" I said "come on let's get going" I pulled him on the RV and sat down next to Danny.
As we drove off Danny told me all about his band and his ride "Dillanie this girl was smoking but she didn't have the one thing I need to be happy" Danny said pulling me closer "she didn't have your smile and loo… what's wrong?" "I'm just tired" I whispered closing my eyes as he covered me with a blanket "Night Dillanie" he said "oh Dillanie would you be in the video for my new song" "Matt do we have time for it?" "I guess and if anything we can leave her there" "not funny" I said "if you leave me behind ill burn your house down" "wow so mean" Danny said sitting back "night Dillanie you need a pillow?" "are you going to have one of those dreams?" When I woke up everyone was sleeping "Matt" I said shaking him "Matt I'm going to shower" "you want me to join you" he asked sitting up "Miss. Universe?" "Matt its Dylan please don't come with me" I said then turned to Charlie "Charlie I'm going to shower so stay out of the bathroom" he nodded at me and I went to the shower, the water felt nice but I didn't enjoy it for long the door opened and Danny came in "don't…" "GET OUT DANNY NOW" I yelled covering myself so he wouldn't see the scars "DANNY GET…" "what are those?" he asked moving my hair to see the scars "WHO DID THIS?" "L-Logan" I said "they just won't go away" "Logan wasn't that the guy who killed uncle Malcolm?" I nodded "Dillanie what did he do to you" I pushed him away and ran out the door and into James "we have to stop meeting like this" "help me Danny wants to know what happened to me" "oh he was in there too?" "Dillanie hm what the hell" Danny yelled "what are you doing?" "she fell on me Danny" James said "don't worry nothing happed and nothing will" James sounded different as if he were mad at me or Danny…was he jealous of him?
When we dropped Danny off there were three other guys there "Damn Danny look at you" a blonde boy said "you get dumped by Sidney and now look at this one" "I'm going to stay in the RV if anyone cares" James said then I looked at Matt who shrugged at me "bye" "I'll go get your outfit for the video" Danny said "oh Harry, Tom, Dougie take care of her and not flirting with her she's family" "so you must be Dillanie I'm Dougie" one said "so how are you and Danny related" he walked me over to the set and we sat down "well he's my cousin and a year older" I said "he is a really nice guy too I'm amazed he's signal" "ya ha well when you two came out we thought he wasn't signal" Tom said and Harry agreed " well glad to have such a…" "Tom she is Family" Dougie said "now leave her alone before she beats you up or has Danny boy do it for her" I laughed at them then Danny came back with my outfit "Danny I look stupid" I said not wanting to come out and let them see me "is this really what I have to wear?" "let me see you" Dougie said walking over "come on you look great" he smiled "that's a lie" I muttered "I look like a cow in this" "well then you are one fine cow but you are not a cow dear you are beautiful" he said "look it's just a few minutes and you can go back to your own clothes" I nodded and walked out "hey when did the model get here!" Matt yelled and whistled "come on give us a turn!" I kept wanting to run back and hide "don't listen to him he is being an ass Dillanie" Danny said "Matt leave the poor girl alone! Or I'll kick your ass" "bring it on skinny boy I whooped you when we were ten I can do it again in front of them!" "guys let's get this over with please" "fine come on". After about an hour we were done "They told me every day, That it'll be OK. She rocks my world more than any other girl" they sang "Dude it's such a pity, and I'm sorry that you lost that girl" "cut!" Danny said "we are done" I ran back to change as fast as I could "damn don't even wait for the complements" I looked at myself I didn't like what I saw looking back, a small scared weak little girl who will never find love "you did great out there" James said coming in "I thought you looked beautiful" he leaned in and kissed me slowly "James?" I said before the door flew open and Danny was there "ok what the hell is going on Dillanie!" he yelled "are you seeing him or something" "Danny it's not what it looks like" "it looks like you two were having a moment Dillanie!" he yelled "look you can't keep lying to me!" "Danny!" "ha well I can see you have made up your mind" James said "well your lost Dill I hoped you would of realized how much I care for you" "really you think I don't know how much you care why do you thing in let you kiss me!" "THEN WHY ARE YOU WITH HIM" James yelled "he doesn't even know Logan raped you after murdering you dad!" "Dillanie is that true?" "I-I-I HATE YOU JAMES AND YOU KNOW WHAT I LIKED YOU A LOT" I screamed "I WAS GOIN GTO ASK DANNY IF I SHOULD ASK YOU OUT" I tried not to cry "WHY DOSE IT MATTER WHAT HE SAYS?" "he's my only true family James Dylan is my cousin" I walked off to the RV and tried not to cry I lost him he made me feel safe and he was gone "Dillanie it's Danny I'm leaving can I have a hug goodbye?" he said and I opened the door and hugged him "he's a sweet guy and he was just scared he was losing the girl he cared for" "I don't think I can ever forgive him for telling you what happened" "look give him space and he will prove to you that he is worthy of you or not" he kissed my forehead and left "bye Dillanie" "bye Dylan I love you" "love you too little cousin"
As we drove off Matt and James sat out in the living room we made stops for dinner and bathroom I guess they were afraid to disturb me they didn't speak to me or even see if I was still there. I took a nap and when I woke up wanted to see them and talk "Matt" I said opening the door to see James and Matt sleeping "Charlie can I sit out here with you?" "come on" he said "you know that was harsh what you said to James…but I understand you were mad and he did betray your trust" "but I should of never said I hated him I'm so stupid I should of just kept my mouth shut like Logan told me I should have been a good girl" "look I don't know who this guy is but he did things to a five year old that's wrong" he said "hey you hungry I need to stop for something to drink to keep me awake" "I could go for something to drink" I said "thanks for listening" he didn't say anything. I went back to the living room and covered Matt and James up "you mind running in" Charlie asked "we need food too" "ha whatever just don't leave me here" "fine take one of them with you" he said "so you know I won't leave you" "J-James wake up" I said "I need you to come with me" "fine" he said getting up "let's get this over with" "bye you two" Charlie said "be quick"
In the store we gathered all that we needed from Food drinks my things and we got some magazines for us all to read like sports illustrated, Cosmo, and rolling stones. I felt sad when I noticed James walking behind me. It stayed this way till I turned around "I'm sorry I said I hated you I didn't mean it" I said hugging him "please don't be mad at me you don't even have to look at me I can get a ride home from Danny and you'll never have to see me" he just walked to the end of the isle and picked up something "we should get going we have enough food for the trip" he said "come on". We paid for what we had and James put another hundred on the counter "ah I see you bought one of them…is it for someone special?" the clerk asked "well this girl must mean a lot to you" "she dose but I screwed up" he said "she is beautiful" she grabbed some things and placed them in a bag "this is all you'll need for about two weeks" she said "have a nice day you two" "what did you get?" I asked as he grabbed my hand "James" "Hey Charlie I'm going to talk to Dylan in the room ok" "keep me out of this" he said "please" we ran to the room and he opened he coat to show me a puppy "James he is cute" I said "what are you going to name him?" "well he's yours" he said kissing me "I'm sorry about all I did I should of told you how I felt and everything" "Jake" I said "how about that for a name?" "I like it" Matt said "so we have a dog" "ah shit you could of told us you were here!" I said as he laid back and Jake licked him "are you going to make us get rid of him?" he looked at me then at James "as long as this keeps him out of your pants I don't care" "Matt she's like your sister" "ya but I know you've thought about her you talk in your sleep" James turned redder than I have ever seen some one turn "I-I-I have not" he said "that's crazy" I was sitting there red "hm so should we tell Charlie?" "no he won't like that we got him without talking to him" Matt walked out leaving James and me sitting there "so um" I said "what do we do in your dreams?" he looked at me "w-what" "in your dreams what are we doing" I looked at him "well" he looked down "we are…I'm sorry" he said "it was wrong of me to dream that" "oh" I said "that's what we were doing" I laid my head on his leg "you're disgusted aren't you" he said "I know I'm a pervert for dreaming that" "is that all we do?" I said thinking that's all he wanted "ha well?" "NO! you help me write songs and I help you cook…it's like we're a couple" "do we look happy?" I asked "or are we pretending" I sat up and he leaned over and kissed me softly then his hands were under my shirt and I tensed up "Dylan?" "I don't want to lead you on b-b-but I can't do this" I said "please don't be mad" he laid down and pulled me down so that I was laying on his chest "Dylan as long as you're happy I could care less what happens between us" Jake laid beside me and we fell asleep there in that spot. We must of slept for a few hours cause I heard Jake winning "you got to go boy?" I asked laying down some paper for him and he went on it "ha good boy" I picked him us as the door opened "hey Matts driving now so could you guys leave so I can sleep?" Charlie said "what is that smell" "no clue" I said running out with the puppy and James laughing.