So I have no idea if the followers get notified that I updated Chapter 1 however I wanted to remind you I did...just in case.
Beckett couldn't sleep well that night she kept having nightmares of her mother's murder. It wasn't really the words that Alexis said that were bothering her but the implications they brought. Kate wasn't the only one who had trouble sleeping, Alexis hadn't closed an eye. The guilt she was feeling from hurting Detective Beckett with her words was too much. Knowing she wouldn't be able to sleep, she got up, left her room and decided to start an assignment early.
That's how Kate found Alexis, with her head buried in a book. She looked like she was concentrating way too much for she didn't even look up. Kate went over to the coffee machine and asked her," Want some coffee?"
Just as Kate thought, Alexis hadn't noticed her presence earlier on as she jumped slightly off her place as she heard the voice. "Oh Detective Beckett, hey...yes please." Alexis looked down obviously still ashamed by what she said earlier. "Listen...eeh I wanted to apologise for what I said earlier. I was way out of line, it's just... I...I lost it."
"Alexis, I forgive you."
"But you shouldn't." Alexis shouted in a loud whisper.
"Why?" Kate questioned her.
"Because... I've been so mad at you recently, avoiding you, ignoring you." She said as she was on the verge of breaking into tears. "You hurt my dad, and he just loves you so much. I can't even remember the last time he looked at someone like he's looked at you. For years it's been me and gran and you come in and he's so blindsided by you that he's willing to jump in front of bullet for you." Alexis waited while she took a moment to look at Beckett's eyes which were now looking broken and continued. "You make him so happy and sometimes people take the people who really care for them for granted and I can't take seeing him broken hearted again, he doesn't deserve it." Alexis stopped as she felt out of breath, everything she said made her feel like she removed a heavy burden on her chest.
"Alexis, you're right I shouldn't forgive you because there is nothing to forgive. Everything you said you're right. I have hurt your dad, I pushed him away, I made him wait and I lied to him. But Alexis, I love him, I swear I do. Four years ago, when he came into my life he made it worthwhile again. He made missing my mom not so bad any more. And I was scared because all the people I truly care about and love end up passing through hell cause of me. And I'm so sorry I put you though all that too. I really am sorry Alexis." She said as she moved closer to where the younger girl was. She continued in a much more hushed tone, "I care about him, I care about all of you...I care about you Alexis and I promise I will find away to make it up to all of you, so you can forgive me too" she smiled as she looked deep through Alexis eyes.
Alexis just looked at her baffled as she tried to take in everything Kate just told her. She was simply stunned that the woman cared enough to give her an explanation and in all truth that meant everything to Alexis. She felt she no longer had the right to be mad. Detective Beckett had been through a lot in her life; her mother's death, helping her father, seeing all those crimes take place and talking to their families and she got shot. No wonder she had difficulty in admitting the matters of her heart, she had seen all the potential evil this world had to offer and yet she stayed strong with her head held high and battled through it all. She felt so much admiration for this woman and without even thinking about it Alexis just stood from the chair, grabbed Kate and hugged her tightly. "I forgive you, detective Beckett" she whispered in her ear as she let the tears that formed in her eyes go.
"It's Kate" she whispered back returning the hug even tighter. Kate didn't really know where the hug came from or the tears Alexis wept but something in Kate's heart made her flutter as she too felt a tear coming down her eyes. Kate couldn't really understand her actions or her thoughts from then on, she just kept feeling that mother instinct that she hadn't felt ever. That instinct told her to not let go and made her promise with herself that she's be here for that child. Secretly she hoped Alexis would one day see her more as a mother figure than just the woman her dad happened to be dating.
After a while Kate pulled back and said, "What do you say if I told you some of those fun stories from back in the day? "
Alexis laughed,"Can't wait. Should I get the popcorn?" she joked.
"As long as you don't tell your dad, I'm good with anything"
"Your secret is safe with me" Alexis winked.
They slept on the couch for a few hours after they talked that night. Kate was the first to wake up and as she tried not to wake Alexis from her sleep, made her way to the kitchen. She thought she'd surprise everyone with breakfast. After making herself some coffee, she began preparing breakfast. As she was gathering the ingredients a voice behind her asked, "Need any help?"
"Alexis you scared the crap out of me"
"Sorry but in all fairness you did scare me yesterday" she laughed.
"Fine, I'll give you that. Oh and you can start with making the pancakes. I'll make the bacon and eggs and if you want there's coffee, I just made the pot" she added.
"Thanks, now let's get started. There's nothing that says family like a good breakfast" she smiled.
Kate just looked at her and smiled as she thought, 'yeah that's what we are family.'
Okay so I know they forgave each other quickly...but I didn't want to linger on 'not being able to forgive her' I believe Kate really did have genuine reasons to have waited even if it did take 5 seasons and it bothered me but still if Castle forgave her, why shouldn't Alexis? (sorry my thoughts...I should just post everything on tumblr huh? )
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