A/N: I am so sorry for the delay. I don't care how many times I rewrote this it never seemed to come out just the way I wanted it. Anyways I hope everyone likes it.

Olivia skillfully guided Casey through the precinct and out into the crowded New York streets. With the same ease she had used inside the building she used to weave both of them through the people until she was able to hail a cab.

Olivia opened the door and ushered Casey into the cab before following in behind her. She quickly gave the cabbie an address in upper Manhattan before turning her attention to the light red head that still held her heart.

"Two years ago I came home after working a horrific child molestation case to find all your stuff packed and gone. A simple note of I'm sorry I can't do this anymore. I would have thought that after five years together I deserved better. Damn it Casey we were, are still married."

"I'm sorry Liv. I didn't know what else to do. I couldn't take it anymore."

Olivia raked her hand through her hair "Couldn't take what? Not working or being with me? Which one? Or was it both?"

Casey head shot around to face Olivia. How dare she think that? She loved her more than anything. Hell she still loved her. She wasn't sure what hurt more. Her leaving or her coming back and seeing the pain in Olivia's eyes.

"How dare you ask that? Jesus Liv, I loved you. Damn it I still do. I cry myself to sleep every night because I miss you so much. So don't you dare think I left you because I didn't love you? I left because it tore me up every day to see you go off and work the crimes I use to prosecute."

"Casey I told you I would transfer if it was a problem. All you had to do was tell me."

"Come on SVU is your life. I couldn't ask you to give that up."

"SVU was my life. You became my life when I fell in love with you. I would have done anything to make you happy."

"But at the cost of your happiness. I couldn't let you do that."

"If it meant I could come home to you every night I would have been happy."

"I know but in the end you would have hated it. You and I both know that."

Olivia stared at Casey. She knew she was right as much as she hated to admit it. SVU was her life. It was her way to help her mother whose rapist was never caught. No one ever got justice for her mother but she made sure the victims she dealt with received justice.

"Ma'am we're here." The cabbie said pulling her from her thoughts.

Olivia paid the cabbie and stepped out of the cab. She held her hand out to help Casey out of the cab.

Casey stepped out of the cab and looked around. Her heart sped up when she realized where she was. They were standing in front of the restaurant where Olivia took her on their first date. Where she told her she loved her. The restaurant where she proposed. Chez Rauels

"You remember?"

"Of course." Olivia said as she pulled Casey to her. "I have never forgotten anything about you or us."

Lunch went smoothly. Olivia was no longer taking snapping at Casey. She realized that leaving her hurt Casey as much as it had her. Even though Olivia was still extremely angry and hurt at what Casey had done she could stand to hurt the woman she loves.

"So where did you go for those two years?"

"My parents in Vermont."

"I called there. They swore to me they hadn't seen you. They said you called on a regular basis to let them know you were ok."

"I know. I was usually there when you called. I pleaded with mom and dad not to let you know I was there."

"Why?"

"Because I know you. You would have come after me and when you learned that I didn't want to come back you would have left NYPD and made a life for us there."

"Damn straight I would have."

"I lost my career Liv. It would not have been fair to ask you to surrender yours."

Olivia ran her fingers through her hair. A habit she seems to have developed lately.

"Are you staying?"

"I don't know. The DA has given me a second chance. If I win this case the DA said he may have a spot for me. Probably not with SVU though."

"That's good" Olivia said as she motioned for the waiter to bring the check.

Olivia reached for her wallet and pulled out her MasterCard handing it to the waiter without bothering to look at the tab. The waiter quietly took it from her and disappeared to close out the bill. The waiter returned and Olivia quickly signed the bill.

"You ready?" Olivia asked as she stood.

"I guess" Casey answered not really wanting to leave yet. She was afraid that when they left the restaurant that she would never see Olivia again.

"Where are you staying?" Olivia asked as they walked out into the cool April breeze.

"Little motel over near the 16."

Olivia turned to face Casey. "Don't. Stay at our house."

"I don't want to inconvenience you and besides I thought you might hate me"

Olivia turned Casey to face her "Casey you could never inconvenience me. I am hurt right now but I have never and will never hate you. Casey, I know things will never be like they were before but…"

"But what?" Casey asked as hope filled her.

"I want you to come back home. Please." Olivia pleaded

"What if I don't get a job with the DA? What then?"

"Damn it woman I don't care what you do. Work at McDonalds for all I care. Let's start that family we tried for before you left. Be a stay at home mother. Don't you get Casey I want you home and I am willing to do whatever it takes to get you there. Just tell me what you want."

Casey pulled Olivia to her and did the one thing she had wanted to do since she saw her sitting at her desk. She kissed her. Well one of the things she wanted to do. The other they would wind up in jail for. Something neither of them could afford to happen.

"Can I take that as a yes Counselor?" Olivia asked when the need for air became a necessity.

"Yes detective you can and I will spend the rest of our life together making this up too."

"Oh I count on it and you can start as soon as we get home."