Chapter 2

Easily Forgiven

I lay in Lilly's bed still thinking about what had happened. It still didn't go through to me in what I did… or why I even decided on doing it.

I groaned.

Oh God.

I just kissed and fondled with Lilly.

What. The. Fuck.

I closed my eyes and gripped on the sheets under me. I pursed my lips, trying to forget about what happened, but it just happened! How do I forget about something that happened just a few seconds ago?

I cursed under my breath and opened my eyes, staring straight up at the ceiling.

I hope she's not mad at me.

I got up from my laying position and lifted my hands to my face, pressing my finger tips against my forehead.

"Ugh!" I groaned and got up from my bed. I dropped my hands to my sides.

I think I better go home now.

I got out of Lilly's room and went downstairs to the living room. There I found Tyler sitting on the couch, eating a bag of chips. I sighed and walked straight to the kitchen where Lilly was standing in front of the stove looking dazed and confused. I blame myself for making her look like that, I hate making her look like that. Argh!

I stood at the entrance of the kitchen and cleared my throat.

"I'm going to go now. I'll see you later. Bye." I quickly said and Lilly simply nodded, not looking back once.

I felt my chest slightly ache.

Damn, I did screw it up between us.

I turned on my heel and quickly got out of the room to the front door. As soon as I reached the front door, I bolted from there and ran off toward the direction of my house.

Why did I have to kiss her? Why did I have to touch her like that? She's going to think I'm a pervert, but most of all, why didn't she pull away? When she had the chance to, she didn't make any move at all. If she didn't want it then why is it that she didn't even tell me to stop? She looked like she wanted it as much as I wanted it, but that's just going too far.

"God Miley, can you get any more stupid?" I shouted at myself and shook my head as I continued to run.

I wonder how everything will go for the rest of the week. Ugh, I can imagine how she'll be if we ever do talk for the rest of the week.

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I was at home, getting ready for school. For the rest of the weekend, I tried my hardest to ignore Lilly and it actually worked. I mean, well, it's not a good thing since she never even attempted to call me or come over to the house. It made me sad, I'll admit that, but it did give me more time to think about what happened.

I started to think about it more often and the way I thought about it made me think that I was a lesbian, but I couldn't be one since I like boys so it must mean I'm bisexual right?

I shook my head. I'm in my room, putting on a short denim skirt and a light pink shirt. I brushed my brown hair back and sighed.

Am I really bisexual? But then I don't even know if I like Lilly, I just kissed her and I liked it.

I scrunched my face.

Ew damn it. I need to control my hormones. Seriously. I think I'll just go by school and see how everything will roll. I sighed and set my brush aside. I looked at my dresser and found a picture of me and Lilly showing silly faces.

Lilly was hugging me from behind with her face scrunched and mouth opened with my usual shocked yet weird look.

I wonder if we'll ever do that again without feeling awkward.

I shook my head and tried to clear my mind. I looked at myself in the mirror and licked my lips, checking my make up, and straightened my outfit. I looked at my brown curls which hung off the side of my face.

I wish I had Lilly's soft blonde hair. So smooth and smells so good. She just so beautiful, natural blonde at that.

I smacked my forehead. Here I go thinking about Lilly. Damn it, I can't think about her like that, I have school for goodness sake. Then again, how can I help it? I made the biggest move on her and I don't even know if that was her first kiss! Oh gosh I'm such a bad person. I shook my head.

"She's just so cute though." I find myself saying out loud as I glimpsed at the photo of she and myself once again.

I let out a deep breath, feeling slightly frustrated and confused. There, I heard banging coming from my door.

"Miley hurry up we need to get to school!" Jackson's voice came from the opposite end of my room.

"I'm coming just relax!" I shouted at him and tore my gaze from the picture, heading for my bed for my book bag. I slipped it on and walked toward the door. As soon as I opened it, I found Jackson there with wide eyes.

"Let's go." I rolled my eyes and he nodded.

"Yeah, hey can I ask you a question?" He said and I glanced at him, showing that I was irritated.

"What?"

"What was that about?" He asked.

I furrowed my brows and he sighed.

"You're acting even meaner than usual. I know something is up, so what's wrong?" Jackson asked as he ran his hand through his blond hair.

"Nothing is wrong I'm just irritated, you know time of the month." I lied and got out of my room, walking past him.

I made it down the stairs when I hear Jackson sigh. What is up with him now? He acts like he cares and yet he doesn't. What a weirdo.

I shook my head. So many problems, such little time. Her locker is right next to mines, I wonder if she'll be there.

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When I reached school, everything seemed to be normal. People said hi to me, I talked to a few people, but I haven't seen Oliver or Lilly anywhere. I smiled as I walked down the hall to my locker. I turned in the hall and spotted my locker, but there I saw Oliver and Lilly talking. I froze and found myself staring at Lilly's petite figure.

Lilly looked beautiful as ever with. She wore plaid khaki Capri shorts and a black tank top. Her natural blonde hair was up in a high pony tail exposing her creamy soft neck. Her eyes sparkled, but the only difference in her look was the smile on her face. The smile on her face wasn't there, but in replace was a worried look and confused look.

I blame myself for making her look that way. Damn it, it's my entire fault for making that horrendous move on her.

I chewed on my lower lip as I finally felt my legs move forward. I dropped my head and stared at the ground as I approached my locker.

"Hello." I muttered under my breath as I tried my best not to look at Lilly or Oliver.

"Hi Miley." Oliver's bright voice had said.

"Hi…" Lilly said with her tone matching my own.

My breath caught my throat. I couldn't bear it. I need to know how Lilly is feeling right now. I lifted my head and found Lilly staring straight at me.

"Lilly, I-" I started, but she shook her head, expressing a half smile.

"I have to go, I'll see you later Miles." She pursed her lips as she whipped around, turning the other way. Her hair flew past my face and there I could smell her sweet scent.

Strawberry.

I sighed and turned to my locker, turning the knob to open it. Now it was just me and Oliver, but I didn't know what to say to Oliver. He probably noticed the awkwardness between me and Lilly, gosh, I usually walk Lilly to her first period, oh man, so hard to bear it.

"What's up Miley?" Oliver casually asked as he leaned against Lilly's locker.

"Nothing much, why?" I casually asked while opening my side bag and pulling out a few textbooks.

I looked in side and found a tablet, Lilly's tablet, for our second period class. Ugh, now I actually have to face her and talk to her about it. The tablet, not it, as in what happened-why am I explaining this to myself? Oh gosh Miley, you're going crazy over here. I huffed.

I shook my head and glanced up at Oliver who stood there with a blank look on his face.

"So?" He asked and I tilted my head while furrowing my brows.

"What?" I said and held my textbooks in my arms.

"What's up with you and Lilly? Have another fall out again?" He said as he eyed the textbooks in my arms.

I shrugged. "Nothing happened between me and Lilly. I don't know why she's like this today." I lied and turned back to my locker to put my things inside. I slammed my locker shut and closed my bag as I started walking again. This time Oliver started to follow me.

"What do you want?" I asked while I stopped walking to look at him.

"I just want to know what happened, gosh. I remember the last time you and Lilly fought, I put handcuffs on you guys and you guys got even madder. If you want something good to co-" He started, but I held my finger up to shut him up.

"We didn't fight! Gosh Oliver, is that what you think Lilly and I do all the time? She's just feeling different okay? So am I, so drop it!" I hissed and spun around and walked hastily down the hallway feeling eyes burning into me as I passed a few people who saw my little blowout.

I shook my head. Damn it, why did I have to kiss her?

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It came second period and I sat next to Lilly in that period. The class was dimly lit and I came early so Lilly wasn't here yet. I pulled my bag, which was still on my shoulder onto my lap and took out Lilly's notebook.

Today we were going to watch a movie and it was obvious that we were going to take notes so I put the notebook on my table, flipped it to a clear page, and took a pencil from my bag. I dropped my bag to the side and glanced at the door making sure she wasn't here yet. I looked back at the table and started to write a little message in her notebook.

I'm sorry Lilly, forgive me? I didn't mean to do that to you or hurt you…

I wrote in her notebook and closed it as I slid it to the desk next to me. I looked up from the desk and saw Lilly come into the class. She had her head down as she approached the seat next to me. She dropped her bag and I turned away from her, feeling as if she needed to be alone for a second.

The late bell for second period finally rang and the teacher was moving the TV to the front of the class.

I sighed. At least I had something to distract me right?

"Class, in your notebooks take the front page of notes, only. We're watching a movie about the galaxy." The teacher said as he turned on the TV, setting the DVD up.

I reached for my bag and took out my tablet, placing it on my table, and opened it to a clear page. I yawned and took my pencil from the table.

I wonder if Lilly read my note yet.

I looked from the corner of my eyes, but her tablet was still closed. I groaned in frustration and looked up at the TV as the movie started playing.

Halfway though the movie I already finished my notes. It didn't matter with what we had to write or anything, it's not like he's going to read any of the notes. I was tapping my pencil against my notebook as I watched the TV. I felt something on my tablet move and I looked down seeing writing on the left side of the notebook which looked like Lilly's handwriting.

I narrowed my eyes to the writing and read it.

Why though?

I bit my lip and glanced at her she had her eyes glued to the TV, but as soon as she realized I was looking at her, she quickly glanced at me and smiled.

I looked back down on the paper and scribbled next to her hand writing.

I wanted to do an experiment. Stupid of me, I know, but I'm sorry if I hurt you. Do you hate me?

I pushed my tablet closer to Lilly and she reached over to write under my writing.

No, of course not, I was just shocked. I could never hate you Miley, I love you too much to hate you. I hate to ask, but does it mean you're gay or something?

Lilly wrote and pulled her hand back. I read the words over and over again. It was kind of like it went through my head. I thought about it all weekend and nothing really went through me. I thought I was a lesbian, but I like guys. I might just be bi, but I don't know yet… so I'm just curious? Yeah, I think so.

Just as I was about to write down my answer, the bell rang for lunch and I closed my notebook. The lights turned on and I got up from my seat to put my things back in my bag.

"So?" Lilly questioned as she tapped my shoulder

I glanced at her and smiled

"I don't know. I'll let you ponder about it for now." I rolled my eyes. "I'm straight okay? I didn't know what came over me… but sorry." I replied softly as a few people passed by me.

"Sorry if it seemed like I was avoiding you this weekend and morning and stuff. It just confused me… and it was awkward." Her cheeks were now burning a bright red color.

Oh how cute.

I bit my lip hard and shook my head.

Damn it Miley, when will you stop thinking these nasty thoughts about Lilly? I growled at myself.

"I understand. I hate to lose you as a friend over something like that." I smiled and put my bag on my shoulder.

"Yep, anyway, let's go eat, I'm hungry." Lilly smiled and I nodded.

"Okay, but lets get it through Oliver's thick head that we're not fighting? It's irritating."

Lilly giggled. "Okay, okay. Oliver was getting in my business earlier today too. He kinda realized I was down this morning and asked me, but I didn't answer him. When you came I was scared so I left. Sorry again about that." She frowned.

Aw! She's so sorry about this morning. I smiled and hooked my arm with hers, reassuring her that I'm okay with how she reacted.

"I'm okay… I just hope nothing changes between us just because I did those things to you."

"Don't worry Miley it was a one time thing." She said and there we started off out of the class room.

A/N Okay so I decided to make this a full story. I sort of got all these ideas for this fic… so I hope you'll like it :D J

I'm just letting you know this is sort of different for me. I've never written a full fic on this sort of particular ship and yeah… I'm seriously surprised at the response I have with this fic. :D Glad most of you like it and as you can see I'm just continuing this fic lol.

Thanks again for reading and reviewing haha.