I was lost in a place that only I was able to belong to and I was able to relive my attempt at ending my life. Oddly enough, it as peaceful and I didn't want to leave this place at all, wherever it was.
I actually belonged and it was okay to be alone. Alone. Henry.
Oh God, Henry. What had I done?
I heard a noise that sounded foreign to me at first, but then became a familiar sound. The beeping noise was one of the most obnoxious things in the world, but I was only happy that it was invented during the time when Henry was in the hospital. I felt myself slowly wake up and that beeping noise kept getting louder as I was getting my senses back.
The heart monitor kept speeding up faster and faster and I only had one person on my mind.
"Henry." I said groggily, but as clearly as I could manage. My eyes were moving around the room to find a glimpse of him, but I didn't see him. I tried to sit up, but I felt a soft touch press on my chest to get me to lie back down.
"Emma, Henry's with your parents. I didn't think it was appropriate to expose him to anymore events that could harm him further." Regina said softly and even though she had removed her hand, I still felt it there.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I was alive when I shouldn't be. Great, I couldn't even kill myself the right way. I hurt Henry.
"I'm sorry." I slurred and did my best as I opened my eyees to focus on Regina.
"You should be, Miss Swan. This was your fault." She snapped.
"Not responsible." I responded to the best of my ability even though I could barely think let alone utter a word coherently.
"The moment you came into Henry's life was only the beginning of countless problems that you were going to cause. I knew that he was safer in my care than in yours. After all, why else would you give him up like that?"
I was a kid myself, how the hell was I going to take care of him? I wanted to yell that at Regina, but I just stayed quiet so I could listen.
"I don't know what caused you to want to take your life, but I can assure you that you won't be getting anywhere near Henry again. So when you recover, I expect you to pack your bags and leave Storybrooke. You can easily be replaced even if you are their Savior."
I'm not anybody's Savior, I'm just me. She was right because I was easily replaceable. She did replace me as Henry's mom because she was there for him for everything.
She stood up from her chair, "Before you leave though, I want you to make a public announcement to everyone in Storybrooke that you're leaving."
"No Regina, I won't."
She looked down at me and gripped onto my jaw tightly, but not enough to hurt. "That wasn't a request." She released her grip and part of me wanted her to not go away.
"You should've left me."
Before she walked out, she said, "You're right, I should have. I am The Evil Queen after all."
Henry was my kid even if I had to give him up. I thought that Regina and I were becoming friends. I didn't want to lose Henry because he gave me a purpose.