Disclaimer I own nothing. I just took the characters to play.

Bella's POV

Beep…..beep….beep… What the hell is that? Beep….beep….beep

"Ugh." I groaned.

"Bella?" what is Charlie doing here? Where am I? Oh my God! "JAKE!!!"

"Bells. It's your dad. Can you open your eyes? You are in the hospital. Jacob has passed away. You fainted when you heard the news. That was 2 days ago." Charlie stated.

"Ch..Dad? Why are you here? Where is Mom? Where is the pack?" I was confused.

"You mom is with Billy planning out Jake's funeral. The pack is with them. The doctors told them it was best if you rested. What happened? Did Jake say something to hurt you? The doctor said that you were under too much stress and your brain shut down to heal itself?" Charlie continued.

"Dad. Jake asked me to marry him right before he passed. He was actually planning on asking me that night. Why was he taken from me? What did he ever do to deserve that fate?" I started sobbing. I looked down and saw the ring on my finger. I swear I will never remove this ring. Baby I am going to miss you so much. How do I go on and not see your handsome face every day.

"Bells…..Sweetheart, it was an accident. Your mother feels that it would be best if after the funeral you came to stay with me. I know NYC is going to seem like a big place compared to here but we feel that you could use all the distractions you can get. I called NYU, because it is mid semester you will have to wait until January to start. I have taken care of that semester's tuition. We want to do everything to help you heal. We love you Bells."

"Dad, can I think about it? My life is here in La Push. Besides Jake I have mom, Billy, and the pack. I can't just up and leave…" I was interrupted.

"Well Isabella, it's nice to see you awake. I am sorry for your loss. My name is Dr. Marcus. I need to exam you. If you are doing well, you will be released. Now are you feeling nauseous?"

"No."

"Do you have a headache?"

"A very small one. Not anything to worry about."

"That's good. A headache is completely normal after a fainting episode. Now can you follow the light with your eyes?"

I followed his instructions. "Very good Isabella."

"Call me Bella please. No one uses my full name. So what do say doc? Can I get out of this joint?

"Bella. Yes, I think you are well enough to be discharged. I want you to take it easy for the next couple of days. Now, your father mentioned the possibility of you moving to NYC?" Dr. Marcus questioned.

"We're still not sure. We are going to do whatever it takes to help her through losing her fiancé." Charlie stated to the doctor.

"Well if you do decide to move, this is the card of a well known therapist. He will be able to help you sort out your emotions. I have a feeling you have developed post traumatic stress. He is the son of a good friend of mine. He is at the top of his field." Dr. Marcus handed me the card.

I looked at the card.

Dr. Jasper H. Whitlock

1771 w. 25th st.

New York, New York 32661

(758)555-6142

"Thank you." I said quietly.

"Okay. Just give me a moment to process you paperwork and you'll be on your way." Dr. Marcus said.

I laid my head back and closed my eyes just praying for this nightmare to go away.

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Mom and Phil decided that it would be best to have Jake's funeral graveside. As we all pulled up to the cemetery, I realized that I was shaking.

"Isabella? Honey? Are you okay?" My mother asked.

"Mom…. How can I say goodbye to Jake? I feel like a part of my soul has died?"

"I know that you are going to have a rough time dealing with this loss. I cannot even begin to imagine the kind of pain that you are in but, when my grandfather died he left me his Gibson guitar. I am going to give it to you. I know that you don't know how to play but maybe you can get some use out of it? I used to practice for hours until my fingers were bleeding after Pop-pop died. I would lose myself to the music. Maybe it can bring you the same things. Just remember whatever you need we are here for."

"Thanks Mom. For everything." I said as I exited the car. We walked slowly to the grave side service and took our seats up front. I sat with Billy on one side and my mother on the other. The rest of the pack was seated behind us.

Pastor Weber began his service. For the most part I was numb. I listened to Billy, my mother, and Sam gave speeches on Jake's life and how great of a man he was. When it was my turn to speak I walked to the podium and began

"Jacob Black, my fiancé, was the most caring and selfless person I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. I met Jacob my first day in La Push moments after I arrived. He said to me, "I think this piece of driftwood has been reserved for you." I chuckled at the memory.

"I don't have to give you the same speech as the others because the truth is you already know. I will tell you what he told me moments before he passed. He said, "I want you to be happy. I need you to promise me that you will live. I don't want you to become a shell of the woman that I adore. I want you to move on and I want you to love again. I think the same can be said for all of you. He loved each of you in his own way. The loved each member of the pack as his brother or sister. Please let that stay in your hearts. Jake wanted us all to keep his memory alive but he also wanted us to let go of the hurt. Please honor his wishes." I let a tear fall from my eyes and roll down my cheek.

I stepped down from the podium and walked over to his casket. "Baby. I will always love you. In my heart you will always be my fiancé. I promised in my hospital room that I will never take your ring off. You will always have a place in my heart Jake." I leaned down and pressed a kiss to the casket before turning and walking to my seat as Amazing grace began to play from the small jukebox off to the side

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

T'was Grace that taught...
my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear...
the hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares...
we have already come.
T'was Grace that brought us safe thus far...
and Grace will lead us home.

The Lord has promised good to me...
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be...
as long as life endures.

When we've been here ten thousand years...
bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise...
then when we've first begun.

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

Everyone began to file out of the mourning area but I couldn't bring myself to leave. I watched as the lowered my only love into the earth. Everywhere I looked I was reminded of Jake. Then I heard his beautiful voice, "Baby. Please be happy."I knew right then what I had to do.

I was moving to New York.

Please review. This is my first fan fiction. I never thought of myself as a writer. I also need some suggestions for songs that Bella could write to ease her pain.

Next up leaving for New York.