Chapter One: Once Again

As soon as Raven entered her room, she couldn't help but let out a muffled sob. After a week of torturous events in Tokyo, after a day of continuous giggles and exchange of 'I love you's' she finally let the tears out. She hastily wiped the tears and glared at the teddy bear resting on the headboard of her bed. She walked furiously towards it and grabbed it by its neck. Her hands were quivering in anger and she was thankful she still has control of her powers. She bit her lip and ripped the teddy bear limb from limb using her powers. She placed it in a box labelled 'trash' before marching towards her drawer. She opened it and grabbed every jewellery he had given her, and threw it in the box. Not caring on how expensive or how meaningful it is. She scoffed at herself.

Meaningful?

She doubted it was ever so meaningful to him.

She doubted that she, the demon daughter, was ever so meaningful to the Boy Wonder.

A knock on the door made her stop her musings. She inwardly sighed, wiped the tears and pulled her hood up. She levitated towards the door and opened it, revealing half of her face. "Yes Cyborg?" Her usual monotone was there, and for that fact she was glad. The last thing she wanted is an overprotective brother making her spill what's wrong.

"Well, I just want to say that Robin and Starfire will make dinner. They want to celebrate their relationship here as well." She inwardly cringed. That is not what she expected. "I can't come. I have to rest and meditate." She reasoned and hoped that her excuse is enough for him to leave.

Cyborg frowned. "Well, we could save you some food if you want." Raven shook her head. "No need." She didn't wait for his reply and closed the door. She stayed there a few moments before returning to her doing. After the jewelleries, she went to her closet and took out a few jackets, dress and a gown she wore on their first date. She gritted her teeth. "Get a grip moron." She scolded herself. "Now is not the time to reminiscence good times." She sneered as she took the clothing in her arms and also threw it in the box. She examined her room for any more things that would possibly remind her of what they had shared. When she found none, she took a packaging tape from her utility drawer and sealed the box shut.

She settled it aside and decided to take a cold shower. She grabbed her towel but before she could step into the shower room, another knock is heard at her door.

She glared at the door, hard. What on earth could they possibly want now? She settled her towel on her bed and walk towards the door. "What is it now?" Beast boy, who was cowering in fear replied meekly, "The others are wondering where you are." Raven raised an eyebrow under her hood. "I'm obviously in my room, didn't Cyborg tell you that?" She retorted. Beast boy rubbed his nape nervously, "Well, he did told us but Starfire wanted me to get you." Starfire, Starfire, Starfire. That name kept on ringing in her mind this day. "I said no to Cyborg and you won't be any different. Tell her sorry to disappoint." She spat with venom before slamming the door on his face.

Raven levitated her towel and entered the shower room. She quickly removed her clothing and took a cold shower. Minutes later, she was out of the shower and in her black satin nightgown. She settled her towel in a hanger stand and grabbed a book to take her mind off of the couple.

A knock accompanied by "Friend Raven, it is I, Starfire." interrupted her, again. Raven's grip on the book tightened and she resisted the temptation to throw the book on the alien's pretty face. She turned around towards the door. "Yes Starfire?" She couldn't help but let the venom out of her voice. Starfire smiled ear to ear and said, "Please accompany us! We are celebrating for Robin and I are together now!" Raven is absolutely seething in anger. "No." She was about to close the door but Starfire held it open. "Please friend Raven, you are my best friend and-"

"I said NO!"

Raven's power lashed out. Causing a telepathic wave and hitting Starfire unintentionally.

Raven stared at the girl, pity and hatred swarming inside her gut. Instead of apologizing, she decided to keep her mouth shut. People need to learn after all. She closed the door as soon as she felt the others coming. She doesn't need any lecture right now. She just wants to be alone. Raven stomped towards her bed and plumped down on it. Everything is a mess; her room, her head—

She felt stupid and pathetic.

Oh what a dishonor to the great Trigon.

She breathes deeply and sat up in her famous lotus position. Azarath, Metrion, Zinthos. Again and again she repeated this chant. She needed to relax, to find peace, to have control.

*knock, knock, knock*

Raven's eyes snapped open. She grabbed the book she was supposed to read and threw it at the door. "What?! What is so important, that you guys have to knock at my door every ten minutes?!" She yelled as she stomped towards the door. Once she opened her door, she found herself face to face with the Robin himself. "Just what I need." Her voice was full of sarcasm, making Robin glare at her. "Raven, what you did is very—"

"Very what?" She hissed. "Uncalled for? It wouldn't have happened if your girlfriend only knows the word 'no'." She added with fury and hatred. Robin pinched the bridge of his nose. "Raven, why are you acting like this? Do you have any problem?" He asked in frustration. "You know exactly why I am acting this way." She exclaimed, "But if your pathetic little mind doesn't work, then let me remind you." She added while pointing a finger at him. "We love each other, we made love to each other and we have a relationship. It may be a secret but that isn't an excuse to go smooching Starfire!" She said.

Robin stared at her guiltily. "I know." He whispered. Raven stared at him in disbelief. "I know? That's it? That's all you can say?" Raven breathe out. "I know what we did; I know what I said to you. And I'm sorry." He removed his mask. Raven's eye widen as soon as she met his eyes. Guilt and sadness was there. "I'm sorry for not choosing you. I'm sorry because I can't." Raven's lips quivered in hurt, what is he saying? "Why not me? Why her?" She asked desperately. Robin inhaled deeply and said, "I love you, but I'm scared of what others would think."

Raven's mouth was gaping. "Why?"

Her leader's silence was all she need. She didn't want to hear it. She didn't want him to answer it.

She's had enough heartbreak for one day.

She was about to close the door when Robin answered her. "Starfire's easy to be with, Raven. And I need light in my life. We are both dark and I don't think it would work. I have to choose her." His voice quivered with every word he said.

Raven felt her grip tightened to stop the tears forming in her eyes. "But you do love me right?" she asked. Robin stared at her sadly.

Her heart shattered.

"No."

Raven fell on her knees and cried. Robin tried to comfort her, but she whispered weakly, "Go." He didn't argue and left quickly. Raven shut the door and leaned into it.

A lie.

Everything was a lie, their love, their laughs, everything. She walk to her bed and cried herself to sleep. Apparently, sleep is the only thing that can bring her solace anymore.

The old lady frowned at the image in the crystal ball. She sighed as the image of a crying girl appears. "Him..." She started with a sad tone. "What a stubborn mole head." She raised her head to stare at the sky. "This is where everything will begin— once again." She finished as she shook her head. "It is over. It is too late." She looked up to see a floating figure passed by.

"This— this has always been the plan, is it not?" she asked.

Silence—that has always been the answer.

She wouldn't want any other.

Once again— the mistake has been made; the words have been spoken; the heart has been broken. History has awakened and nothing can stop it now.

The story— once again, begins.

AN: Chapter one :) Okay, I told you guys I will update less but since it's raining and there are class suspensions here in my country, I decided to write. And no, I am still using my iPad, and it is hard. -_-

Next, for those who read "New Beginnings" I will try to upload the next chapter tomorrow and can you guys please leave a review? I'm really anxious on how I write stories. :( I just want to improve.

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EDITED 5/14/15