Meredith yawned loudly as she came into work on her very first days an intern she had hardly gotten any sleep over the past few nights. His face had kept her up the, it was the face of a broken man. He looked so sad, her heart yearned for the man she had fallen so deeply in love with so long ago. No, Meredith thought forcefully she would not go there again he hurt her it was his fault. He deserved to be unhappy.

What the hell was he doing in Seattle anyways? This was her turf he wasn't allowed here. Meredith scoffed at herself of course he was allowed here but it was a little more then screwed up that he had showed up in her hometown. Did he want her back? No she seriously doubted that one. He had made his choice when he screwed her dorm mate. Tears stung Meredith's eyes but she blinked them away she wouldn't cry over him not again she had already wasted to many tears on him. Part of her was panicking did he know? She had been harboring a secret their secret for the past two years, she wasn't ready to let anyone know and she sure as hell wasn't ready to share that secret not with him.

Meredith sighed as she pulled her scrubs over head why did he always consume her thoughts even after two damn years?

"Meredith?" came his soft voice Meredith closed her eyes praying to god it was just a figment of her imagination and not him actually being there. But this is Meredith were talking about, so of course it was the actual Derek.

"Meredith."

She looked in the opposite direction his voice was coming and engaged a bubbly looking blond women in conversation.

"Hey, I'm Meredith."

The women next to her looked over and smiled brightly. "Hey, Meredith I'm Izzie, Izzie Stevens. It's really nice to meet you."

"You too." Meredith said in a voice that Derek recognized as her fake cheery voice.

"Um, Meredith I think that guy is staring at you."

"Hm, really?", Meredith didn't bother looking over her shoulder she knew Izzie was talking about.

"Yeah he's cute too, very cute."

"And a complete ass.", with that Meredith got up from her seat and headed out the door.

It was around lunch time before Derek finally caught Meredith alone after she had escaped into an stairwell for a little privacy. Derek say her go in with a pained look on her face. He fallowed her immediately. She was sitting on the bottom stair curled up with her knees pulled to her chest and face buried in her arms. He could hear quiet little sobs coming from her.

"Mer," he whispered sitting down next to her. "Meredith talk to me please."

"Go away Derek, please just leave me the hell alone."

Derek sighed. "No."

She looked up at him anger burning in her blue-green eyes. "Fine." She spat, "I'll leave." She stood up and had her hand on the door handle before he grabbed her arm in a gentle grasp and pulled her away toward him. They looked at each other faces inches part both breathing heavily.

"Why are you doing this?" Meredith asked her voice was weak, broken. The women standing in front of him was so different from the one that he had once knew. The confidence that once seemed to come to her so effortlessly was gone and replaced with insecurity. And what had caused this change? Derek had to wonder, was it him? Of course it was Derek had done what no one before him had done before he had broken the unbreakable.

"Why am I doing what Meredith?"

Meredith pulled away out of his arms as far as the little stairwell would allow. "You knew I was coming to Seattle for my residency. Why did you come here then? You hurt me so badly Derek and all I asked was that you leave me the hell alone and you can't even do that!! You can screw my room mate while I'm away visiting my sick mother but you can't leave me the hell alone."

"Mer, I told you I was drunk and really messed up it was a mistake the worst of my life and she was going on and on about some guy you were talking to in your science class and I just-"

"You just thought ha! Seven years means nothing to her maybe she'll cheat on me with that science guy so I should screw her over before she gets the chance."

"No I-I have no idea what to think. All I know is that I love you and I haven't been happy for one second that we've been apart."

"Derek, Please just leave."

"I can't do that."

"Why? Don't you think that you owe me that much?"

"I was going to ask you to marry me Meredith."

Meredith looked away and laughed bitterly. "I can one up you on that one Derek. I was pregnant." Meredith's hand flew to her mouth in disbelieve. Had she really just told Derek that they had a kid together? She wasn't planning on telling him ever, never in a million years her daughter was hers and hers alone Derek gave up any rights he had to her when he decided to bed one of her closest friends.

"Did you… did you keep it?"

"Her I kept her."

"What's her name?"

"Madeline Nicole Shepherd."

"So she's mine?" He asked in awe as he sat down his eyes were huge in disbelief.

"Of course she's yours damn it! I wasn't the one whoring around!"

"Of course I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that, it's just a lot to process. Why didn't you tell me?"

Meredith sighed her defenses were slowly falling down. "You hurt me and I was terrified of what was happening to me. I still had two years left until I graduated. I didn't have time to take care of a child."

Derek stood up and grabbed Meredith's face gently with his large hands pulling her to him his pressed their foreheads together and closed his eyes, Meredith made no attempt to pull away, not even when he pressed his lips firmly to hers. Instead she parted her lips and fell into a kiss that was both familiar and new. Soon she was lost in the kiss in the back of her mind she could feel her back being pressed against the wall but it just pushed her to kiss him harder. That is until the door slammed open and a strangled oh my god came from the doorway Derek immediately released Meredith so see who had interrupted their intense kiss.

It was Izzie the blond intern from earlier today who had described him as very cute. "I am so sorry. Ugh but Bailey is sort of headed this way…"

Some how through the fog Meredith managed to nod and then Izzie was gone.

"This." She pointed between the two of them. "This was a mistake and it won't happen again."

"Can I see her?"

Meredith looked away, "I'm not sure that's the best idea right now."

"Well, what does she look like?"

Meredith sighed and pulled a picture out that was taken on Madeline's first birthday. Madeline was sitting in Meredith's lap smiling at her mother. It was clear that the little girl was his from the dark brown curls to the light blue eyes. But she looked much more like her mother than anything. Madeline was by far the most beautiful little girl that Derek had ever seen in his life.

"She's beautiful." He looked up but Meredith was no longer there. Derek placed the picture carefully in his front coat pocket and left the stairwell off to do charts or whatever.

Madeline Nicole

"Lexie! I'm home and I need to talk to you NOW!" Meredith yelled throwing her stuff down on the coffee table.

"Mama!" Madeline walked unsteadily into the living room. She had started walking a day before her first birthday.

Meredith picked Madeline up and put her on her hip. "Hey baby girl."

"How was your first day Meredith?" Lexie asked.

Meredith rolled her eyes. "Horrible."

Lexie laughed, "What they work you to hard?"

Meredith shook her head. "That's not the problem I loved the working part it's so much better than the classroom."

"I'm so jealous of you Mer."

"Funny, I'm a working single mother, and you're a partying college student. Last time you had sex was last night, me on the other hand the closest I've gotten to sex in the past seven months is making out with Derek in a stairwell."

"What the hell? The Derek?" Lexie asked stopping in the middle of cutting up spaghetti for Madeline.

Meredith made a face, put Maddie in her highchair and pulled the plate away from Lexie and started to feed her.

"Yeah, the Derek took an internship with Seattle Grace and cornered me in the stairwell."

"So he just kissed you? Just like that?" Lexie asked.

Meredith shook her head. "First I let slip about Madeline. After going off on him for being here and cheating on me."

"And? What did he say?"

Meredith looked at Maddie and kissed her forehead. "He wants to see her."

"And what did you say?"

"That I didn't think it was the best idea."

"and then what?"

"He asked me why, he kissed me and then we were interrupted by one of the other interns."

"No freaking way!"

Meredith sighed. "Yes freaking way."

"Are you okay?"

Meredith shook her head. "Not really. I saw him the other night when I was at Joe's and it was like everything came rushing back. And then he kissed me and I don't know,"

"So what are you going to do?", Lexie asked.

For what seemed like the millionth time that day Meredith frowned. "I have no freaking idea."

A/N: I hope you enjoyed this chapter =) There will be more up later. =) I'm in the middle of moving so I'll work on it as much as possible. As for my other stories I'm also working on them but I've had writers block for the past couple of months. =(

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