Is this the end?

Will we finally be able to fall asleep?

Under the white snow frozen forever?

Together?

The kiss was so heart breaking. All his emotions were in it of hurt, sadness, and betrayal.

I started to need air so I tried to break the kiss but couldn't but then Kanda did he looked into my eyes.

"Allen…." He said breathlessly.

He then kissed me again.

I then pulled back and took Kanda's face in my hands and looked him in the eyes.

And said "Kanda, you're not thinking right don't do this."

"Why?" He looked at me with suck an expression it took my breath away.

"Because you loved Alma."

"I do, but for once I'm asking for something I can have, once just once no more or no less. "

Then he kissed me once again.

Then I don't know what came over me, I kissed him back and put my arms around his neck.

Then a soft wind blew and Kanda opened his palms that held the remaining ashes of Alma, they then blew up word to the sky.

Your finally free…

Kanda then pulled me on his lap, straddling him.

The rest is a blur all mixed together.

I remember that the rest of our clothes were taken off from after our battle with the Earl.

And more kissing… lots more and I can still remember the way it felt tasted and how it made me feel.

The kisses we slow and passionate and they tasted like a mint cinnamon. The way they made me feel in side, I just can't describe it.

The lower part of my stomach felt like a tight coil was winding and it was burning hot.

Then I felt some penetration and the heat intensified so much more.

"Ah….." I said while arching my back because of a blinding pleasure I felt.

Then Kanda pushed me down on my back and then I felt him push in.

It was uncomfortable at first then as I got use to it after a minute.

The all I could feel was Kanda… his body against mine.

So hot, our breath mingled together form kiss after kiss and thrust after thrust I felt closer to that place that is a utopia for us.

"Ah…. God!"

Then I felt that hot coil in my stomach released!

Then Kanda also released.

Then we just laded down on the floor and caught our breath.

It was then silence came as we calmed down. It was silent for some moments.

Then I broke the silence.

"Hey, Kanda?"

"Hmmm?"

"I was wondering will you come back to the order or will you leave and become a fallen?"

"I don't know."

"Oh I see."

So than the silence returned and I listen to what the earth was doing the wind and sand moving together and yet apart at the same time.

Then in the wind I heard this:

Lacrimosa dies illa

Qua resurget ex favilla

Judicandus homo reus

Huic ergo parce, Deus

Pie Jesu Domine

Lala's lullaby.

And I don't know why but I started to cry.

Kanda noticed this and asked "What's wrong are you regretting…..?"

"No I'm rembering what happened here before.

I said while trying to stop the tears from coming out but they just came out harder.

Kanda than took me into his embrace like I had done to him earlier.

"Why…. Are we not suppose to trust the order…. Why do they keep hiding things and telling us not to worry about it….. what are the dark secrets there not telling us!"

"I don't know. "

Then he just held me while I cried and then somewhere in there I fell asleep finally exhausted.

Ok that's finally over!

I know I could have done a better job but remember I'm a newbie at writing lemons!

And it was embarrassing too!

So tell 'em how much I screw up or something!

Also I might write final fantasy next or devil may cry so if your fans of those shoot me up and I might do one of' em!

Also message me anytime I will reply… I literally wait for a review so I can respond or a pm so I can talk to someone yeah I know I'm desperate!

BI BI TILL NEXT TIME!