(Re)Finding our own path
Chapter 1 - July, 11 2013
Previously
The sexy dean closed the door behind her and re-entered the kitchen.
«Uh... Want to stay here for dinner?» she asked her sister, just to try not to think about how badly she wanted to stay with Tina right at that moment.
«Sure, it sounds like a plan» Kit replied. «I'm going to the bathroom, I'll be right back»
The woman made her way across the hallway and approaching the bathroom, which was right in front of the bedroom, she noticed something strange in the room. «What the fu —», she whispered and then raised her voice «What the fuck happened in here!?» she stated, looking at the books on the floor.
Bette heard her sister. «Shit!»
Busted.
That's what Bette thought as she heard her sister.
She quickly ran forward her and tried to look as calm as she could.
«What?»
«Can you explain this mess, baby sis?»
Dang! She couldn't say she just had sex with Tina.
Awesome and mind-blowing sex.
She almost left herself daydreaming at that thought and Kit noticed it.
She composed herself, «Huh, well... I couldn't find one of my paperworks, I was sure I left it in here, on the bed. I freaked out... yes, I freaked out and I threw the books all over the floor»
«And why was Tina here?» Kit frowned. «In the bedroom»
She scratched her neck, nervously. «Actually, she was helping me find it»
«Listen, baby girl. I know you... You're my sister and I know when something is going on with you. So stop bullshit me and tell me what's going on»
Bette didn't say anything. She looked down, then gazed at her.
Kit sighed. «I don't know, excactly, what's happening... but I truly hope you know what you're doing»
«Don't worry, Kit. I have everything under control.»
«Yeh, yeh... keep saying to yourself that, baby girl.»
The two sisters had dinner together, that night.
The thought of Tina kept roaming around her head. And the fact tha she couldn't be with her, be truly with her, as they always dreamt about, killed her.
In the middle of the night, the brunette woke up in her own bed.
Someone was sleeping in the spot, next to her.
But she wasn't -that- one.
Jodie came up at the house later that night. But They didn't have sex.
Bette wasn't up to it.
She did not want to have meaningless and insignificant sex.
She wanted to make love. And she never did it with Jodie.
The only one she did it with was that beautiful and awesome hazel-eyed woman, who was now sleeping at her own place.
They were so distant, yet so close.
No matter how large the distant is, as long as two hearts belong together.
And their hearts were beating unanimously.
The next morning, Tina was up already enjoying her little girl's company.
«Good morning, sweet pea. Are you hungry?»
They were in the living room, sitting at the coffee table.
«Should we make pancakes? Let me go check and see what we have» the blonde mommy said as she stood up. «Okay, I'll go look»
«Uh-oh, we're out of milk!»
Tina stood there, in front of the fridge. Then closed the door and suggested something she never imagined she could do. «I know what we should do. What if we call mama B and see if she wants to have breakfast with us»
She couldn't believe what she just asked. «Hmm, Does that sound like a good idea? What do you think?»
Of course it's not a good idea.
She was probably at home, with her 'girlfriend'.
On the other hand Bette was, indeed, at home with her 'girlfriend'.
«I would love to go for breakfast with you and angie, but, um...» she said, as she saw Jodie approaching the kitchen.
The desire to say 'yes' was kicking her in the guts.
«Oh, yeah. Of course» the blonde realized her idea was, actually, a bad idea.
«Tina, wait- Uh, I think we're goint to pass on breakfast»
She just pretented that Tina invited both her and Jodie.
Tina understood that, but... 'We?' Seriously?
«Yeah, it's a really sweet idea. Um... but, yeah. Give Angie a kiss for me.»
«Okay. Bye.»
The artist could read her labial.
«Don't you want to go out for breakfast? I'm kind of in the mood to go out. »
«I'm not in the mood to go out» Bette replied. «You know what? I would really just like to sit in my garden and read my newspaper. But, if you want to go to the planet, and... do another podcast, then that would be-»
«Oh Bette, I was just joking and I said I was sorry... are you going to go on punishing me forever?»
«I'm sorry. I'm just... I'm just stressed.»
«Do you want to go and see some art?»
She would've liked to do so, yes. But the piece of art she has in mind was the beautiful blonde she just talked with on the phone a few minutes before.
«Or maybe we could go to the beach? Drive up the coast to zuma.»
«I think I just... I just need a little Sunday alone time, that's all...» and if could've been with Tina, it would have been way better. «Just to get ready for the week. I mean, apart from everything else, I have to appear before the board to tell them what i'm going to do about the Justin Donovan 'Little gun-To-The-Head escapade.'»
«What are you going to tell them?»
«I really don't know.»
«Tell them your judgment was ciouded because professor Lerner is an incredibly hot fuck.» Jodie winked and walked away.
The brunette just left out a weak chuckle. Feeling a little guilty.
But she couldn't help it, actually, her mind was ciouded because of the 'incredibily hot fuck' she had the day before. With Tina.
«I'm so glad you guys met me. I was feeling really lonely» Tina admitted. She was spending some time with Alice, Shane and Angie at the Planet.
«Oh, my God, that's why i called shane» Alice replied.
«Well, ladies, that's what friends are for, what can i say?» Shande added. «But we're still going to Phyllis's tonight, right?»
Tina affirmed, «Yeah. Isn't bette going to be there?»
«Is that- I thought you guys were getting along lately?» Alice asked, a little puzzled.
«Yeah. Yeah. It's not a problem» Tina stated.
Of course it's not a problem. And they got 'really' along lately.
They started to talk about Tasha, until Tina's phone rang.
It was Bette.
Who was having second thoughts about breakfast.
Tina aswered it, «Yep». Avoiding to say her name.
«Do you still want to meet at the planet?» Bette asked, with a grin.
«I'm here already...» Trying to act with nonchalance. She gazed at her friends and added, «With Alice and Shane»
«Well, I really...» Bette left out a sigh «I really wanna see you, Tina»
'Hello? There's Alice. She's a big mouth. We can't be seen together.'
«I can't right now» she said, even if she wanted to accept the invitation, so badly.
«Well, what about tonight? I don't-I don't have any plans.»
«I'm going to your boss's house.»
The conversation is suddenly interrupted by her little girl, «Puppieees»
«Those aren't fucking puppies» Alice uttered.
The Planet was having a 'Rats-Attack' and sadly, Tina had to hang up the phone, saying she would've called her back.
Bette sighed, thinking about what to do as she picked up her newspaper and made her way to the garden.
She spent the whole afternoon at home.
Sitting in the pool chair.
Reading, and thinking.
She, actually, couldn't read. Her thoughts distracted her.
She kept staring at the same page for several minutes.
Until she heard her phone buzzing.
She kept the phone and read the text message.
'I hope you can make it and meet me at your bosses house, tonight. T'
Tina didn't get any reply from Bette.
She was afraid she was having second thoughts and that maybe she was starting to regret it. After all, they were having an affair.
The blonde was almost shocked about that.
She, once, was in Jodie's shoes.
She never seen this coming. But, it felt right.
Everything always felt right with Bette.
Shane, Alice and she were at the party.
Tina was close to accept the fact that Bette couldn't be there.
But, as soon as she thought that... she saw the familiar beauty.
There she was.
Beautiful, sexy.
How can it be possible to look so amazing?
Tina gazed at her, smiled and slowly approached her.
Their smiles. And their eyes, full of love and passion.
«Hey.»
«Hi.»
«Wild party, huh?» Bette said, trying to break the ice.
Tina turned around, seeing Phyllis dancing with a woman.
She chuckled.
Bette found it so damn sexy.
Tina then said: «I thought you weret doing anything tonight»
«I wasn't.»
«Where's jodi? Is she here?»
«Um, no, she didn't want to do a work thing, and Phyllis is work for us.»
«Right.»
Tina bit her lips. They were nervous.
Then Bette asked something she didn't aspect.
But she couldn't deny she was hoping it to happen.
«Tina? Do you want to get out of here?»
Tina just smirked giving her a look that said 'I know what you mean' and followed the awesome brunette that was just a few steps ahead.
Shane and Alice, whom was still at the party, noticed Tina's absence.
«Where's Tina?»
«I don't know, maybe she scored!»
She surely did, Alice!
Without knowing how, the two of them found themselves at Tina's.
Bette had never been there but she felt comfortable, like if she was automatically familiar with everything that belonged to Tina.
Tina invided her to sit at the table.
«Tea?»
«Sounds nice» Bette smiled.
She never felt so nervous.
As strange it may sounds, Bette Porter was really-really nervous.
But, in a good way. It felt like a teenager who fell in love for the first time and doesn't know what to do.
The brunette, slowly left her finger play with the plate in front of her, on the table. Then quickly pulled her hand back, as she saw Tina approaching.
«You can't stay too long, I have to be on set at seven in the morning»
«Yeah, I know. I know» Bette said.
Her voice low. You could barely hear her.
The brunette looked down at her hands, that were placed on the table, while the executive producer filled up their cups with some tea.
Then the dean managed to break the silence. «So this thing's really going through? I mean Jenny's going to be directing a movie?»
She just picked out the first thing that passed through her mind.
Or at least, the first thing that didn't have anything to do with Tina and her.
«Apparently» that was Tina's short response.
She knew Bette, indeed, had something else in her mind.
As their eyes finally met, Tina gave her a further glance, just to look deeper in her eyes and let her know she was willing to know what she wanted to say.
Bette finally got the message.
And shyly admitted: «I don't know what to do»
«You're in love with Jodie, right?» she asked. She already knew the answer, but she just wanted to hear it coming from Bette's mouth.
«I adore her. And I respect and admire her but...»
«But what?» Tina said, even if she knew, she was strictly astonished.
Bette said just one sentence.
In just one sentence she had been finally able to admit her deep love to her.
«It doesn't really compare.»
They sat there...
Looking into each other's eyes.
For several seconds, they seemed to be an eternity.
Both of them left themselves go deep inside their glances.
And before they knew, they found their lips meet.
They didn't even know how they arrived nearby the bed.
They sat down.
They didn't undressed yet.
They just kept looking into one another's eyes.
They came back to a place they always belonged, that they missed for so long.
They were contemplating their reunion.
Their come back.
They.
Both of them almost lost their hopes some time ago.
Never thinking about those little words: 'us' or 'they' or 'we' to ever come back, again.
Instead, there they were. They.
Then finally, a charge of passion ran over them. They kissed again. This time the kiss was more urgent, filled with hunger. But they kept go slowing. Enjoying the time together, knowing that neither of them would've gone anywhere. Their love was there. With them.
They removed their clothes slowly and even more slowly they layed down on the bed.
Between one kiss and another, they couldn't help but smile.
Bette placed herself on top of her and left her tongue play with Tina's.
Her hands roaming throught their hair.
She licked the blonde upper lip, looked into her eyes and smiled.
She smiled back. Warm and tender smiles.
They were making love. Not sex. Not meaningfull and pointless sex. Love.
And those smiles, those smiles was indicating they were finally back to their shared path. No words needed.
Bette slow went down, letting her mouth to roam around Tina's chest and abdomen. With one hand she caressed her left brest. Then returned to face and kiss her. «I missed you»
They rolled over and Tina almost replicated Bette's movement she did right before to her. She left a trail of kisses over her abdomen. Grabbed both her breasts making Bette moan lightly.
Then the two of them sat up. Sitting in front of one another. With Tina right on top of Bette's lap.
Their legs crossed.
Their center pressing against each other's.
In a short while both of them entered one another with two fingers.
They started to rock their bodies as they increased the thrust and the speed.
Tina left out a loud moan, leaning her head back.
Bette silently gasped and leaned her forehead in Tina's shoulder blade.
They reached their climax together. Like they always had.
With their bodies still trembling they kissed one more time and left themselves fall back into the bed.
They fell asleep wrapped in each other's arms.
It was 4.03 when Bette woke up.
She gently stirred, causing Tina to move her arm that was around the brunette's waist. Bette grabbed it back. Not wanting to break the physical contact between them.
Tina kissed her shoulder, as Bette turned her head to whisper to her «I'm gonna go now» then Tina gave her a little peck on the cheek.
They both sat up. With Bette turning her back to Tina.
And as Bette silently, and without letting Tina to see her, mouthed 'I love you', Tina said something that brought her to the reality.
«Jodie will be so devastated.»
«She can't find out.»
«Well, I'm certainly not gonna tell her.»
They started a conversation, meanwhile Bette was dressing up.
«I'm sorry, I just... I just need more time. That's all.»
«I'm not pushing you. I don't even know what I want.»
«I know. I just think... we both need to take the time to just figure out what we want. That's all. You know, what's right for us. How to do the right thing.»
«You need to take the time to figure out what's right for you. And I need to take the time to figure out what's right for me.»
Both smiled, «Right».
Actually, both of them already knew what was right.
Everything that just happened felt absolutely and in any kind of way, right.
Well, actually, as long as Jodie's concerned it was not.
But for the two of them, it was.
Before she left, Bette leaned back and gave her another, slow, deep and lovely kiss.
It spoke for itself. It said: 'This is right'.