Quinn leans heavily against the doorframe of Rachel's bedroom, watching with as the love of her life sleeps restlessly after crying herself to sleep in Quinn's arms. She has no idea to handle this situation other than to just be there for Rachel. What do you do when your girlfriends husband dies? The selfish part of her knew that this meant Rachel was all hers now but honestly this wasn't how she wanted Rachel.
"Quinn?" comes the quiet whimper from the bed. She jumps to attention and crawls in the bed rubbing Rachel's back in a comforting manner.
"I'm right here baby." Quinn says softly as she brushes the hair away from Rachel's face and lightly kissing her on the cheek.
The tears that had only and hour ago stopped start up again so Quinn lays down next to Rachel and wipes them away with her thumbs. "Rachel, Everything is going to be okay. You are going to be okay."
Rachel shakes her head and swallows hard when she speaks again her voice is hoarse from all the crying. "It's not... I'm not worried about me. I know I'm going to be okay because I have you. It's just..." She trails off closing her eyes tight to fight off the overwhelming wave of sadness.
"He's never going to be the same Quinn. Niko's just this innocent child who worships his father this is going to break his heart. I can't have that... He's my baby boy Quinn I cannot loose my sweet baby."
Quinn pulls Rachel to her hugging the concerned mother tightly to her chest. She should have known this was the case. Rachel had always been adamant in keeping Niko's innocence intact she wanted him to stay a child for as long as she possibly could and this could very well destroy everything. She was right Niko would never be the same once Rachel told him his dad was dead.
"What am I supposed to say to him? How do I tell my baby his daddy isn't ever coming home?"
Quinn rubbed her back soothingly while she thought. "You just have to sit him down and explain Rach. Niko is good kid and it will be hard in the beginning but he's got you and I will be here every step of the way."
Rachel's brow crinkles in confusion. "Why are you so good to me?" she ask abruptly.
Quinn pulls back to look her in the eyes. "What do you mean? I love you Rachel you know that."
The other woman sat up and pushed her long brown hair out of her eyes shaking her head back and forth quickly. "I don't deserve you, I'm a terrible girlfriend. Three years we've been together, three years Quinn we should be living together or engaged or something but no I couldn't leave a man whose been cheating on me since before we even got married. You are so good to me, so good to my son and I just keep hurting you over and over again. I am so sorry."
Quinn took Rachel's hands in her own pulling them to her lips to kiss her knuckles. She couldn't help the low sad chuckle that fell from her lips. Rachel truly amazed her, here she was having just lost her husband and she's worried about Quinn. When all this time Quinn has been worried that she didn't deserve Rachel.
"Rachel, I am so lucky to have you. In whatever way I can. For two years I threw slushies in your face and insulted you every chance I got. Never did I think I would earn your friendship much less your love. I don't deserve you and you have nothing to be sorry for baby."
Rachel laughed quietly and whipped her cheeks dry. "We're a mess." She said.
Quinn couldn't help but agree because they were in fact a mess. "But we're a mess together."
Brown eyes met hazel and Rachel sighed lightly. "Sing to me?"
"And what would you like me to sing to you Broadway?" Rachel smiled at the nickname Quinn had begun to use when they first became friends and shrugged.
"Whatever comes to your mind."
Quinn nodded and started to think of the perfect song to sing to Rachel. She didn't sing much only when Rachel asked it of her Quinn's creative outlet had shifted from music to art and photography since high school.
"I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, "I'll never let you go"
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone"
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight
She pulled Rachel to her and laid them back.
"Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound
Somewhere in the distance she heard the traffic outside, horns honking, doors slamming.
Don't you dare look out your window darling
Everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold on to this lullaby
Even when the music's gone
Gone
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound"
"I love your voice." Rachel whispered exhaustion heavy in her voice.
"I love you."
A/N: This was a little hard to write for me so I hope it's okay! Next chapter we explore Niko's reaction to his father's death as well as seeing the Berry/Hudson/Hummel families. Also Maybe a little tabloid drama seeing as Rachel is in fact a very famous broadway star in the process of transitioning to the big screen. Leave me some feed back maybe some suggestions on which way to go with the rest of this story. I'm thinking four parts at the most.