I walked in their house, and I felt like a ghost like there was someone else in my body and I was looking in. Like Melanie was with Wanderer in The Host. The said something but I wasn't listening. I walked upstairs and turned on the light in the spare room a.k.a. My room. I stood there and took it all in. The walls were painted blue and my bed spread had lots of different blues and greens. I opened my dresser and found pajamas that covered up most of my body and walked into the bathroom. I froze when I saw my reflection. It was worse than I thought. There were hickeys everywhere and I had scratches an nail marks on my skin from struggling so much. I burst into tears and threw the glass vase at the mirror. I started to cry harder and kept gasping for breath. I held on to the sink to keep me from falling on the ground and on the broken glass.

I breathed in and out trying to calm myself down, and with out looking at my reflection again I took off the little clothing I had left and stepped into the shower.

I grabbed the wash cloth and started to scrub every part of my body. I could still feel his touch and his saliva. I scrubbed until my body was red then I moved onto my hair.

After about 30 minutes I stepped out and got changed into black over sized shirt and blue Eeyore pants and walked back into the bedroom. I took my Ipod off the charger, turned off the light and crawled into bed and let the song crushed by Lesley Roy fill my head and I started to cry. I punched my pillow a lot and even screamed into it. Somewhere in between screaming and crying I fell asleep.

I walked along the paved road with my hands shoved in my jean pockets. I didn't want to go home. Not yet. I sat on a bench and started to think of what I could do. I could go to Jacobs house. Nah hes probably with Nessie and the Cullens hunting. I wrapped my sweatshirt around my body as the cold fall wind came.

I felt someones hands on my waist and opened my mouth to scream but it was stiffled with his hands.

"Shutup," He said and dragged me into the woods.

I sat up painting and moved my hair that was plastered to my sweaty head. There was a knock on the door and someone came in. It was Renesmee. She was tall and had brown hair the same length as mine. She walked over and sat on the side of my bed. I felt Someone else sitting by my feet. Probably Jacob. We didn't say anything. I closed my eyes trying to stop the tears from coming.

"Esme's making dinner," She whispered finally. " Do you want me to bring you some?" I wanted to say yes but couldn't remember how to speak and my head felt too heavy to move. So we sat there in silence. I felt Jacob and her both get up and a few minutes later the door closed.

I Sat up and ignored my body screaming at me to stop, and walked over to the window sill and opened it. The cold autumn breeze filled the room, I climbed out and held on to the ends of the window. My heart beat sped up and I closed my eyes.

I sighed and climbed back inside I closed the window and turned around. Alec was standing there, with a blank expression and with a plate of food that didn't look appetizing. He set the food down on my bed and turned around and walked out.

I walked over to the food and threw it at the door. God I was so weak. Ugh. I sat on my bed and felt tears go down my face. I looked at the alarm clock it was midnight. I closed my eyes. I have school tomorrow. I got up and looked at my self in the mirror again. Makeup defiantly wont cover this up. The door opened and Rosalie came in and gave me a hug. Yes you read that right Rosalie gave me a hug. I tried to push her off not liking human touch at the moment. She released me and smiled.

"Don't worry I will take care of everything,"