Chapter Two-Regret and a Confession

Instead of going down to breakfast after waking Len up, I walked quickly to my room and closed the door. Leaning against it, I slowly slid to the floor hiding my face in my hands. I had seen the pain flash in Len's eyes at my suddenly cold behavior and I felt horrible. The poor boy probably thought I hated him now and he probably hated himself. I had been so surprised that Len had been talking and moaning in his sleep that I hadn't even been sure how to react, but what had surprised me the most was the fact that Len had been moaning MY name.

I've always had a small suspicion Len was gay, but at the same time I was never sure. I guess the thought occurred to me on his first day of school when he turned down five popular girls who had asked him out. The rumors spread quickly and it seemed every girl that asked him out was turned down. I never heard what his reason was for turning them down, but I know I felt a small amount of relief every time he turned someone down.

I had a crush of my own on Len but I never had the nerve to tell him. I think a small part of me was afraid of being rejected by him, so I made up stupid excuses as to why I couldn't ask him out. Reasons like we were both guys, I was a few years older than him, we lived together and the fact we were practically family, even though we weren't. The fact was I was scared of being rejected by him and then made fun of by anyone or worst of all, Len himself. I never dreamed he had a crush on me and I was flattered.

There no doubt in my mind Len had crawled back into bed and was probably crying. As much as I wanted to go and confront him and make everything right, I knew I was probably the last person Len wanted to see right now. I sighed and I stood up and as I quickly checked my reflection in the mirror, in that moment deciding I would talk to Len later after school and try to make everything right. It was high time I confessed and since I now knew Len had feelings for me, I hoped I wouldn't be rejected. However there was no doubt I had messed up big time with Len and I could only hope he would hear me out and hopefully forgive me.

I grabbed my bag off my chair as I walked downstairs to the kitchen and joined everyone for breakfast. I heard Rin ask me where Len was and I shrugged. "I think he went back to sleep," I said as I bit into a piece of toast. Rin sighed and muttered under her breath as she left the kitchen no doubt to go drag her twin out of bed. There was a small commotion upstairs and I ate quickly trying to get out of the house before Len came downstairs. I wasn't so lucky because as soon as I finished eating, Rin came back dragging a non-resisting Len.

As soon as I saw Len, I quickly excused myself from the table and left the room and in my hurry, I ran into Meiko who glared at me but said nothing as she made her way to the kitchen. I sighed knowing I got off easy and quickly put on my shoes and I left before anyone said anything. I started walking to school and I thought about Len and how I would make things right if he would even let me talk to him.

I hadn't gotten too far when I heard someone yell my name. I stopped and turned around and I saw Miku coming my way with Rin and Len in tow. I fought the urge to go on without them but I knew Miku and Rin would just get mad and yell at me so I waited them to catch up. "Good morning," I greeted all three of them and I noticed Len flinched slightly and looked at the ground. I saw Rin give him a strange look before looking at me clearly puzzled, but she said nothing.

"Why don't you two go on ahead and have that girl talk I heard you guys mention this morning," I said hoping they would get the hint and go on head without us. Rin gave me a confused look before she glanced at Len.

"That's right," she said. "Thanks for reminding me Kaito, I almost forgot when I had to go wake Len up. Miku you have to listen to this." Miku looked confused but she didn't say anything and went along with it. Miku and Rin started walking, talking at high speed, leaving me alone with Len.

"Len I-,"I started to say but Len raised a hand cutting me off.

"I understand," he said not even looking at me, letting his arm fall limply to his side. "You hate me and are disgusted. I got that part loud and clear." I heard his voice waver at his last sentence and I was afraid he was going to start crying. "I won't bother you again." He started to walk away and I reached out and grabbed his arm and I pinned him against one of the nearby trees.

"Let me finish," I said and I felt him flinch as he looked away from me. I sighed softly and I tipped his chin up so I could see his face. "Please look at me Len," I pleaded softly, hoping he would look at me. He looked up and I saw tears starting to gather in his eyes. I felt my heart break a little more and I used my thumb to gently wipe his tears away. "I don't hate you Len. I know I acted like it this morning, but you caught me off guard." I paused realizing I had Len's full attention. "I've never said anything before because I was afraid of being rejected by you, but this morning confirmed something. The truth is this Len." I paused and took a breath before I continued. "I love you Len and I have for a very, very long time," I whispered softly as I leaned down and kissed him gently.