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A lot of people have been asking me why I killed off Finn. I know you guys hate me for it but I do have my reasons. You may not be able to see it but they're there.
Before I let the reading start (sorry about this by the way) I'd like to say that this fic won't be very long. I don't know exactly how many chapters it'll be but I basically have it planned out and I know that it won't take long to end.
So that's it! That's all I have to say! Enjoy!
As we begin walking down the path, a heavy and awkward silence fills the air around us. I don't know what to say to the man whose proposal I had turned down? How do I initiate conversation with him?
Wait a minute! He asked to speak to me! Why doesn't he initiate the conversation?
As if reading my mind, out of the corner of my mind, I see Logan turn slightly towards me and open his mouth before closing it quickly. It seems like he doesn't know how to bring up the subject either. I take comfort in the fact that I'm not the only one.
Deciding to put us both out of our misery, I speak the first words.
"So how have you been?" As soon as the words are out of my mouth, I regret ever having uttered them in the first place. The man just lost his best friend and here I am asking him how he's been. Way to go Gilmore! "I mean, how have you been all things considered?" I try to rectify the mistake I've made.
"I was fine until all this happened; I mean… it all happened so suddenly… we didn't even have time…" Logan seems to be struggling with his words and I can't really blame him. I myself suddenly feel a little wetness in my eyes that wasn't there previously.
Through all the commotion I realize that I don't even know how it happened. I feel bizarre asking him about it now so I figure I'll find out at a later time.
"The woman you were with before, that's his sister?" I ask trying to make conversation.
"Yeah, Jenny" he says and I could see the hint of a smile. He's probably just remembering something about good ol' Finn. "She's just like him. Full of life and energy. The little one is his niece Katherine. She loves her uncle Finn. She can't fully comprehend the fact that he's gone and it's breaking my heart"
I remember now that the little girl's face seemed neutral, undecided. Like she didn't know how she should be feeling and was confused being around a bunch of mourning adults.
"Logan, give her some time. I still can't comprehend it and I'm twenty-five. I can't imagine what she's feeling"
Logan stays silent for a moment and I find myself wondering if I offended him. Suddenly he stops dead in his tracks, lets out a tired sigh, and turns to look my straight in the eye.
"Look Rory, I don't want to yell, I don't want to fight. I just want to put all the bad stuff behind us" When he says the bad stuff I can't help but wonder what he's referring to and I don't hesitate to ask.
"I'm sorry but, what exactly is it you're trying to say?"
"You know the proposal? The way you stomped on my heart at graduation?" Apparently he doesn't see the looks of anger on my face because he continues. "I'd just rather leave all those bad memories in the past."
"I'm sorry but didn't you do some stomping of your own?" I ask frustrated. I admit that I hurt Logan but it wasn't entirely my fault. He played a bigger role in this break up than he thinks he did.
"What stomping did I do Rory? Is asking the love of your life to marry you considered stomping?" Okay, I really want to stop saying the word stomping.
"No, but how about how you just walked away from me? It seemed as if you were just throwing away three years of our lives! Did they mean that little to you?" I'm fuming now.
"Rory don't you get it? I wanted to have a life with you! I wanted to have the house with the white picket fence and the kids and hell, even the dog fit nicely into the picture! But you said no! You said no and you broke me!" He's practically yelling at me now and I can see the hurt in his eyes. I can guarantee you that he can see the hurt in mine too.
"Logan I did want to marry you! I just didn't want to jump into something I wasn't quite ready for yet. I needed time to see where my life was heading. You were asking me to pick up and move to the other side of the country! You wanted me to leave behind my family and friends! You were asking me to come with you when I had absolutely no idea what was in store for me! I'm sorry I hurt you, I really am. But I just wasn't ready"
After months of carrying this on my shoulders, the weight has finally been lifted. It's amazing how relieved I now feel after having ranted a little. I doubt Logan feels the same way though. And that thought is confirmed when I look into his eyes. They're so cold.
"You know what Rory? Just leave okay. I don't want to talk to you right now" he says and I've never resented him more than I do at this moment.
As I walk back towards the doors we came out of, I try to control the tears. I don't want them to fall. Although to be perfectly honest if there were one time where it would be okay to cry it'd be now. But if I started crying at this moment, I know that'd be for all the wrong reasons.
So there it is, the next chapter! It wasn't too long but I feel like I ended on the right note (feel free to let me know if you disagree).
Before I let you guys click the button and review (take the hint) I just want to let everyone know that this chapter is really my opinion on the Rory-Logan break up. I feel like they both did damage to the other and although Rory might have done more, Logan wasn't exactly innocent.
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