Hysteria
A/N:: I want to thank every single one of you that reviewed, added me to your favorites and/or story alert. It means the world to me knowing that you guy are enjoying this story. I was going to head on to the next chapter but realized that it would be best if Edward had his say. Also there are some links up on my bio page to give you visuals of Bella and Edward's houses. I'll also be adding some pictures of the wardrobe considering that clothes are often hard to depict perfectly. And at the end of each chapter I'll let you know the name of each song and band I quoted in here. So the first part of chapter one...Bella's pov; her ring tone is 'Hysteria' by Muse, and then during he club scene the two songs I included were MIA's 'Paper Planes' and Kanye West's 'Love Lockdown'. Thanks for reading and please, please review.
Summary:: See first chapter.
Disclaimer:: I don't own anything Twilight.
()()()()()()()()()()()()()()()()()
Edward's POV
"Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon"
My head shot up at the sound of my phone ringing from some unknown place. It was muffled –as if something was covering it- but then again I had never been one to be a heavy sleeper. I groaned as the sun light poured into my eyes through a blue haze. It didn't register at first, the blue rays, the splitting head ache, the warmth next to me on the bed. It didn't register until I heard a sigh and felt the bed shift slightly. I blinked a few times to adjust to the brightness of the room when I realized that I was not in my room. Instead of the earth tones that were present in my room I was surrounded by blues and beige. I turned over to see what or who was next to.
"Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon"
I cringed as my phone began ringing again at the same time I took sight of her that morning. Her hair, her gorgeous mahogany hair was in a disarray of curls, her skin, her pale ivory soft skin was tangled in the sheets, and her face, her beautiful godsend face was buried in her pillow shielding it from my sight. I didn't have to see her face to remember how she looked. I might have been drunk the previous night, but I distinctly remember what she looked like. I smiled as the memories came flooding back to me from last night; the way she danced to the music without a care in the world, the way her lips parted slightly as she first saw me, the way her laughter rang out in bells, the way her eyes beamed when she was talking about something passionate, the way she snorted when she was laughing to hard, the way she kissed me as if her whole life depended on it, the way she rode me…all fucking night long.
"Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon"
I sighed knowing she wouldn't wake up this time if she didn't before. Slowly I eased my way out of her blue sleigh bed and walked over to where my pants had been discarded on the floor. I slid by boxer briefs back on and fished my phone out of my back pocket. It read '3 missed calls from Carlisle'. I walked out to her kitchen and hit the call back button. It rang three times before he answered.
"Edward, so sorry. Did I wake you?" He heard Carlisle- his adoptive parent for over 18 years- say on the other line.
"No, no. I was in the bathroom," I lied not wanting to make him feel bad.
"Good. Listen there was a bad accident on 695…apparently there was a school trip to the aquarium and there are a lot of injured children on their way to the ER as we speak," He spoke quickly, "I'd hate to be a burden, but-"
"I'll be there in ten, Carlisle," I said quickly gathering all my stuff and dressing as fast as I could.
"Thanks, son. You make me proud," Carlisle said before hanging up.
I hit the end button on my Iphone and slid it back into my pocket and was about to leave when I heard her sigh again. It was barely audible but it was enough to bring me back to the situation at hand. I wasn't into the one night stands kind of deal. In fact very rarely did I go out and party, but it was a special occasion. My sister, Rosalie was turning twenty two and she was crushing on this guy she met at the mall. I was a little reluctant to go at first, but when I realized that it was Emmet- one of my fellow students at John Hopkins I immediately agreed. I didn't go with the intent on getting drunk or hooking up with anyone, but when I saw her…-I didn't even know her name-…I couldn't help myself.
I freaked for a second wondering if I should leave a note, my phone number, anything, but I decided not to. I had no idea what this girl was about. For all I knew this could have been a regular routine for her. With that I became very worried for my well being, and well…little Eddie's well being also. So I parted with the angel vowing to not get more involved then what I already was. Most likely we'd never see each other again.
I ran out the door as quickly as possible. The clock on her nightstand ready nine o'clock.
"That'll be twenty bucks," The cab driver said looking towards me. I nodded and went to reach inside my pocket for my wallet when I came up empty handed. I furrowed by brow trying to remember where it could be, and then realization dawned on me. I had left at her house. Shit. I glanced out the taxi to see my father waiting for me on the steps.
"One second, sir," I said holding a finger up while getting out of the cab. He started to protest but I gave him no mind. "Carlise...can you spare twenty dollars...I seemed to have left my wallet at home since I was in such a rush."
Carlisle smiled at met me at the end of the steps holding out a bill. I thanked him and then gave it to the cab driver who greedily accepted it. "Alright, son, lets get to work."
I loved working with children. I went to school; I went to work just for them. Working in the pediatric center of the hospital was very rewarding; the most rewarding position if anyone asked me. I left work with a healthy conscious, being able to rest assured knowing that we helped out those kids as best as we could. There were no fatalities or critical conditions. One boy named Tyler had a small amount of internal bleeding but we were able to fix that. He would be healthy and ready for baseball practice in no time. I smiled as I said good bye to Carlisle, shaking my head as he tried to apologize for disrupting my morning once again. It really was no problem. Saving lives was my calling, it was my duty, it was the reason I was placed on this earth.
I walked the three blocks back to my apartment to shower and change for my next task of the day, the more problematic task of the day. I could deal with the pressure of saving children's live. I didn't think I'd be able to deal with the woman whom I left without a word of goodbye no matter what my excuse was. I quickly showered and dressed in a pair of clean jeans and a button up shirt. I was about to exit my apartment when my phone started buzzing to life.
"But I think I like it
When you instant message me
With a promise
I can feel it
I can tell you're gonna be
Just like me"
"Rose," I questioned after hitting the accept button on my phone.
"Hey big bro," She spoke in that elegant voice of hers, "I was just wondering if you enjoyed yourself. It seemed like you had a hell of a time." Her voice was laced with a suggestive hint.
"It was alright, but you know that those kind of places are not really my scene," I replied choosing to ignore her tone.
"Riiiight," She said and I could almost see her rolling her eyes, "So you didn't leave with a pretty brunette during claiming that you were going to teach her how to play the violin?"
"I thought it was the piano?" I asked more so myself not realizing that I slipped up.
"Aha, gotcha," She said victoriously.
"Fine….fine, I enjoyed myself…I had a wonderful time," I admitted as I walked out the door and locked up behind me.
"I bet you did."
"What's that supposed to mean?" I was glaring at the air in font of me now as I began walking the short distance to her apartment complexes.
"Nothing. Are you with her now?" She asked as though she was distracted by something.
"No," I sighed, "Carlisle called me into work around nine."
"AhA!" She shouted again as I made another slip. I swore loudly. "You totally screwed her…but seriously…did you tell her goodbye?" I remained silent. I didn't need this from her. "Edward please tell me that you didn't leave without telling her goodbye or that you'd see her again." I cringed. "You're a douche bag."
"What's it matter to you?!"
"You were having fun last night…you never have fun anymore," she tried to reason.
"Bullshit," I grumbled, "I know how to have fun."
She chose to ignore my lie. "So what? Are you just going to hide under a rock again…bury yourself in school and work, ignore us all like you do so well?"
"I'm hurt, Rose," I said feigning heart ache…even though it was a little true. I loved my family. I was just a really busy person.
"You should be. You need a girlfriend to help you see what you are missing out on. You need to find love. You love working with children and yet you are repulsed by the idea of you settling down and having children of your own."
"Hey Rose," I said now extremely pissed off, "When I want relationship advice, I'll ask for it. I don't need this coming from someone who can't stay in a relationship more than a week," I replied a bit harshly and then hit the 'end' button. Sure I felt bad for talking that way to my baby sister. But she also needed to know when to shut the fuck up.
I was at her building now. I really didn't want to do this. I didn't know what to expect. Was she going to be outraged that I left without saying anything? Was she going to throw things, cause a scene? Was she going to cling to me and tell me that she had been so worried that she had lost me forever? Or was she going to be all nonchalant about this all as if it happened on a regular basis? I really didn't hope for the later for some reason. I groaned in frustration as I got into the elevator and hit the seventh floor button. I wish I could just 'accio' my wallet like they did in the Harry Potter novels. Stupid bloody wizards.
I was in front of her door in no time. I really felt like a pussy for being so nervous. I would explain the situation and then get in and out. In and out. I nodded and took a step closer frowning at the sound of muffled voices coming from inside her place. I wondered who was in there…whether they would be accepting of what happened, or rather totally pissed and want to throw things at me too. I sucked up all the masculinity in me and knocked on the door. I heard that it grew quiet all of a sudden and then cringed as I heard a gasp.
"Shit!" I looked up and realized that she had a peep hole which she had probably just looked through. I pinched the bridge of my nose in anxiety. Suddenly the other voices grew louder and clearer.
"What is it...who is it Bella?" A high pitched voice rang out in worry. There was another girl in there with her. Oh great. They were sure to throw things at him.
"Shit! Shit! Shit!" I sighed and dropped my head.
"What's wrong Bella?" Came another voice, a male voice. Suddenly my interest peaked. First her name was Bella…it had to be…unless it was Ella…or Stella. But she was in there with another guy. I felt a pang of jealousy for some reason.
"It's him…" So they defiantly knew who him was. They definitely knew what occurred last night. They defiantly knew he had left her that morning.
"Who's him?...OHHHH" I groaned. How much more was I going to have to endure? "Oh my god." I knocked four times with more force getting impatient. "What are you going to do?"
"I don't know….should I just ignore him?"
"I CAN HEAR YOU!" I shouted out to them losing more and more patience.
"Shit," She breathed again.
Shit is right.
"LOOK… I LEFT MY WALLET IN THERE," I paused, "I JUST NEED IT AND THEN I'LL LEAVE."
There was silence after that. I counted back from twenty when finally the door slowly opened. I didn't know what to expect. I remembered what she looked like. It wasn't that my image was so impaired last night that I mistakened a case of beauty because if anything I didn't realise just how beautiful she was. I felt my breath hitch in my throat as I looked down on her small frame forgetting all the worries that had built up inside me over the morning. She was even more stunning than I remembered her to be. Her hair was loosely pulled back in a clip, a few locks hung free around her face. I desperately wanted to tuck on of those mahogany locks behind her ear but I restrained myself. Her eyes were wide as though expecting. It looked like she was just as nervous to see me as I was to see her. She was nervous, not scared shitless, not frantically excited, not indifferent. I smiled reassuring myself a bit. Maybe this wouldn't be that bad. I let my gaze travel down her neck. Holy Shit. I couldn't help the crooked smirk that formed on my lips when I saw what she was wearing. Not only was she lacking material on her creamy white legs, but her shirt....her shirt was very familiar. I looked bacl up at her and caught her gaze raising my eyebrow slightly.
"Nice shirt," I said nonchalantly feeling slightly more confident. She was not going to knock me unconscious with her china set....
I saw the blush on her cheeks and grinned unable to help myself as I walked into her apartment. I saw two other people that I fairly recognized at the club last night. The blonde guy was looking at me as though trying to test the waters, see where my head was at. My eyes traveled to the petite raven haired girl her stood next to. She was sharing a horrified expression with the one behind me...Bella.
"Do you know where your wallet is?" Bella asked probably rubbed sore from my disruption of her afternoon.
"No, I plan to cover our steps," I said looking back at her. As I said what I intended to do I remembered back to last night and watched from an onlooker's view through a drunken haze. We had seriously thought we were going back to her house so I could teach her how to play the piano. There was no intentions for anything more...except in the beginning of the night when we had danced together, but what seemed to be tons of shots more we weren't even thinking in that state of mind. I remember crashing on the couch, laughing at something stupid probably, and then telling her that she was pretty. Those two words, 'you're pretty' started the entire episode. I parted my lips slightly remembering the way she tasted as my eyes traveled down to her full pink lips. They were tucked in between her teeth. Tracing the steps I remember what it felt like to be on top of her. My eyes held hers remembering what it felt like to hear her moan in my ear knowing that she was moaning for me. Tat moment in her small foyer area with her friends as onlookers was so intense that I couldn't pull myself out of the daze I was under. I remember how wet she got, how she purred in my ear, how she told me to fuck her over and over again, and then when it came down to it she did me. I remember the suppleness of her breasts, the way her ass fit perfectly into my hand has a squeezed and caressed it. Was it getting hot in here or was it just me? Thank god the blonde guy cleared his throat when he did. I ripped my eyes away from Bella as she did the same with a sling flush in her cheeks once more. Oh god, what I would give to touch them...to kiss them.
"These are my friends Alice and Jasper. Jasper and Alice, this is...."She rushed probably feeling awkward and then paused "shit."
I chuckled lightly, "Edward...it's is a pleasure meeting you both." I looked back at Bella and raised my eyebrow, "And your name?" I didn't want her to think I had over heard everything she was saying earlier.
"Bella" She mumbled as though embarrased by the fact that we too had to be re-introduced. "You look on the couch...I'll look in the bedroom," and with a snap of her fingers her and Alice were rushing to her bedroom.
I shifted my weight uncomfortable with the situation again all of a sudden. It was easy to be self confident in the room, but a totaly other thing with Jasper...Bella's male friend....who probably wanted to beat the shit out of me for sleeping with his friend. I gulped and then without saying anything went over to the couch sticking my hand in between the cushions.
"So you and Bella had a good night last night?" Jasper asked sitting down by the island. He had a plate of french toast in front of him and my stomach growled involuntarily. I hadn't eaten all day long.
"Um," How did I reply to that without sounding like a total pig? "It went well...very well I must say given the circumstances."
"What circumstances?" He replied taking a bite, "You mean the whole one night stand thing?"
I grimaced moving to look under the couch, "Yeah... though it wasn't my intention on making it out to be that way," I explained picking my words carefully.
"Into a one night stand?"
Cringe number two. "Yeah."
He was about to reply when their was a shriek coming from Bella's bedroom. We both instantly ran over to the door. It was locked. Jasper knocked on the door fluidly. "Alice, sweetie, are you okay?"
So they were dating. I nodded to myself.
"She's fine!" Bella's voice seeped over to us a little worried. "We saw a spider."
Spider my ass. They were up to something in their. I tried the door knob again. Why the bloody hell did they need to lock the damn door. I was just about to ask this when Jasper beat me to it.
"Do you need me to kill it?" I stared at him incredulously. What a little pansy for (1) believing them and (2) for offering to kill a measly spider as if they couldn't do it themselves. I laughed astounded. Maybe they were like married or something. I heard Bella laugh and was surprised when a smile graced my lips a flutter in my stomach.
"We're fine...tell him we're fine, Al," She said almost agitated.
"We're fine, baby. Love you," came Alive high pitched voice. Love Shmove. I felt myself glowering and then walked away. I guess you could say that I was a non believer of love to a certain degree. I knew it existed. I knew it was possible for I have seen love in action many times, my parents, my grandparents, some of my friends, and now what it appeared to be Bella's friends. I just didn't think it was possible for me. As me sister so kindly pointed out for me I barely had a social life...so that was definately saying something about my romantic one. It was saying that it was non existent. I did bury myself in work. I went on dates here and there but never committed myself to a serious relationship. I was certain that I'd fail at anything that dealt with me being emotional, sentimental, and loving towards someone. I didn't think I'd ever know what true love was. So that just made me more and more agitated when I saw other people so obviously struck by Cupid's arrow.
"So anyways," I heard Jasper say from behind me. I wish he wouldn't. I didn't feel like talking about this at the moment. "What happened this morning since you didn't plan on making the whole out like this?"
I sighed and ran a hand through my already unruly hair. What was I going to say to this? That I didn't want to leave? That I wanted to stay snuggled up to Bella? That I wanted to fall in love with her and grow old with her? I rolled my eyes and sighed once again. And how would my explanation change things. I didn't know what Bella thought of me. I didn't know if she regretted last night at all. I didn't know of she detested me, or wanted me...again. I shrugged trying to play it cool. "My father called me from John Hopkins...there was a bad accident on 695 and needed my assistance in the ER," I explained but added for my own safety, "I mean when he called I was still half asleep and indecisive on what I wanted to do...leave without saying good bye or leave with a note for her. I guess my brain wrapped itself around the facts and then just left. I almost died when I realized I had to come back here for my wallet."
Jasper looked at me curiously. I know I shouldn't have said that last part. He was certainly going to beat me now. He shook his head, "I could see why you'd be nervous coming back after you left without a word," he said almost sympathetically.
"How is she holding up about it?" I asked referring to Bella. I wanted to know how my hasty decision affected her.
"She..." He paused looking up at the ceiling, "She is confused I think. She never really does stuff like this...getting shitfaced, taking some stranger home with her, the whole one night stand thing. I think she was upset to realize what she had done, but it is not like she was moping around all morning. She definitely does not regret it," he added for my pleasure.
"How do you know?" I asked almost excited. He laughed at my eagerness. It was weird. I barely knew this guy and we were talking as if we had been friends forever. Maybe if we became friends I'd have a reason to be around Bella more.
"We'd be talking and she'd just start to space off with this dreamy grin on her face, then Alice would ask her if she was having a mental repeat of last night, and then Bella would giver her thoughts away by blushing," he said laughing some more.
I smiled. Knowing that Bella had a good time with me and didn't regret it was all I needed right now.
"GOT IT!" My head shot to the bedroom door and almost instantly I was standing next to it again. "Hey!"
"Where was it?!" I asked through the door cursing the small pixie like creature for locking me out.
I waited for her to open the door. I wanted my wallet back. I wanted to get out of hear even though this all had gone a bit smoother than I would have thought. Maybe Bella and my interactions were awkward but at least somebody was here to give me the scoop on what I needed to know. There were muffled whispers.
"Never mind!"
My brow furrowed. "What do you mean never mind?...Did you find it or not?" How does one mistakenly identify a wallet? A man's wallet at that. Surely she didn't have then just laying around her apartment. There was more hushed whispers. I heard Alice whisper 'organ donor' and groaned. They were going through my wallet no doubt. I perked up though realizing that they had to be interested in me to do such a thing. i didn't have anything bad in there so I wasn't too worried. I just wanted to get out of there. A minute passed by. "Come on!"
"Fucking impatient," I could hear Bella mumble as she walked closer to the door and unlocked it for me. I couldn't help but smirk at her french. I titled my head and smiled as she handed me her wallet and Alice slip by at the same time leaving just me and the goddess like brunette in front of me. I looked down at the wallet wondering if they liked what they found and then pocketed it before looking back at her. She was still wearing by shirt looking sexy as hell. What I would give to ravish her again...
"So..." I said breathlessly while taking in her appearance for the umpteenth time head to toe.
"So?" She replied getting on the bed and crossing her legs.
My eyes rested on her chest for a brief second and then went back to her face. I smiled and took a step closer to her. "I'm trying to determine which way would be more enjoyable for me to get my shirt back," I said pensively tapping my chin while letting my eyes fall back to the shirt...fantasizing about the skin underneath it and how just last night it was clammy and rubbing up against my own.
"You really are delusional," she said sounding annoyed. I watched as she slid off the bed and turned her back to me. I didn't mean to offend her. I was just trying to attempt to get her hot for me. It seemed to work so well last night, and if she had been fantasizing about me this morning surely she was down for a repeat, right? I gaped at her as she pulled the shirt off over her head, I didn't see as she threw the shirt back at me, my eyes were focused on the nape of her neck...my one true weakness. Her's was calling for me. That's when the shirt hit me in the face. I caught it as it slipped down my front and looked back up at her to see that her head was turned in my direction. "There...now you are free to go," she said and walked into her bathroom...topless, I might add.
I walked back into the kitchen in a daze. Seeing her topless, just her bare back was enough to rile me up. I didn't regret last night. I was sure of that this morning, but I was even more sure of it now. What did I do though? Did I leave her my number now even though I had left her this morning without any word? Would she even want to see me again? We barely knew anything about one another, but I wanted to know more and more about her. Was it possible to start fresh even though we already had a mindblowing night of sex? I didn't think it was possible. I'd just have to be happy...content with going back to my usual life style. I'd have to forget about it...about her.
My stomach growled again as I neared the kitchen. Jasper must have heard. "Did you want some french toast?"
"I don't want to over stay my welcome...even though I was barely welcomed in the first place," I said waving a hand at thm. They were nice people. Bella had to be too even though I didn't doubt that already.
"Nonsense, Jazz told me what happened this morning," Alice chimmed in. She smiled as I looked at her. "It wasn't your fault."
"I could have left a note," I argued.
"You were confused," She aregued back, "Anybody would do the same thing."
"That doesn't change things," I reasoned. She nodded as though understanding.
"Where is she?" jasper asked making me a plate of the french toast even though I had declined. I grabbed the fork he handed me and nodded in appretiation.
"Bathroom."
"I could try to talk to her?" She asked for me but I shook my head.
"No, really. I enjoyed myself, but I don't want to complicate things anymore. We might not have been aware of the consequences last night, but we are now." I hated myself for trying to get out of talking to her again. didn't I just say to myself that I had wanted more than to get to know her better?
"I don't agree," she replied. I simply shrugged my shoulders and ate the piece of french toast.
"But I think I like it
When you instant message me
With a promise
I can feel it
I can tell you're gonna be
Just like me"
I pulled my phone from my pocket and hit the accept button, "Hi, Rose."
"Hey, your friend, Emmet?" She asked on the other line.
"Yes, what about Em?" I replied taking a sip of the orange juice Alice had poured for me and then walked into the foyer.
"We are going to go tonight to have dinner. Him and I hit it off really well. I was wondering if you wanted to come?" She said sounding as if all traces from our argument this morning were forgotten about. I happily smiled. I hated arguiing with her.
"I would hate to be a third wheel," I replied honestly.
"You won't be. He invited some of his friends," she explained, "We are just going to Lucky's pub for a causal get together. I would like it if you came."
I smiled and nodded my head, "What time?"
She squealed in delight, "7 sharp...don't be late. I'll see you tonight."
"Alright, bye," I said before hanging up. I looked back at Jasper and Alice who were watching my suspiciously. "My sister," I clarified though I didn't know why. Did they think I was talking to my girlfriend...my nonexistant girlfriend?
"IS HE GONE YET!?" came a shout from the bathroom. I looked in the general direction of it imagining Bella in there...still topless. I wanted to see her again, but hearing the worry in her voice made me rather upset. She didn't want to see me. i'd have to understand that. Alice and Jasper looked at me with apology in their eyes. I shrugged it off.
"Thanks for the food. I'll catch you guys later...maybe," I said and waved goodbye before exiting out of Bella's apartment.
()()()()()()()()()()()()()()()()()
Music:: Carlisle's ringtone; Thriving Ivory's 'Angels on the Moon'/ Rose's ringtone; Muse's 'Instant Messenger (Pink Ego Box)'
A/N:: I hope this was up to par. Thanks again for all the reviews. Let's try ten this time!!! R&R.
~Chelsea