So I'm back, and I wanted to write more because I am well…. BORED. Its raining. It's Sunday. It almost 11Am and I'm still not dressed out of my pj's. And all of my friends are busy.

Maybe I'm Dreaming. Maybe It's Real. But I doubt it.

James Potter's Life Isn't All It's Cracked Up To Be Chapter 2

AS I walked towards the train all I could think about was how Lily kept treating me. It hurts every time I time I think of how much I love her, or how much she hate me. I want it to change. I would even settle for friends, but I know she wouldn't.

"You alright mate?" Padfoot asked me as I walked past him.

"Yeah. Fantastic." I said.

"She'll come around one day." He gave me a sorry look.

"WE all know she wont." I slumped into the compartment. I saw Mooney. He looked pale and Wormtail was looking at him with a scared look on his face. His hands were a little sweaty. I sat down next to him. "You know she still hates me."

"did you ask her out?" He asked me. I think he was glad that I wasn't worried about what he looked like. I shook my head. "Give it time." I gave him a weak smile.

"So I'm hungry." Sirius said looking hopeful.

"Aren't you always?" Peter asked.

"SO what, you are too." He replied

"Mmm, I can just imagine sinking into honey dukes chocolate right now." Sirius began to drool at Remus' words. "So warm and so nice." Peter was doing the same thing now. I couldn't help but laugh. I'm glad even when he's sick, he can make fun of them.

Padfoot snapped out of it, "Shut up. You're doing it to make me jealous." Remus reached into his pocket and pulled out – Honey Dukes Best Chocolate. Damn, now even I'm jealous. "Ohhh, can I have some?" Mooney broke off a small bit and started to hand it to him, but he pulled it back and ate it. "I HATE YOU."

"I love you too, Si." Peter looked at him in a weird way, "Not like that you idiot!" I felt a jolt and realised the train had begun to move.

About half an hour into our little trip, Lily, Anna and Kacey nocked on our door.

"Yellow?" Sirius said opening the sliding door. "Hmm, my favourite ladies. Welcome to our humble dove." Doove what the hell? What is a dove?

"Doove?" Lily asked the same question I had wanted to.

"Something I cant remember what it's called."

"Compartment?" Kacey said looking at him with a weird look.

I couldn't take my eyes off Lily. She made my world stop spinning whenever she looked at me. Which was hardly ever.

"POTTER. Stop staring at me." I looked away.

Sometimes being James Potter isn't all it's cracked up to be.

"I'm sorry Li-I mean Evans." For the first time in years she smiled at me.

"I never thought you would apologise for anything." She said to me. Oh I'm not that vain. Well at least I don't think so…

'Your so vain, I bet you think this song is about you. Don't you. Don't you???'

Stupid Song….

We sat quietly until Mooney said, "I'm going to get food, I'm hungry. Anyone want anything?"

Lily stood up, "I do. I'll come." He gave me a side-glance and walked out with her.

…in the hall...

"There's something different about him this year." Lily admitted to Remus.

"It's called growing up. He did a lot of it over the summer." He replied. She smiled.

"He just pisses me off so much."

"You really don't get it do you?" Remus asked.

"Get what?"

"Get why he was such a git around you. Maybe it's not him. It's you." Her smiled turned to a frown. "How much do you think he likes you?"

"It's a stupid crush." She replied.

"No Lily. It was a first, but not anymore. It's much, much more. He doesn't just like you. He loves you." He paused. "Maybe you can't see it because you think all he wants to do is have sex with you like every other girl he's used, or dated."

She stared at him eyes open wide and mouth too.

"You left a pretty big hole." Remus walked to the food cart and got some more chocolate. Leaving Lily just standing there. Not knowing what to do with the information she had just been told.

Never in a million years would James Potter love Lily Evans. It was just. Impossible.

Or was it?

So, was it good or bad? I know I always ask that question… But I feel it's necessary. Because I never know if it's good or bad until you tell me. Now in the next chapter they will be at school for most of it. But train rides are limiting… So it sucks for me.

And you might think that Lily swearing, or barley swearing but none the less swearing… is a little out of character. True it is, but I don't give a shit. Lol.

Caitlan