Wishing For More

A/N: This is my first story ever so if it sucks then you know why, but it may yet have hope since GrimmKurosaki is editing, so if it's any good at all then you'll know why.

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

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"So I look in your direction,
but you pay me no attention, do you
I know you don't listen to me cause you say you see straight through me

But on and on from the moment I wake till the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side just you try and stop me I'll be waiting in a line
just to see if you care"

- Shiver by Cold Play (Pretty good song, I recommend listening to it.)

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Kaien's POV

"I wonder what he wants. I was just about to go to sleep! Ugh," he whines, then chuckles to himself. "But of course I'll come anyways, I'm in love with the freaking kid."

He stops at the light at the corner of the street, mp3 player turned up loud as it plays Shiver by Cold Play. It's the middle of winter, the world covered in an infinite white. It was Sunday now, Karakura's streets quiet and bare. The people of the small town most likely inside their homes to get away from the chill. The signal turns white for him to walkand he crosses the street, his breath visible in the frosty air with each exhale.

"He sounded kinda sad on the phone... Wonder what's wrong." At the thought he quickens his pace.

He stops for a moment as he walks past the park, remembering it as the place where him and Ichi met. Their moms had been friends since high school and thought it would be a good idea to have a play date for their kids. He remembered how nice and easy-going Ichi was, back then he was always smiling. They got along right away and ended up playing at the park all day together. The memory brings a smile to his face. He shakes his head and, remembering what he was in the process of doing, he continues. The Kurosaki clinic comes into view.

Hope nothings wrong. He walks up the steps and knocks on the door three times.

The door opens, revealing a small, light brown-haired girl wearing a yellow apron. "Kaien! Ichi-nii is up in his room, come in."

"Hey Yuzu, hows it going? Hmm, what did you make this time? Smells amazing."

She blushed. "Ah, nothing special, just something I made quickly, you can have some if you'd like."

"Thanks Yuzu, yeah I'll have some, just gotta talk to Ichigo first." He heads towards the stairs, but was stopped by Yuzu's voice.

"He-Hey Kaien, is anything wrong with ichi-nii?" she asked hesitantly. "He looked kinda sad when he walked in from school."

"I don't know Yuzu, guess I'll find out. I'm sure he's okay." He turned and continued his walk up the stairs, heading for the door to the room he's come to know like the back of his hand. "I knew he sounded sad on the phone... I hope it's nothing really bad," he said to himself.

He pushed open the door without knocking, having stopped doing so years ago.

Im walking out
in a force ten gale
Birds thrown around
Bullets for hail
The roof is pulling off
By its fingernails
Your voice is rapping
On my windowsill

Scatterbrain by: Radiohead (Song playing in ichigo's room let's you know what kinda mood ichigo is kinda sad song or if
wanna know what Kaien's feeling then listen to "My Love" by: Sia You'll probably like that more if ya like sappy stuff,or listen to both, i know i know lots of songs sorry but they're worth listening to, yeah i know too much talking ill shut up now.)

"Ichigo?" Kaien stands and stares at Ichigo, who was on the bed in a plain white tee shirt and gray-blue boxers. The covers were in disarray, curtains slightly parted, letting in a small slit of moonlight from the bright full moon. The light fell on Ichigo's body, giving him a soft glow. Kaien, still in awe, begins to approach the bed.

"Ichigo? Are you awake?" he asks and smiles as he watches his best friend lay with his eyes closed. He notices tear streaks and he frowns. He's never known Ichigo to cry easily, especially after his mother passed. He brushes the lingering moisture away, the contact causing Ichigo to stir. He opens his eyes slightly, the moonlight illuminating them to a golden brown. The sight makes Kaien's heart pound. Those eyes... Staring at them and admiring them was what made him realize he loved Ichigo all those years ago.

"Kaien, you came." He quickly sits up and wraps his arms around his best friend.

Now Ichigo was starting to scare him. He was never much of a sentimental kinda guy and he always conveyed his affection through teases or sarcastic remarks.

"Of course I came, you idiot. What'd you think... I'd just ignore ya?" He wraps his arms around Ichigo as well. "Now tell me, what's wrong Ichi?"

"I-It's O-Orihime. Sh-she's moving..." He tightens his grip

"Ohh..." Orihime, the girl he's been trying to despise ever since freshmen year when her and Ichigo started going out. Her and Ichigo had seemed pretty in love, always together when they could be. She was the only other person other than himself and Ichi's sisters who could make Ichi smile. His heart burned when he saw them together, especially when Ichi talked about her. So shouldn't he feel happy, ecstatic, and elated that she's moving? Why did he only feel sad? Probably cause even though she took Ichi from you she still made him smile and whatever makes Ichigo happy makes you happy, wasnt that the only reason you couldn't hate her? Because she was good for Ichi, because she made him laugh, smile, and happy?

"I'm really sorry, Ichi... When?"

Ichigo lets go of Kaien and leans his back against the wall. "She told me today... She's leaving tonight. I already said bye."

"It'll be okay, Ichi. I'm here... I'll always be here, I'm not going anywhere." He pulls Ichigo to his chest, the moment giving him courage. "I'm sorry she's leaving Ichi, I really am...but you'll still always have me."

"Thanks, Kaien. I needed that..." Ichigo relaxes in his grip.

A feeling in his heart begins to build, telling him to say the impossible. The moment gives him courage and he forced out, "Ich-Ichigo..?"

"Yeah Kaien?" Ichigo raises his head to look his friend in the eyes at the sound of his friend's voice.

"I-Ichigo...I..." He stops himself after realizing how pointless it is.

Ichigo makes a face. "Kaien, you know my rule. It pisses me off to no end when someone doesn't finish what they were gonna say, so finish what you were gonna say."

"There's no point, Ichi..." Ichigo's face softens at his friends tone.

"Kaien... you know you can tell me anything. If it's important to you, I wanna know."

"I don't wanna change anything between us, Ichi." He tightens his grip on his friend.

Ichigo pulls him down so that they're laying side by side. He looks Kaien in the eyes with the look that Kaien has come to call the "I'm screwed" look. Meaning he has no choice but to do what Ichigo says cause there's no point in arguing.

He pulls Ichigo close till they were an inch apart. His heart racing, he says the words that have been haunting him ever since he could remember, "Ichigo... I... I love you."

Ichigo's eyes go as wide as he's ever seen them. He begins to slowly close the space between them, giving Ichigo enough time to pull away if he wants to. But, to his surprise, Ichigo doesn't. His and Ichigo's breathing begin to quicken as the space bewteen closes in on none existing. And when their lips met, it was like nothing Kaien had ever imagined. His heart was about ready to burst from all the different feelings. When he pulls back, a slight fear creeps up his spine at what Ichigo will do after experiencing the kiss.

Ichigo stares at him for what feels like forever. "...I Love you too, Kaien." He lights the room up with a warm smile. "I've loved you for as long as I can remember... You were always first, Orihime second."

The words seem to good to be true. A beautiful lie. But he can feel everything... It can't be fake; Ichigo's breath on his neck, the cool breeze from the open window, the smell of Yuzu's cooking, but most of all he can feel his heart beating like crazy.

"Ichigo...you have no idea what those words mean to me. I've dreamt of hearing those words, hoped that by some miracle, I would hear them." He closes the space between them again, this time not stopping till they were both in desperate need of air. Both laugh and kiss, holding each other till they were a little satisfied.

"You idiot! Why didn't you ever say anything?" he yells while punching Kaien in the chest. There's the Ichigo Kaien was used to.

"I wasn't sure if the feeling was mutual and I didn't wanna ruin our friendship, I didn't wanna risk it," he said while rubbing his chest where Ichigo hit him.

"Serves you right, idiot. Now come here, I'm tired," he said as he wrapped his arms around Kaien.

Before he knows it, Ichigo's asleep. He closes his eyes, thinking of the days to come with Ichigo.

As long as it's with him, I'm sure it'll be fine...

A/N: I know I know it's all mushy and gushy and it's probably not the best you'll read it may be good since GrimKi is editing haha Hope you at least semi enjoy it thanks for reading!

-Daten-Shi 3023 (originally stark905)