A/N: Tbh, I'm still not completely happy with this story but people have shown interest so I shall continue to update it. I'm thinking I should probably stick to one-shots. Anyway, enjoy.
Jane gave a yawn and slowly stretched her body out before she rolled onto her side and reached her arm out to cuddle Maura in close for the last few minutes before it was time to get up. Instead of her arm colliding with a soft, warm body, it collided with a cold empty side of the bed. Jane frowned and pushed herself up onto her elbows as she looked around the room for traces of the blonde but there was none. The door to the adjoining bathroom was slightly ajar which meant that no one was in there. With a sigh the brunette pushed herself into a sitting position and ran her hands over her face just as Jo Friday ran into the room and gave a small bark.
"What is it buddy?" Jane turned her head and looked down at the dog who just turned her back and ran out of the room. "Even the dog is against me," she mumbled as she kicked the covers off and made her way into the bathroom for a shower.
Maura was nowhere else to do be found in the house and when Jane glanced at the driveway mid bite of her toast she saw that Maura's car was gone. This fact caused a frustrated sigh from the brunette as she finished her toast and fed the crusts to Jo Friday who lay waiting patiently. They had had arguments before but this one seemed different to all the rest. Jane just hoped she could make it better again.
Maura parked her car in the car park of the precinct and killed the engine, letting silence surround her. She leaned back in her seat and took a deep breath to calm herself. The fight with Jane had rattled her. It wasn't their first fight but this one seemed to stem deep. Maura had supported Jane in all her decisions so why wouldn't Jane support her on this? She wasn't asking for much. She only wanted to get to know the woman who had given birth to her.
With a sigh Maura opened her car door and stepped out. She needed to distract herself from thoughts of her fight with Jane. The best way for her to do that was to busy herself with work until her lunch with Hope.
"Morning," Maura greeted Angela as she walked into the café for her morning cup of coffee.
"Morning." Angela smiled and glanced over the blonde's shoulder. "No Jane?"
"I didn't want to wake her." Maura's smile wavered a little bit as the older woman poured her coffee.
Angela nodded. "She's been working so hard lately. She should take some time off. Both of you should and have some quality time together. You could get away for a weekend." She smiled up at the younger woman pleased with the idea she had come up with. "Be sure to mention it to Jane. She'll listen to you. You're the only one she listens to." Angela handed Maura her cup of coffee.
"Thank you." Maura gave a tight smile before she made her way towards the elevators to reach the morgue. Angela meant well but she needed to keep her nose out of other people's business most of the time. Especially out of her and Jane's
Maura was thankful for the solitude of the morgue. It cleared her head. She placed her coffee cup down on her desk before she slid into her chair with a soft sigh. As she sat down the photo of her and Jane that she kept on her desk caught her eye. She reached out and picked it up, leaning back in her chair as she gently touched the glass. They had been at a Rizzoli family barbeque, one that didn't come without drama. Jane had pulled Maura to sit on her lap so Maura had wrapped her arms around Jane's neck as they gazed at each other lovingly. Angela had spent most of the barbeque snapping photos and had snapped the two of them together, wanting to preserve the moment. Maura had fallen in love instantly and decided it was what she wanted on her desk. Every time she looked at it she felt full of love and happiness but today, today she felt sad. The one person she thought she could always count on refused to give her support in something very important to Maura.
She placed the photo back in its place and shook her head, clearing any negative thoughts. She didn't want to spend the day dwelling.
"Jane!" Angela called from the café as she saw her daughter's head of wild curls walk into the building. "Jane! Don't ignore your mother."
Jane hesitated about whether she should listen to her mother or just ignore her. She decided it would be for the better if she listened. "Hey, ma." She plastered a smile on her face and walked into the café. "Have you seen Maura this morning?"
"She's already been in to get a coffee. She said you were still sleeping. You're working too hard. You should take some time off. Spend it with Maura."
Jane refrained from rolling her eyes at her mother. "I'll think about it," she replied instead. "I'll see you later, okay?"
Angela nodded. "Take it easy."
Jane mumbled a response and made her way towards the elevators. She jobbed the down button just as her phone buzzed with a murder. "Damn it," she cursed and looked up to see Frost getting off the elevator. "Let's go." She would have to wait to talk to Maura.
Maura sat with Hope in a corner booth in an Italian restaurant not far from the precinct. They had made small talk on the way and while they decided what to order. It wasn't until after the waiter had taken their food did their conversations grow deeper.
"So," Hope began steadily, "you're with Jane?" She took a small sip of her water to make it look like a casual question. She did, as Maura's mother, have a right to know.
"I'm engaged to Jane," Maura corrected.
Hope gave a small nod and placed her glass down. "How long have you been together?"
"A year." Maura smiled softly and looked down at her engagement ring. "Jane proposed two months ago."
Hope leaned back in her chair and studied the younger woman quietly for a few moments. "Are you sure you're not rushing things?" Maura tensed and looked up at Hope. "I mean, you were together ten months before you were engaged. By the time you get married you'll only have been together two years. That's not a very long time, Maura."
"We want to be together," Maura replied, her body growing tenser with every word Hope uttered.
"You're still young. You have your whole life ahead of you. Are you really sure you want to spend the rest of your life with her?" Hope leaned her arms on the table and studied Maura's face. "Are you sure you want to spend it with a woman? Having a family will be harder with her. Is Jane even a family type of person? You need to think about this, Maura. It's a huge commitment that you're going to take. You have to be absolutely sure that it's what you want, what makes you happy. The partner you choose is the person who is going to be by your side your whole life. You're going to support them and they're going to support you. You need to think about this carefully."
Maura froze as Hope's words sank in. Support. That was something Jane wasn't giving her on this subject. Jane wasn't making her happy at that moment. They had been happy up until that moment, hadn't they? They would be happy again, wouldn't they? Doubts slowly began to seep into Maura's mind. She never hid her history with women. Some of it had been experimental, some had been out of want, either way Maura had been completely honest with Jane. It wasn't something Maura could say about Jane and her history. Jane hadn't mentioned once of being with another woman so Maura couldn't be sure if she was the first or not. She began to wonder if their relationship was just something experimental to Jane or if it was because it was easy for Jane.
"I love Jane," Maura spoke quietly. "She loves me."
"Love isn't enough, Maura. A relationship needs more. A lot more, especially a marriage. Just because Jane loves you doesn't mean she won't hurt you. It also doesn't mean that you two are meant to be and are happy."
"I think I've heard enough." Maura began to gather her things and stood from the table. "I didn't suggest lunch so I could sit and listen to you tell me what I feel and who I should be with. This is my life. A life I have lived without you. This is my decision. Mine and Jane's. Not yours. I love Jane and we're going to get married whether you like it or not. I'd appreciate it if you didn't contact me again. Goodbye, Hope." Maura spun on her heel and left the restaurant. Unfortunately, Hope's words had already created doubts about her and Jane's relationship.
By the time Jane arrived home that night she hadn't seen Maura all day. She had called down to the morgue a few times but her search for the blonde had been unsuccessful. She felt terrible about their argument and she wanted to clear the air. Jane gave a sigh as she made her way over to the fridge and pulled out a beer. As she made her way over the couch she pulled out her phone and dialled Maura's number. Instead of the blonde answering as Jane had hoped it went straight to voicemail.
"Hey, hun, I've been looking for you all day. I feel like an ass about last night. Can we just talk? I'm at home waiting for you." With a sigh she hung up and threw her phone onto the coffee table, taking a swig of her beer.
As Maura pulled up onto the drive that night she could see only a dim light on in the living room. Jane was still awake and waiting for her. Maura gave a sigh and leaned back against her seat. She knew she would have to face it but she wasn't sure she was ready for that yet. However, if she stayed in her car then Angela would be sure to see her and pick up that something was wrong.
Maura was greeted with the low murmur of the TV as she entered the house. She quietly made her way into the living room to see Jane sprawled out over the couch asleep, empty beer bottles on the table. She instantly breathed a sigh of relief at seeing Jane asleep. Jo Friday who had been curled up asleep on Jane's stomach wagged her tail and jumped down onto the floor to greet Maura. The blonde pulled the blanket from the back of the couch and wrapped it around Jane's sleeping form.
Just as Maura tucked the blanket in around Jane's shoulder she began to stir, turning her head towards the blonde. "Maura," she murmured.
"Shh, go back to sleep," the blonde whispered in reply.
"I love you." Jane buried her face into the cushion and drifted back off to sleep. The statement made Maura smiled softly before she leaned forward and placed a tender kiss on Jane's forehead.
"Night, Jane," she whispered and turned towards the bedroom. She took her phone out of her handbag and sat down on her side of the bed as she searched the internet for what she wanted. It didn't take her long to find it. Once she had done that she placed a quick call, keeping her voice quiet before she changed and got into bed, willing her mind to be silent, just for the night.
