Chapter 01

Jasper's POV

Forks, Washington, Spring, 2005

Grrrr...would they ever bring these nauseating list-filled feelings to an end? I thought to myself as I looked around the school cafeteria. I knew it was a stupid question to ask myself. I mean, I'm a vampire with the ability to feel every emotion there is and I'm in a fucking high school! Which means that everywhere I looked there was hormonal teenagers, the teenage boys being the worst. Every female within eyesight had their lust spike up another level. Though, to be fair to the human populace, it wasn't all of their fault that I was having difficulty staying in my seat and not grab the nearest female and bend her over the table. No, the main guilty party rested at the doorstep of my oh so lovely siblings.

Adopted siblings to be exact. Emmett and Rosalie, my beloved vampire siblings, are more horny than a teenage virgin boy who has just been given an all expense paid trip to the playboy mansion during a pool party. I squirmed a little in my seat nervously.

"Will you two knock that shit off!" I snapped as a fresh wave of human male lust hits me.

Emmett and Rosalie finally pull out of each others throats to look at me.

"What's with you man?" Emmett asked. "Wishing you were getting some action?" he continued with a chuckle.

I narrowed my eyes dangerously.

"Emmett, the lust is so bad in here, I'm on the verge of bending you over this table and fucking you until your eyes fall out. So get it under control." I hissed dangerously.

Emmett, while unable to go paper white, looked at me in horror. Rosalie simply giggled.

"Okay..." Emmett squeaked out.

Another dose hits me and I clench my teeth.

"What the fuck is going on today? You two didn't realise another sex tape did you?" I demanded.

Emmett shook profusely in 'no'.

"Could have something to do with the new girl that started today," Rosalie offered rationally as she began to inspect her perfectly manicured nails.

I couldn't stop myself, I banged my head on the table. Of course. Isabella Swan, the Chief's daughter, she had moved back to Forks from Phoenix over the weekend. No wonder the male lust had spiked so much.

"Have either of you actually seen her yet?" Rosalie asked us, making me big my head off the table in shock. Rosalie never, and I do mean never, took an interest in the humans around us. I was about to tell her that I actually haven't seen Isabella yet when one of the doors to the cafeteria opened and the lust in the room tripled.

I gripped the leg of the table with as much force as I dared.

"Fuck..." I hissed out.

"Jasper...?" Rosalie asked cautiously.

I held up a finger as I took deep breaths and trying to picture some disturbing shit to try and get me to calm down. Something that usually works but today, it just wasn't happening.

"Damn, she's almost as hot you Rosie." Emmett said with a low whistle.

I watched Rosalie's gaze shit from me to someone just over my shoulder.

"Yeah, she is rather pretty." Rosalie agreed, again stunning Emmett and I into complete silence.

I was on the verge of asking Rosalie if she had been possessed when Newton decided to open his mouth. For the record, not the brightest bulb in the shop.

"So...Bella, how are you liking Forks so far? He asked.

Huh, that was actually a pretty intelligent question actually. The stab of irritation however along with a small does of annoyance told me that 'Bella' wasn't really a fan of Newton's.

"Looks like we're not the only ones who thinks Newton is annoying." I whispered to my siblings.

"It's okay, as soon as you look past all the rain," she replied, I heard the struggle to keep the irritation out of her voice but that wasn't the only thing I heard.

Every inch of my body froze at the sound of that voice. Her voice. I turned slowly in my seat and took a look at the new girl and found her to be trapped between gossip queen one, Jessica Stanley and Newton. The dreamy lust-filled look on Newton's face sent a growl straight into my throat. While my core basic instincts screamed one word.

Mine!

The moment my instincts screamed it, I was stunned. Where had that come from? I was too stunned to think or to move. I was so stunned by what I had just experienced that the bell for the next class actually made me fucking jump.

"Dude, did you just get startled?" Emmett asked with a laugh in his voice as we stood up.

I turned to glare at him.

"Over a table, Emmett. Over a fucking table." I replied annoyed.

Emmett quickly gulped and hurried off to his next class with Rosalie cackling behind him.

Mercifully, the end of the school day approached rather quickly, and I headed to Rosalie's car, a BMW M3, when I saw Isabella or Bella as I discovered she prefers to be called, was getting something out of her locker. Once again I found myself frozen on the spot, every inch of me screaming to go to her. But I knew I couldn't. It was too dangerous, I was too dangerous. I mean, it wouldn't exactly make the best impression if I went over to say hello only to shove my tongue down her throat. Best case, I go to prison for sexually assaulting the Chief's daughter, worst case I get a shot gun shoved up my ass and having to explain why a double barrel gun shot hasn't so much as scratched me, let alone kill me. So I stayed where I was, doing a disturbingly good fucking impression of Eddie boy in all his angst glory before Bella eventually closed her locker and went on her way.

"Where have you been man?" Emmett asked when I finally arrived at the car, the lot now virtually empty and Rosalie looking more than a little pissed that I kept her waiting. I was about to reply when I saw Bella driving by in a rusted out bucket of bolts shaped like a Chevy.

"What the FUCK!" I suddenly cried out in horror.

Emmett and Rosalie looked round as Bella, in the rusted Chevy coffin, headed off home before turning back to look at me.

"What"? They both asked.

What? We're they seriously asking 'what?' I was about to ramble off about how dangerously that thing was, how could the Chief let his little girl drive around in that thing? Then the sane part of my brain kicked in.

"Nothing." I replied, doing my best care free impression as I got into the car but I knew they weren't buying it.

Despite all three of us knowing that they didn't buy my care free impression for a second, Emmett and Rosalie got into the car and we headed home.

Sitting in the back seat my mind, as it had been for the whole afternoon, was on Bella. Why had she moved back to Forks? Did it have something to do with her Mother? It was common knowledge, as was the way with small towns, that the Chief's ex-wife was a flag and impulsive. Had she done something illegal that meant Bella had to come back to town? After all, Bella's remark about the weather made it clear to me, as well as her emotions, that she didn't particularly like Forks. Then my mind turned to Chief Swan, was he sick and that was why? Had he asked his ex-wife to send Bella to Forks so he could spend as much time with her as possible before he died?

The rationally side of my brain kicked in at this point, and sounding very much like my brother Peter.

"Dude, you saw the Chief Friday! Did you smell death and disease? No!" It told me annoyed.

Okay, if I thought I had flipped my shit at lunch, I've definitely lost the fucking plot now.

I had to talk to Carlisle.

I was on auto-pilot as I entered the house some five minutes later and barely registered what Rosalie and Emmett were telling Esme. But when I registered her concern, I forced myself to pay attention, especially when I felt her reaching full blown panic level.

"Jasper, honey...what is it? What's happened?" Esme asked, her maternal instincts going into over drive.

That was one of the rare things about Esme, she was always a mother first and a vampire second. But if you threaten one of her 'children' you are in real fucking trouble.

I looked at the woman I saw as my mother and smiled softly.

"I'm okay, Mom. I just need to talk to Carlisle about something." I assured her.

Though no completely put at ease, Esme nodded, accepting my answer. For now.

Without another word, I went into the dining room to continue with the human facade by doing my homework. Don't look at me like that, I actually don't mind doing the homework, it's a distraction from the thirst when it starts to feel like it's getting a little difficult.

Despite my eagerness for a distraction, however mundane it may be, it wasn't very long before my mind returned to Isabella Swan and the instinctive reaction I had the moment I saw her. It's not like she's my mate or anything...right? I really needed to talk to Carlisle.

Carlisle Cullen, the oldest of our coven, leader and as far as myself, Rosalie, Emmett and two other members of this family are concerned - our father. He was turned at some point in the 1600's while out on a hunt for vampires with a group of religious nuts. I knew, as he had told me his story, Carlisle had never dared believe such a thing to be possible. That all changed of course after he awoke from his change and as was natural for a man raised so religiously, Carlisle had been disgusted by his new species and made every attempt to end his new life. Not that they worked, and why would they? He's methods were those a human would use to end their life and considering he was no longer that, he really shouldn't have been surprised that all his attempts failed. Still, desperate times and all that. Eventually the thirst became too much for Carlisle, who decided to live in seclusion after his failed suicide attempts, and he attacked and fed from an animal. You can't even begin to imagine his relief when he discovered that he could survive by drinking animal blood because for a man like Carlisle...there are no words to describe how relieved he was.

When I had first heard that vampires could drink animal blood and live, I thought I'd finally went mad from my own guilt but when it was proven true. Well...let's just say that I was one of the few vampires in this world that truly knew how soul consuming such relief can be. I may not be human any more and I shall never be able to forgive myself for the horrific sins I have committed under my maker's reign but the first time I drew blood from an animal...it felt like the last remaining piece of my soul had been saved.

My gut seized as my mind, almost instantly, reverted back to Isabella. What would she say if she knew that I was a cold blood killer right out of the movies? She'd never speak to me...she'd probably run to the Chief and tell him everything.

"Jasper!" Carlisle's concerned voice demanded, snapping me out of my thoughts.

When I looked up I saw that Carlisle, Esme and my siblings looking at me worried.

Shit, thoughts of Isabella caused me to zone out. Again.

It was difficult though, not to think about her. Something had changed within me and it wasn't a change that should have been allowed to happen, Alice was my mate. Wasn't she? Then again, if she had been my mate then she never would have went fucking that stuck up ass Eddie boy. So maybe, once again, I was lied to and made the puppet to dance to Alice's song instead of Maria's.

SMACK!

My head feels like it's about to come off my shoulders at the force of Rosalie's slapping me.

"Damn!" I shout out as my hand goes the back of my head and I glare at Rosalie. "Damn it, woman. I'm not your husband you know," I growled.

"HEY!" Emmett exclaimed.

"Well, maybe if you were to stop zoning out," Rosalie replied ignoring her mate.

I shook my head in annoyance, despite knowing that she was right. Didn't mean she had to slap me though, damn. How Emmett still has his head I'll never know. Speaking of the overgrown bear, he makes a point of letting me know that he finds my pain at being slapped by his mate rather amusing. Instead of getting him back, I turn to look at Carlisle.

"Can we talk? Privately." I asked him, hoping I didn't sound like a whiny bitch.

"Of course we can son." Carlisle replied, his concern clear for all to hear. Casting an annoyed look to Emmett, who was looking like his ribs could break from suppressed laughter, Carlisle and I left the house and headed off to hunt.

Some twenty minutes later Carlisle and I are in the heart of the Forks forest, where most of the animals reside. But to tell the truth, I had no appetite. I was still trying to figure out what all this shit means.

"Jasper, what is going on here? Rosalie and Emmett told me that you've been acting strange ever since lunch?" Carlisle asked me. His concern stronger now that we were alone but not nearly as drowning as Esme's was. I came to a stop and sat down on a fallen tree. Emmett and Rosalie's doing I'm sure.

"The new girl...Isabella. Ever since I saw her...Hell heard her voice...she hasn't left my thoughts Carlisle. What the hell is going on with me...why are you smiling?" I started but at the feel of Carlisle's amusement I couldn't help but get annoyed. Actually smiling would be a lie. It was one of the biggest grins I have ever seen on his face.

"Son, this is not something to be concerned with, the opposite in fact. All I can tell you is to let fate run its course." He replied, grin still in place.

WHAT? I wanted actual answers not a cryptic message. If that was what I wanted I would have called Peter.

"Carlisle, you can't be serious...she's HUMAN. How the hell am I to let 'fate to run its course'when she is human?" I replied shocked.

So you can imagine my surprise when this major detail didn't seem to phase him at all. Instead he placed a hand on my shoulder. "Listen to me son, if I'm correct then Isabella's mortality will not matter. I know you want more answers but I am afraid of the effect it will have on your actions. Just remember that you have the support of your mother and I, and as soon as I tell them, Rosalie and Emmett's too. Now, let's hunt shall we." Carlisle spoke calmly before heading off to hunt. I watched him run off before muttering "Cryptic old timer" to myself and to my horror there was a humorous laugh from Carlisle's direction. Great, I shook my head before I took off in search of my own meal.

Sure enough, for the next two and a half weeks while I watched Isabella from a distance, I swiftly learned that Emmett and Rosalie were being verysupportive. Hell, Rosalie had even gone and made friends with Isabella, while jealousy constantly suffocated me. I still crave to talk to her but I am afraid, afraid that she will not wish to talk to me. Someone slaps me on the back. Looking around I find Emmett standing there.

"Dude, school trip to Olympia during Spring Break and a certain lady is going." Emmett told me as though he was talking about the weather. What's even more annoying is Emmett wriggling his eyebrows suggestively.

Wait! Isabella was going on the school trip...could this be my chance to start a friendship with her? Looking over to the lunch line I see that Rosalie is bidding a temporary goodbye to Isabella before taking her usual seat with us, while Isabella sat at her usual table. Rosalie sat down smiling. Oh I hate her so much right now! Talking to my Isabella...did I just say my Isabella?

I'm screwed!

"So...are you going on the school trip with us Jasper?" Rosalie asked me. My answer was to simply scowl at her; she knew damn well that as soon as Emmett told me that Isabella was going on this trip I would want to go.

For the rest of the lunch hour I am forced to watch as Newton hit on Isabella and she shot him down as delicately as possible. Unfortunately for Newton, however, he wasn't all that bright and was going higher and higher on my list of who to kill if I ever revert back to the human diet. Just then my phone pinged to alert me to a text message. Looking at it I found that it's from her.

Don't you dare do anything to anyone Jasper Hale. And leave that Swan girl alone.

Edward and I are on our way back. Don't worry we'll stop anything bad from happening.

Alice.

I froze. Something that was noticed by Rosalie and Emmett.

"What's wrong?" Rosalie asked me. Her feelings told me that she feared something had happened with either Esme or Carlisle but I couldn't speak for anger. Instead I placed my phone in front of them.

"Why that little..."Rosalie began to growl before I cut her off.

"Get me out of here. Now! Before I go demolishing the whole fucking building" I snarled out. Fortunately it was too low for human ears. My rage growing so fast that I completely blanked on leaving the cafeteria and only came back to my senses when Emmett threw me onto the ground far away from human life. I knew Rosalie would stay behind for the sake of protecting our secret. She would tell the teachers that I wasn't feeling well.

"Want me to stay back while you tear up the forest?" Emmett asked me through clenched teeth, trying to keep his own anger under control. I nodded before something happened to me that hadn't happened since I was with Maria in the Southern Wars.

I succumbed to the God of War.

Four hours and a good portion of a destroyed forest later I had returned to my senses and was sitting at the dining room table with Rosalie, Emmett, Esme and Carlisle. Carlisle and Esme were also rather angered by Alice's text. Looks like the two wonder children, that once had golden sunlight shining out of their asses, were falling from grace.

"Okay, were there any thoughts that you had which might have lead her to misread a vision, Jasper?" Carlisle asked us. Rosalie and Emmett merely growled in response. I had to admit it was a fair question.

"Nothing, short of mentally tearing Mike Newton in half for annoying Isabella. That idiot can't seem to understand the meaning of 'no'with her," I replied. It was the only logical explanation I could think of.

"Jasper's right, Carlisle. Hell, Rosie's told me everything that Isabella's told her. That kid is really clueless." Emmett piped up, sounding more than a little annoyed about it himself.

"His lust driven feelings aren't helping him any either. But Carlisle there is a world of difference between acting it out in your mind and actually doing it," I defended myself. Carlisle nodded in agreement, that little bitch just doesn't want me to be happy. I'm sure of it.

"I will call them and tell them that there is nothing to be concerned about," Carlisle told me firmly. That was one of both the great and worst things about Carlisle, even when they didn't deserve it, he is always willing to give people a chance.

"Like that's going to make any difference Carlisle. Those two just want to throw misery in Jasper's face for the rest of eternity," Rosalie spat out in anger.

"Rosalie, sweetie, I know you're mad but let's not rule out the option that their motivations are through misinterpretation." Esme told her softly.

I was rather surprised that Esme took such a mellow response to Rosalie's angry words but then again the feelings of doubt and disappointment at the possibility that Rosalie is right...Huh. Didn't think that would happen. Seems the golden duo's betrayal of me has well and truly knocked them off the high horses they rode in on.

"Enough of this conversation, you're pissing me off! Jazz man, what are you gonna do about Bella? Besides picturing yourself banging her." Emmett asked with glee.

SMACK!

"OW! Damn woman." Emmett said as Rosalie slapped him once again up the back of his head. That I felt, and it doesn't have anything to do with my being an empath either.

"Don't be so disrespectful of my best friend. Anyway, Jasper, what are you going to do in regards of getting to know Bella? Besides the obvious option of talking to her," Rosalie said.

"It's not that simple Rosalie. Humans may not see them as clearly as vampires but my scars are noticed. Besides, every time I imagine myself actually going to talk to her, I completely blow it," I told her sadly.

"Come on too strong?" She inquired.

"Not unless you think me declaring that I want to hold her in my arms every night for the rest of eternity, as easy going Rose" I replied, far more sarcastically than I planned. A low whistle is released from Emmett.

I turn to Carlisle and Esme. "Carlisle you said to let fate run its course...how the hell do I do that if I can't even sum up the courage to talk to her? Man, I'm a Major from the Civil war and this woman's got me cowering behind the safety point." I babbled out. To my increasing annoyance everyone laughed a little.

"You know when I ask you guys for help, being laughed at, wasn't what I had in mind." I said annoyed.

"Sorry son. Why not go on this school trip? If you're in need of reassurance Esme and I can come along as chaperones for you," Carlisle replied. That damn smile still on his face.

Guess I was going on the school trip then.

A/N: There we go Chapter 1 is complete. Hope you enjoyed it.