Much longer chapter, this one explains a little of how Robin gets pregnant but I will get to that in the next chapter. I wanted to tell this interaction between them because it's important for the story and how they end up becoming a family. Now, the daughter I will rename later on isn't from a one night stand. She is B/R's child and so is their son who comes later on in the story. The Ted part is important too because Robin has a secret life with Barney which Ted doesn't know about. Nobody knows about this interaction after Ted's wedding so if anyone wants to know this isn't about Ted at all, or his relationship with Robin because on her side she isn't in love with him and never was or will be. They are just friends in this story, nothing more. They do kind of date but it's only for Ted after Tracy dies. B/R are together through out this story from this chapter on, the years in the future are all B/R and their secret.

The songs here is "I Promise You (With Everything I Am)" by The Backstreet Boys I think it really goes with their love story in a really real way.

2020

"Wow, can you believe it? Ted Mosby is married. After everything, he finally gets the happiness he's always wanted."

It has been a difficult, lonely four years since they split and went in different directions. This day had been the first time they saw each other in those four years since the divorce. Neither wanted to tell each other much, most of the time at the wedding today they kept a distance between one another because neither knew what to say or where to start in a conversation. It isn't like the old days anymore, where they can easily just go to one another and talk about whatever they needed to. But, now it's a very different time in both of their lives. Robin had been traveling around the world and just came home again for two days, for the wedding before she goes off on another assignment in London.

They weren't saying much to each other during the ceremony but once they got to the reception slowly but surely they started to talk again after so long being apart and not having any contact with each other. In the four years since their divorce it hasn't been easy for either of them to forget or move on from the relationship. But, after a lot of wine and tears on both sides slowly they stopped pitying themselves and started focusing on other things. For Robin it was work and trying to date again and for Barney, for a while he just stopped being himself, went through a tough depression stage (that nobody knew because he kept it from everyone) but eventually he gave up and stopped caring about anything or anyone around him. Al he did during this depression part of his life was stay home after quitting his current job, started drinking more than usual and started dressing down. For someone who's always live his life like it was the end of the world and he had to do everything he could to be awesome so the bad stuff in his life didn't become real, completely stopped being himself.

After the party died down and most of the guests were gone Barney asked Robin to dance with him and surely she was very happy about this offer because she has been missing him lately. It hasn't been easy to go back to trying to be in a stable or happy life but for the first time in four years it felt like the easiest thing in the world just here, in Barney's embrace dancing to a song they both love and had danced to at their own wedding and other times before.

It's in the silences,
the words you never say
I see it in your eyes,
it always starts the same way
It seems like everyone we know,
is breaking up

"I really love this song." Robin says whispering in Barney's ear.

"Me too." He smiles closing his eyes as the song goes on and they keep close dancing softly to the lyrics.

Does anybody ever stay in love, anymore?

I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again
With everything I am

"Do you remember dancing to this at our wedding?" Barney asks, opening his eyes again to look into her eyes. He wanted to know, he had to know if she remembers any part of their wedding and pledging their hearts to one another because for the past four years everything seemed like the world actually did end for him. The divorce was such a blur but they loved each other. Didn't she?

"I do." She says looking back at him with a glow in her eyes and that gorgeous smile that has this special place reserved only for her in his heart and mind.

"We messed up." They said in unison.

He knows, she knows but is it really true?

The song went on and both didn't say anything else right away until it stopped.

ooh I see you look at me,
when you think I'm not aware
You're searching for clues,
of just how deep my feelings are.
How do you prove the sky is blue, the oceans wide?
All I know is how I feel,
when I look into your eyes

I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again
With everything that I am ooh yeah

This song brought back so many memories. Memories they tried desperately to forget, move on and passed from but all this moment does is open that flood gate which either for them causes fights or conversations that always frightened them even when they were married.

I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
(I do my darling I promise you)
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again

With everything I am I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
( I love you I love you I love you I love you)
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again
With everything I am

You're everything I am oh yeah
With everything I am

For a moment after the song ended they just stared into each others eyes with unspoken words that they both considered telling to each other over the last four years. They wanted to call, they wanted to text, they wanted to write and even at one time wanted to surprise each other unexpectedly. Once when Robin was in Mexico on assignment he wanted to go there and surprise her because he had missed seeing her and being around her. And, once for Robin she was on break from work for the holidays and wanted to go see him but didn't know what to say so she doesn't go see him, this was only a few months after the divorce.

"I've missed you. So much. It's been so lonely and quiet here alone with nobody around anymore. The gang isn't together much anymore, they are all too busy to travel into the city. You don't know how many times I wanted to call or go see you. I've been in misery for the past four years, went through a depression, tried to move on by sleeping around again but all it did was make me more miserable." The truth is out there now. After nobody realizing it or noticing that Barney hasn't been happy he finally after so long bursts this out to Robin. The only person he can talk to about this isn't really here anymore but she is now and it needed to be said.

"My god, I've missed you too. I've been so lonely, tried to move on by dating again but it doesn't help matters and only makes me feel worse by how we left things between us." She kept this in for four years, just like Barney and all this being apart from each other, trying to move on and forget doesn't work. Both didn't know it but now they do. Divorcing was a mistake...

"Why didn't we says anything about this sooner?" They don't know the reason for staying away from each other and not saying anything in these four years but getting this out in the open now at a time when both are alone, both literally and at this wedding because everyone has already left the wedding. It's only them, the DJ and a few family members of the bride and groom. The bride and groom had already left for their honeymoon so the entire room was quiet and nobody was around.

"I don't know. I guess I was too afraid to know the answers to why we gave up too soon. But, all I know is. It hasn't been a happy time for me. I thought work would help me forget but it didn't and seeing you..." She pauses. "Now, dancing to one of your favorite songs and remembering the good times we had together is bringing up the things I've been too scared to talk about with anyone because you are the only person I can talk to about this with." They haven't been this open and honest in along time, by saying these things now it was now or never keeping them both still in misery and pain fighting feelings that seem to not ever go away.

"I can't believe this." They aren't dancing anymore, aren't pressed up against each other, close enough to feels their breath against the other ones neck. So, close that the way he holds her with his right hand around her shoulders and upper back and the left hand around her waist. It felt like this feelings never went away, the way he makes her feel by easily gliding her around the dance floor like she's on cloud nine or in space not feeling the ground beneath her feet. It was always this way, he's so graceful and beautiful on his feet and she's so clumsy and ungraceful that it's almost like flying around the dance floor. It was always such a breeze when his arms are about her and he's gliding her around the dance floor so light as a feather.

Now, they are completely silent again after Barney shouts out "I can't believe this."

It took them a while to fully comprehend what was just revealed. This couldn't be true, could she still love him? Could he still love her? Why did they keep this from one another for this long? With any word both would no doubt be there for the other in a heartbeat if the other one knew what was going on in their life. After years being apart are there still feelings there? By the way she grasped onto his body while dancing and the way he held her so close the can feel the other ones breath on their neck. Is it true and why did that keep this from each other for this long?

"Do. Do you have feelings for me? Still" He wanted to make that last word clear to her.

"I've been missing you a lot and have been thinking about you. Of course I love you. I still with every fiber of my being love you. I never stopped, even when I tried and got wasted many time over the first few months after the divorce. My life hasn't been good, I'm not happy and every time it seems to go away it doesn't." She's in love with him. Still, after all these years he does know her best and the way she was with him on the dance floor told him everything he needed to know.

"I love you so much that even when I tried to erase you from my memory, you are still there in the back of my mind with a bottle of Scotch and the video of our wedding. I've tried, I have tried desperately to move on from you knowing that you're happy and being successful doing the things you always dreamed about doing. But, now I know that isn't true is it?" She shakes her head as the tears start to come down quicker.

"More than anything. Barney, I tried to do the same things you did but everything I did brought a memory back of us. I had gone to Paris, that was my first assignment after we finalized our divorce. Paris is the place... Where we wanted to go for our fourth wedding anniversary." Barney finishes her sentence." The tears are growing faster in both of their eyes knowing now after everything they do still love each other.

"Wow." After an hour of tears and confessions they ended their conversation by going back to his apartment that used to be their apartment. The last home Robin knew and loved living in.

"Yeah. Wow, exactly the word I was going for on that last drink." Robin says highfiving him as they laid sweaty and exhausted from the last day they had.

Does anybody ever stay in love, anymore?