CHAPTER 2

They stayed there, hugging for a while.

"I love you." Brenda murmured.

"What?"

"It will be probably gone by tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, you know. But right now I love you."

"It's the afterglow."

"Maybe. Maybe not."

"You're taking a dangerous road, Chief."

"We've been on that road since you came into my office."

"True. Let's just not make it worse."

"Ok."

A few minutes passed by. Each one could feel the other thinking loud and fast. Sharon was the first to break the silence.

"I think I should go."

"Yeah." Brenda showed no signs of moving.

"I don't think I can lift you."

"Then don't."

"Chief? I do. I do have to go."

"Why?"

"It's getting way too comfortable."

"Same here. You know what's odd? That the telephone never rung."

"Yes. Weird indeed."

"So I was thinking… Maybe while we were… fucking, the world ended."

"Just like that? Without even a sound?" Sharon smiled.

"Yeah. Wouldn't it be the greatest news ever?"

"God. Are you or are you not the most egomaniacal person in the world? Before it ended, of course."

"So you agree. The world ended and it's just you and me with lots of candies and no worries?"

"I think I would be worried anyway. I'm just that kind of person."

"You are." Brenda sighed. "And you are also the kind of person who will hate my guts once we're out of here."

"Probably." Sharon admitted.

"Isn't it a shame to have all this and be forced to throw it away?"

"I don't see any gun pointed to your head."

"So now it's just MY head?"

"Last time I checked I wasn't a straight married cop who likes to tease her fellow female officers. But maybe I'm wrong. Feel free to correct me."

Brenda couldn't find an answer so Sharon went on.

"I know… the truth is not so pretty if the world didn't end."

"Why didn't it just end and make all of us so much happier!" The blonde was so serious when she said that, that Sharon laughed and kissed her cheek. Brenda turned her head and took her bottom lip between her teeth. Then licked it and deepened the kiss but Sharon sweetly stopped her.

"I can't."

"You know that outside of that door all chances are against us?"

"Us?"

"Whatever." The blonde pouted.

"Very grown-up of you."

"I don't like being an adult, I didn't ask for it. I didn't want responsibilities. I don't want to give up just because it is right to give up sometimes. I'm not like you!"

"Do you really think I want to give up? Seriously? Do you think you're alone in this? I'm fucking helping you! You know we don't stand a chance!"

"I think you're trying to find yourself a quick way out because this thing we did, we have, is messy and unclear and fucking dangerous. And you hate to be messy. Oh you hate it so much! But you know what? I ruined your suit, your hair is having a very bad day and you smell of damn good sex. You already are messy."

"If I can't help myself who will? You? I don't think so. You're too busy pretending to be naive. And I'm too old to play kindergarten with you."

"Stop this I'm too old bullshit. You are gorgeous and you just made love to me like no one before!" When Sharon smirked Brenda rolled her eyes. "Oh God I'll never hear the end of it!"

"Don't worry, I'll keep your secret."

"What a gentleman!"

"Yes, well, except the man thing."

"I know! Ain't that awesome?" Brenda smiled contentedly.

"I don't know what to say. I'll just ask you to drop the subject. I have a bad feeling."

"Why? Aren't you flattered that you're the only woman I've ever liked that way? Or probably any other way you can think of."

"Actually I'm not. It just makes the mess messier. And now it's time to say goodbye to your toy-boy. Or toy-lesbian."

"Are you a lesbian?"

Sharon stared at her. "Don't you think it's a bit too late to discuss our sexual preferences?"

"Do you think I am?"

"Please don't. I can't have this conversation now."

"You seem so well-informed about this stuff, just help me out a bit."

"Are you trying to keep me here by playing dumb?"

"Maybe yes. But I want to know too."

"Ok… Let me see." Sharon posed as she was thinking very hard. "I fucked you. Twice. And you seemed to enjoy it. But you didn't fuck me." Brenda tried to argue but Sharon shushed her. "You said I love you during the first date and you know what they say about lesbians… But talking about the possibility of some kind of future between us scares the shit out of you. So my very professional conclusion is that the straight you is even with the lesbian you. Satisfied?"

"You didn't count one thing. I do want to fuck you. I want to make love to you."

"You're really eager to get that rainbow flag, aren't you?"

"I'm starting to see the advantages."

"Such as?"

"This." She kissed Sharon lips. "And this." She left feathery kisses on the woman jaw. "And this. And this." Sweetly nipped her earlobe. "And this." Her neck, her cleavage. "And this."

"I think I get the point."

"Good. But I'm not finished." Brenda slipped slowly onto the floor, kissing the Captain's stomach. The Captain's thighs. Spreading her legs. Making room for herself.

"Brenda…"

"Tell me what to do."

"Oh God."

Brenda looked up and gently took Sharon's hand guiding it on her head.

"Show me."

"I can't." But she was lying and she knew it. Brenda felt the grip on her hair tightening and she knew too.

Brenda smiled. "It's ok, baby."

Sharon's taste was different from hers. Brenda didn't know what she was doing, she just let herself get lost in this new, hot, wet, soft sensation. And she loved every second of it, every little move Sharon made, every little moan she could get. When Sharon came it was too soon.

She wanted to taste more, to feel more. She didn't stop and didn't need Sharon's hand anymore because suddenly everything was clear and easy and powerful. She had never been so selfish, she had never been so selfless. And she'd never been so much into anything else in her life.

Sharon trembled hard as she came again, shaking so much that Brenda worried she had done something wrong. She climbed Sharon's body and hugged her tightly. Shushing her lover's sobs with her hands, with her kisses.

"Why are you crying?"

"Because I can't remember why I can't stay here anymore."

Brenda held Sharon, truly for the first time. With every fibre of her body, with every inch of her skin. Wanting nothing else than making her feel safe, protect her.

And knowing that she couldn't. That she had failed and she was the only one to blame.

"I have to tell you something."