Somewhere in between my conversation with Sweets and walking about from what was now a ruined wedding, I realized that I made a mistake.
There is an error in my logic, if it's even logic at all. I told Sweets that I'm not going to break her heart, but I just did. I told Sweets that that it would fade, when I was trying to convince him otherwise. I told him that I didn't want to recover if it meant leaving her, but here I am, leaving her.
I realize quite suddenly that everything is horrible backwards, and so twisted that it will be hard to reverse.
The first step though, is to turn back on my heel.
She was on the steps of the non-church, composing her self.
Hacker was screaming at her.
"Hey, calm down, man."
"Don't you dare tell me what to do."
"Don't tell her what to do."
"Just so you know, if you were any other agent, and the boss didn't fucking love you so much, I'd fire you."
I bit back a smirk, "No you wouldn't."
"Don't push it." Hacker growled, tilting his head back towards Brennan, dismissing me for the moment.
"Hey, Bones,"-
"Booth." Her voice was raw and slightly vulnerable, "I think you should leave. I need to talk to my fiancé." But her words were guarded.
"You know where to find me." I tell her, softly and understandingly, I hope.
"Yes, I do." She then turns her piercing blue eyes away from me.
I turn and try to find Sweets, who is obviously going to be in full-duck mode.
When I find the team, they're all staring expectantly at me.
I don't know what they need, and for once I don't seek it out, or go with my instinct.
I need to sit down, because despite what we all have to say, my nerves are shot and it can wait.
I'm not pressed for time any longer, and I feel how tired and shot I am now that my world isn't crashing down. We are all suspended in the possibilities to come, and the consequences of my actions, that will affect all of us.
So here we sit, silently. Waiting for what's to come. Waiting for our inter locking destiny to finally show it self. Held awake with suspense.