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Yep, you're an asshole.

"Aw... Jake, you've really messed it up this time, stupid mutt!" I couldn't understand what had just happened, one minute she seemed like she was in a trance, I thought she was picking over the bones of the thing she'd had with the blood sucker, again, the next it was like she was looking at me in a whole new way. I hadn't been ready for that.

I certainly hadn't been ready for the way she traced her eyes over my face and chest like she saw me, she saw me! Like she actually wanted me. And I was amazed by how soft and cool her hands felt when she cupped my face; like the other side of the pillow on a hot summer night.

I knew what she'd find when she looked in my eyes; she'd find the desperate, goofy idiot that had hungered for her touch for the whole of the past year. But yet she let me lean into her, drop my mouth to hers, breathe in her intoxicating strawberry and jasmine scent and, wow, how she reacted when I kissed her.

After a few moments I become all too aware of how things were playing out, the way this kiss was going, I was about to start to display all types of unsavory behavior, in the middle of this street, in broad daylight, across from her dad's place. He had guns.

It took all of my effort not to drag her into the near by woods and finish this kiss in a way both of us would regret. Especially when she had yanked at my hair. I'd always viewed Bella as being soft and rounded, no sharp edges, but this kiss was showing me a whole other side of her. I'd waited too long for this and I didn't want to mess it up so, to save both our dignity, I had to try to break the kiss before we both completely lost control.

That was when she looked at me as if I'd slapped her in the head. The tears had quickly sprung to her eyes, and only then did it dawn on me how truly fragile she was, that asshole had really done a number on her. I fumbled trying to find the right words that would make this okay. I saw the rejection in her eyes, no matter what I said now the damage was done.

What had started as the most perfect moment of my life now lay before me in tatters, I had royally messed this one up and it was looking as though I wasn't going to be getting a chance of a re-run. Bella, in her eagerness to escape this nightmarish situation, had almost fallen in a heap on the floor.

In return I had brutally crushed her into my torso cutting off her means of escape and, unwittingly, her source of oxygen. Then, to top it off; preoccupied with my efforts to save some shred of her trust I had begun to loose it myself and started to phase, almost terrifying the life right out of her. No wonder she ran away from me.

Wahoo! Way to go Jake!

I must have knelt there in the middle of the road for almost ten minutes, trying to figure how I could put this god awful mess right, trying to understand how this had gone so badly wrong when I heard the rustling coming from the woods. I shot a glance towards the noise; all the time hoping and praying it was some of the local wildlife, I should have known better; Leah stepped from the dense flora.

"You okay Jake?" I hated how her voice reeked of sympathy.

"How long have you been there Leah?"

"Long enough. I knew she'd do this to you, didn't I say as much?" I could hear the satisfaction seep into her tone.

A growl erupted from deep in my chest. "Leah if you value the flesh on your bones you will stop right there, I'm really not in the mood for I told you so,"

"Jake, you should know... you're flogging a dead one there, the blood sucker really did her over, you deserve better than his broken cast offs."

I didn't feel myself go this time, but I knew blood when I tasted it. Leah hadn't even had time to react and phase herself. I had her by the neck and now I was fighting off the urge to sink my fangs through her smooth amber skin, into her trachea and snuff her out. Full stop.

"Jake... please... don't," her voice trembled, "I just don't want to see you make the same mistakes I have with Sam," she squirmed beneath me, "I should have left when Emily came on the scene, but instead I've hung around, making the whole packs life miserable, hoping that one day he'd see sense, fight his instincts and come back to me"

I loosened my bite. She spoke the truth. I hadn't realized till now how closely my relationship with Bella reflected the one she now had with Sam, they had loved each other so much, and I knew how the bloody fallout of their emotions affected the pack mind. I phased back.

Leah sprung from the ground in one slick move.

"You ever try anything like that again Jake and I swear to god I'll kick your ass!" she ranted whilst wiping her thumb across the decreasing puncture wound in her neck.

"Yeah you think? So, what, you're saying you think I should leave?" I asked.

"Hell, no Jake. You know as well as I do that Sam would never allow it."

"Well what then?"

"All I'm saying is that maybe you should think about broadening your horizons; start to look around yourself Jake. You're a hot guy, you'll find someone else, jeez it's not as if you've even imprinted. Imagine if that were to happen after she fell in love with you, that'd really mess her up." Again, she was right.

We phased and headed back to the reservation. I didn't know how I was going to explain my reaction to Bella. She had been really offended that I had broken the kiss, but I couldn't tell her that I'd caused her so much humiliation because of my unruly hormones.

I still wasn't sure if I could keep myself from phasing under normal day to day situations never mind in a heightened state of excitement and I certainly didn't want to try to find the answer to that great unknown with Bella, she'd never look at me again, even if I didn't kill her. I would have to get a grip on the phasing thing under less stressful conditions before I even thought about going there.

"Dude... please, don't take this the wrong way but, don't go there. It's not something you want to share, trust me." Leah interrupted my line of thought.

"Well, get out of my head bitch!" I would have to try and find a way to block my thoughts when I was in wolf form.

"Where the hell have you two been?" It was Sam.

"What is it oh masterful one?" Leah could be sarcastic as hell.

"We've had a visitor, you two get to my place right away, the others are making their way now."

"Okay boss, we'll be right there."

Leah and I took off as fast as we could run. God she was fast, but I could take her. As we ran I could tell she was trying to get on top of her thoughts about Sam. For months we had been subject to her and Sam's most intimate moments in their relationship, but at least now she was trying to fill her head with random thoughts.

I edged ahead of her as we took the turn into Sam's back yard. She tried to snap at my hind legs, yeah, she was a really bad loser. As we ground to a halt I dug my claws into the ground and flicked out by back legs sending moss, leaves and dirt cascading over Leah's muzzle. We phased.

"Jake you're an a-hole, man." I snickered and shook my head as she tried to pick the mess out of her hair, as I passed her towards Sam's front door I ruffed her hair and poked her in the ribs for a bit.

"Ahem," Sam coughed, "whenever you two are finished messing about, we would like to get started."

Sam would never admit it, even though he had imprinted and was settled with Ems, he hated to see any of us getting too familiar with Leah, but he should have known better that to even think anything of her and me roughing each other up.

We entered Sam and Emily's tiny kitchen and found a space to stand.

oooOoOoOoOooo

It had been all quiet around here since the blood suckers had moved away so we had reduced our patrols around the Reservation and Forks, Paul had picked up an unfamiliar stench whilst patrolling the farthest reaches of our boundaries, we had all grew familiar to the stench of the Cullen's during the time they'd been in Forks. Paul swore; this was different.

"Now, it could be that one of their blood sucker buddies was paying them a visit unaware that they had taken off," Sam piped up, "but I really don't want to take the chance, we're upping patrols. Jake you take the north end of Forks, Jared you take the south, Quill, you and Embry, La Push and First Beach, Leah you're staying in La Push," Leah started to protest,but Sam cut her off, "we need to make sure our people are protected. Paul, you and I will run the perimeter."

Sam might be a kind of serious dude but he always knew how to play to the packs strengths. Keeping Leah in La Push though seemed a bit off, she was one of the fastest in the pack and vicious to a point, surely it made more sense to have her out on patrol and leave one of the guys to do the protecting. I didn't take it up with Sam. It's never good to undermine the alpha.

The way things were suited me anyhow. Bella's place was in the north end of forks. I could have a run round see if she was okay. I'd need to give her a bit more time though.

oooOoOoOoOooo

I had run around Forks for around three hours, picking up traces of the leeches scent here and there but never finding anything solid that I could call a trail. Sam was probably right it would have been one of their blood sucker buddies stopping by for a visit. I had probably over done the patrolling bit under the circumstances but at least I had given myself enough time to build up the courage to face Bella and get my story straight.

I finished off in the woods around the back of Charlie's, it was only around ten or eleven when I made my way into the yard at the side of their house. It looked like the place was in darkness, then again I could hear the TV booming away in the living room, Charlie must be watching the highlights of the game from earlier.

I listened for a few moments but I couldn't here any other sounds, apart from the odd groan from the central heating system, so I guessed Bella was already in bed. She wasn't that into sport so it was unlikely she would be watching TV with her Dad.

There was a tree in the side yard, its branches led to the window high up on the side of the house. I could climb up and see if she was still awake or reading. A tree like this posed no challenge for me to climb now.

When I reached the bedroom window I realized I had been wrong about the place being in darkness. I could see a dim light escaping from the edge of the blinds. Cool, she was awake.

I reached out to gently tap at the misty pane of glass that separated us. That's when I heard her. She was sobbing and gasping, really going for it. It stopped me dead in my tracks.

I was no better than him...