Disclaimer: All recognisable characters belong to J.K. Rowling. No money is being made and no copyright or trademark infringement is intended.
Author: Chips
Pairing: Harry/Lavender
Warnings: het: male/female relationships, adult language, violence, peril, character death—not main character, sexual situations, and AU.
Summary: Though they have never shared more than twenty words before their fifth year at Hogwarts, Lavender Brown and Harry Potter have always shared a silent connection—an understanding of sorts—that what someone shows does not always reflect who they truly are. The night before they're scheduled to take their O.W.L.s, Lavender has a vision of a black grim dying. She decides to stop that from happening, because she knows what Sirius's death would do to Harry. In return, he protects her reputation and they find themselves breaking through the barriers and masks, where they can just be themselves. Enemies beware: Harry and Lavender are ready to do whatever it takes to protect one another.
Among the Colours: Part The Second
Lavender shot upright in bed, chest heaving and sweat making her pyjamas stick to her skin. She shivered as the cackling laughter seemed to resound and echo through the closed bed-curtains.
"Harry."
She wrapped her arms around her knees and tugged them to her chest, burying her face in her knees as she tried to regain control. That sound—Harry's scream—it kept echoing through her head: agonised and dying.
"Focus, come on. Focus, Lavender," she muttered as she used Occlumency to sort through the vision, separating the emotions from the visual representation. She would approach this as she had every other vision she'd gotten over the past three years, as a puzzle that needed solving.
Visions weren't exactly straightforward. No, fate would never be that kind to those who saw beyond the veil. Lavender was just grateful that her visions stayed in this world, unlike Lovegood's—Luna Saw into other dimensions, and Lavender didn't think she could bear that. She adored being loved, being the centre of attention, and being shunned would surely break the tenuous hold she sometimes had on reality.
That was why she wouldn't let any of the other girls badmouth Luna Lovegood. . . . Lavender might've been stuck with that poor girl's Sight.
"Marble hallways. They looked familiar." Her lips pursed and her brow furrowed as she shook the lingering remnants of sleep away. Black marble hallways . . . the Ministry! She'd seen them three summers ago when she visited her father. The Wizengamot had been in session, passing some law or other, she couldn't really remember which one at the moment.
She grabbed a silver brush off her nightstand; the back was engraved with her initials and bore a hand-painted lavender. It'd been a present for her fifteenth birthday from her older brother, Charles. Brushing her hair helped her to think, the monotonous action allowing her to focus on the pieces. It was yet another thing Hermione criticised her for.
"Glass orbs, like crystal balls, but not." She nibbled her lower lip and shifted her long, blonde hair to fall across her chest so she wouldn't have to stretch her arms so far to work the brush through it. "Crystal balls . . ." The brush stopped in mid-stroke and her eyes widened. "Prophecy orbs!"
She almost dropped the brush, but then her grip tightened and she resumed untangling the golden locks. "The Hall of Prophecy." She nodded, that had to be it. Now, what about the dog? Why would a dog be at the Ministry?
Lavender gasped, brush falling from her limp fingers as years of clues and gossip consolidated in her mind to create a clear picture. The Fat Lady—torn to shreds . . . "Sirius Black's an Animagus." Black was Harry's godfather, she knew that much already, having overheard Ron and Hermione speak about it last year. That explained it then. Sometime tomorrow, Black would die in the Ministry.
"But why?" He was a wanted criminal—though he must be innocent, otherwise Harry wouldn't scream like that—haunted—when he died. "Wait a minute . . . Harry was there. So Black followed Harry?" She sighed and clenched the sheets. "Why would Harry be at the Ministry?"
"Stupid, girl," she snapped. "Why else would he be at the Ministry? Voldemort, of course." She slid across the bed and then threw the covers back, sliding to the floor and pulling on a pair of bunny slippers. "Those visions he's been having. Voldemort must lure him there tomorrow. There's no way Black would be stupid enough to go to the Ministry—unless Harry was in danger." She winced at the insult to Harry, her love, but it was true.
Harry was brave, honourable, but emotionally weak. He let people walk all over him, and if Voldemort was planting horrors directly into his head, there's no way he'd be able to realise the difference.
Lavender parted the hangings on her bed, grasped her wand, and then tip-toed out of the room, more thankful than she could ever express that the house-elves oiled the doors frequently. The last thing she wanted was for Hermione to wake up and demand—in her snooty prefect voice—where Lavender thought she was going at this hour of the night.
Carefully, fearful of being caught out of bounds, because losing points for Gryffindor was never a good thing, she headed up toward the boys' dorms. She passed the first door, which was marked "7" much to her amusement. It seemed the boys' dorms were the opposite of the girls'. Then again, girls were more apt to appreciate the scenery from the top of the tower.
She paused outside the door with the large brass "5" on it. Pureblood ladies didn't sneak into boys' dorm rooms in the middle of the night, and they most certainly didn't do so in their pyjamas. She might be known as the "Gossip Queen" and the "Sexiest Girl in Gryffindor," but she knew that opinions changed faster than the Headmaster ate Lemon Drops.
Her reputation was one of the few things that mattered to her, and she really didn't want her title changing to "Whore of Gryffindor" or some such nonsense if she got caught in the boys' dorm.
Lavender shook her head and sighed. "Harry'd never let that happen." With that belief firmly in mind, she pushed open the door, slipped inside, and then closed it behind her.
The room was round, with five beds evenly spaced around it, and a door off to the side obviously led to a communal bathroom. It was identical to her room, pretty much.
Now, which bed was Harry's? There were sketch pads and bits of charcoal on the floor next to the first, and she bypassed it and the next, which had to be Seamus's—none of the other boys would be tasteless enough to leave a copy of Playwitch lying around.
She squinted, ignoring the voice in her head—which sounded identical to her mother—that said she'd get wrinkles. Fanged geranium. Chudley Canon's jersey. Those had to be Neville and Ron's beds, which left the one in the middle as Harry's.
"I better be right," she whispered as she approached the bed. She didn't even want to imagine how mortified she'd be if she snuck into the wrong bed. Neville would be a gentleman about it, and embarrassed as she would be, but the other three boys in the room were liable to act like lustful cretins.
Taking a deep breath, Lavender pressed a hand to the closed hangings, shocked that they weren't Locked. She curled her hand around the break in the hangings and entered them, allowing them to fall closed behind her.
She'd guessed right.
Harry lay on the bed, thrashing, sheets tangled around his legs. As he struggled, moans falling from his lips, they refused to release him. Tears fell from his closed eyes, pouring down his cheeks in rivulets.
"No, no," he whimpered as his nails tore at the sheets.
"Lumos." The tip of her ash wand lit up, and she couldn't hold in a gasp at the sight of the red and brown stains on the sheets. Several of his nails had torn off, and he bled onto the bedding. "Oh, Harry."
She wasn't sure whether the thought that he might be locked in his mind—in a nightmarish vision—was worse, or the possibility that pain was such a common part of his life he could sleep through tearing his nails. As a pureblood lady, it was her duty to keep her nails in pristine condition, and she knew how bloody painful it was when one broke. The pain of one tearing away had to be exponentially worse. . . .
Lavender leaned forward, hair slithering from behind her shoulder to pool on his chest. "Harry, wake up." She placed a hand on his shoulder and shook lightly, not wanting to startle him awake; that would be dangerous—he might think he was trapped in the nightmare and attack her. "Harry." She shook him again, but there was no response.
She gulped as she realised that she'd have to physically get in bed with Harry. If entering a boys' dorm in the middle of the night was frowned up, this was taboo, something pureblood ladies could get disowned for. Still, her parents were somewhat liberal, and she doubted they'd disown her, even if she somehow got caught.
"For Harry," she whispered as she gathered her Gryffindor courage. Lavender climbed onto the bed and ran one hand through his hair, letting it rest against his cheek before smacking it lightly. "Harry, wake up!" she commanded.
He moaned and began thrashing more wildly.
Lavender pursed her lips and pulled her hand away; it was wet from Harry's tears. "I'm not going to just sit here and watch you suffer," she hissed. She twirled her wand, pointed it at his hands, and said, "Episkey." To her satisfaction, the wounds healed and his nails grew.
Now, for the hardest part.
Throwing all caution to the wind in favour of helping Harry, Lavender swung one leg over his body and straddled his hips. She cupped his face with both her hands, preventing him from thrashing about, and then pressed her forehead to his. "Let me help you, Harry. Please, let me in."
She took a deep breath, sent a quick prayer to the old gods, and then whispered, "Legilimens." When her father had hired her a private tutor over the summer, he'd expected her to learn both Occlumency and Legilimency, regardless of her assertions that she didn't want to access others' minds as she had enough to deal with in her own. For not the first time in her life, she was grateful her father was so demanding and thorough.
Lavender's consciousness slid into Harry's mind and right through his shields, which looked like they'd been clawed apart from the outside. They shone vermillion, seeping imaginary blood into his head. "Whoever did this will pay," she growled before pushing deeper as gently as she could.
His mind was shrouded in mist, swirling about in eddies, casting shadows as she moved forward. "Harry?"
The barest hint of a whimper sounded.
"Harry!" She moved onward, determined to figure out why he was trapped in his mind and do her utmost to prevent it from ever happening again.
"No, no, not Sirius."
She paused for a moment, but all that she could hear now was a soft whimpering, the sound of someone who knew that they were helpless—knew that no one would offer assistance. "I'm coming, Harry!" she called.
As soon as the words left her lips, a pressure bore down on her. With each step she took, it grew, becoming so heavy that she could barely draw breath. "What's happening?" she gasped. A sharp pain tore through her forehead, and she battled against the force, diligently keeping it from entering her mind as she pressed onward.
Her tutor had warned her about what would happen if someone successfully invaded her mind while she was in another person's head. She'd lose everything she was inside of Harry's mind, leaving her body to wither away like a dry husk, as if she'd been Kissed by a Dementor. She shivered, erected shields on top of her shields, and turned the corner in the maze that'd appeared.
"Why does no one help?"
"Harry! Let me help! I want to! Where are you?" she called, breaking into a sprint as she attempted to follow the echoes to their source.
"He's hurting. Stop hurting him!"
Lavender spun around another corner and sped forward, leaping over a ditch filled to the brim with spikes—torchlight from the wall of the maze glinted off the tips of the spikes, revealing a purple liquid: poison, a paralyzing agent, each would be equally damaging.
"Harry, where are you? I promise to help! I'll get you out, I swear it!" Her magic rippled as she made the vow; it rippled out, passing through the walls of the maze.
"So warm," he whispered. "Do you promise?" The words were soft and low, innocent of guile, as if the speaker were a child and not a boy on the brink of manhood.
"I swear on my magic that I will help you," Lavender said, meaning every word. This time her magic rippled out in a visible wave, smashing through the walls and tearing them down until they were nothing but rubble.
"Come to me."
The rubble vanished, as if it, and the maze, had never been there. Lavender cocked her head to the left, finally sure of her direction, and tore off running. Her feet ached, the bunny slippers not made to support her arches, and her calves burned. She'd been exhausted before going to sleep, and that exhaustion carried over. Her chest heaved with each deep breath she dragged in, each more desperate than the last as the pressure became greater, restricting her air.
She kept her eyes focused on the ground, unsure if other traps would materialise as she approached the centre of Harry's mind. One more step. One more step. Until . . .
"You came! You really came!"
"Of course I came, Ha—" Lavender almost swallowed her tongue when she glanced up to see the Dark Lord holding a wand to Harry's neck. Harry crouched on the ground, like a dog, chains attached to a collar keeping him there.
"Not what you were expecting to see?" Voldemort asked, eyes glinting in the darkness like burning rubies. "Silly, foolish Gryffindor—racing into trouble, desperate to save the day." He ran his wand up Harry's cheek, narrowing his eyes on her.
Lavender choked, hand rising to grasp at her throat, which sealed beneath the weight of Voldemort's presence. She pointed her own wand at her throat, hoping to cancel the spell—something, anything! She hadn't come this far to fail and leave Harry trapped as the Dark Lord's pet.
"It amuses me, you see, how Dumbledore thinks Potter will save you all. How everything thinks he will save you all." His smirk melted as he burst into a bought of malicious laughter. "Oh wait, they don't. I'm not alive. The great Albus Dumbledore and Harry Potter are nothing more than two attention-seeking liars."
Her legs fell out from under her and she collapsed to her knees. It took all her concentration to keep her shields up and attempt, just attempt, to drag in a little oxygen.
"You're a silly girl, just like his mother was, thinking you have the power, the right, to stand against me. Me!"
She fell back onto her bottom, balance so compromised that she couldn't hold herself on her knees any longer. The jarring sensation cast a veil over her eyes, and, for a moment, she saw a thick, sickly green chain connecting Voldemort's hand to Harry's neck. What in the—
"Did you know, little Gryffindor, that Potter's been screaming inside his head for help all year long?" He chuckled when she shook her head. "No? I didn't realise the connection at first, but it wasn't long before the potential of the situation became apparent." He patted Harry on the head, a sneer on his face. "Severus, my sneakiest serpent, made the task so much easier."
Imaginary blood flashed before her eyes, seeping from torn mental wounds.
Snape, the bastard! She'd never liked the Potions teacher; something about him rubbed her the wrong way. However, she hadn't outright loathed him, as many of the Gryffindors were prone to do. Now, though, she could feel the hatred and disgust bubbling inside her.
Her fingers fell limp, her ash wand rolling from her grasp to land on the floor. Black spots appeared before her vision, and she knew it wouldn't be long now, not long at all.
"Did you know, little Gryffindor, that the human body can only survive for just over three minutes without oxygen before the brain starts shutting down, causing irreparable damage, then death?" Voldemort hissed as he stepped away from Harry and walked toward her.
Tears gathered in her aureate eyes, making them look like molten gold before spilling down her cheeks. She'd failed. . . .
"It never fails to amuse me, the suffering of others'. But I'll admit I have a weakness for Potter's suffering. It's so—beautiful. Yes, beautiful." He nodded, as if approving of his word choice, tongue clicking against his teeth as if he could taste Harry's suffering. "He loves her, you know. Lily Potter, his mother. And you, Lavender Brown, yes, he loves you as well."
Voldemort reached out and stroked her cheek, before feathering his hand through her hair. She shuddered and flinched, but that only made him fist her hair and yank cruelly until her neck was pulled at an unnatural angle.
She'd failed Harry. . . .
"All the flowers in Potter's life will wither away and die. I'll make sure of that," he said as he smiled, eyes lit with unholy glee. "And he'll watch helplessly as you die, just like the night his beloved mother died. Useless. Worthless. Broken."
The three words stabbed into her like Cutting Curses. No! Even if she died, she couldn't allow Harry to believe that. He wasn't worthless. He wasn't!
She tore her head from Voldemort's grip, tears streaming from her eyes and mouth opening in a silent scream as hair ripped from her scalp in clumps. She collapsed on her side, eyes locking with Harry's.
He was in there. She could tell. His eyes might normally look like emeralds, but, at the moment, they looked like diamonds: hard and cold. They bore into Voldemort's back, and then flickered down to her face.
It took every bit of remaining strength she had, but this was the right time. It was finally the right time.
I love you, she mouthed.
An audible crack broke the silence, reverberating through the floor. She blinked. The sickly green chain—she could see a fissure in it.
Voldemort leapt to his feet. "What do you think you're—?"
The floor shook and buckled, magic speeding through it so quickly that it was causing a mental earthquake.
She felt the pressure leave her and gasped in several desperate breaths. It hurt, burned; her throat felt raw and torn open. She pushed herself to her knees and then scrabbled forward, fingers curling around her wand.
Ignoring the blood she could feel running down her scalp, she crawled to Harry's side, thoughts shooting through her mind. The chain that attached him to Voldemort, they had to break it. She fell against Harry's side and entwined their fingers before wrapping them around her wand.
Ash with a phoenix feather core—hopefully it'd be compatible enough for Harry's magic to help her.
She angled their hands, tendons pulling in her wrist from their low position, but it was the best she could hope for since Harry was bound to the floor.
"Blasting Curse?" Harry whispered against her ear.
Lavender nodded, thanking the old gods that she wouldn't have to articulate her plan. She wasn't sure if she'd be able to force more than the incantation through her throat.
"On three," he said. "One, two—"
"Reducto!" they shouted in unison.
Lavender winced and curled into a ball, clutching her throat as the sickly green chain turned to dust. Her eyes followed the trail, and she found herself staring at the hem of Voldemort's robes, which disintegrated as she watched.
"Don't think you've won, Potter. This is only the beginning. You won't be keeping your precious flower long," he snarled before vanishing from Harry's mind.
"Are you all right?" Harry asked as he got to his feet and then offered her his hand. She nodded once and then accepted it, stumbling when he pulled her to her feet. "Easy," he whispered as he wrapped his arms around her and held her to his chest.
He pulled her wand from her slack grip and gestured to her scalp. "May I?" She nodded and smiled at him after he healed her with a soft "Episkey." She wouldn't be the first to admit that was one of the most useful spells he'd taught the DA.
Harry kept one arm wrapped around her waist and guided her toward the edge of his mind. He winced and tightened his grip when he saw the gaping wounds. "That bastard! I suspected he wasn't really teaching me, but I didn't realise . . ." He sighed and ran one hand down her cheek, washing away the taint of Voldemort's touch. "Can it be fixed?"
Lavender made sure his eyes locked on her lips before mouthing her answer. Tomorrow.
"I can wait," he whispered. "You saved me from Voldemort when I was trapped in my own mind. I don't know why you're here, or how, really, but I'm grateful." He ran his thumb over her plump lower lip. "Thanks for coming when no one else did."
She smiled up at him, straight white teeth shining in the darkness.
I always will, she mouthed.
He grinned at her then, an honest grin that lacked the artifice most pureblood males smiled with. It was beautiful, priceless, and surrounded her with warmth that she could feel to her bones.
"In all the rubbish he spewed, Voldemort was right about one thing," he whispered as he stared into her eyes.
Lavender cocked an eyebrow and tilted her head to the right. She felt a blush suffuse her cheeks, and then nothing, as his forehead pressed against hers.