Okay, so this story is written in Beck's point of view. Sorry if he seems a little OOC...

Disclaimer: Yeah, because Dan Schneider is really a 13 year old girl.

That's really all I have to say... so just read it already! :P

I decide it's time to go visit you. You're right nearby me, but somehow, it only makes me more sad to know that I never seem to have time for you.

I walk down the path. Open the familiar wrought-iron gate. There are plenty of others here, but my eyes go straight to you.

I take a deep breath and walk inside. I sit down next to you.

"Hey," I say quietly. You don't answer. You never do. "I've missed you," I say. "So much."

"I can't believe you just left us like that. It ruined us. All of us. Even Tori was upset, and you know how much she didn't like you."

Again, you say nothing. You always were a stubborn one.

"And the rest of them- Cat is just broken. We had to take her to a fucking mental hospital! We had to have her locked up! Robbie is the one she recognizes the most. But she's- she's broken. I don't think she's ever going to get better."

I want to take your hand. I want to hold you again. But I know I can't. It's too late for that.

"Andre is still sort of shocked, I think. Even though it's been a year."

"But I still just can't understand why. Why would you do that to yourself? I know your parents hurt you, and they hated you, but I was always here for you. I don't know what else was going on in your life, but you could have told me. I would have helped you."

I take out a letter and lay it down on your grave. They would understand once they read it.

"Now... I just can't live life like this anymore. Wishing I could go back in time, to see what was going on. To help you. I can't live my life missing you, every second of every day. I know I'll never find another like you."

I take out the gun, hold it to the side of my head.

"I love you."

I swear, I almost made myself cry writing this one! ;(

But I think the next one isn't going to be Bade. And probably I should lay off the suicide a little... hmm... maybe. :)

Anyway, I'll probably keep writing a few chapters today, cuz I'm feeling angsty today...

Feel free to tell me any ideas for future chapters!

See that little button down there? His name is Review Button. He's getting lonely. Maybe you should go introduce yourself! :)

P.S. If any of you are reading my other story, Jade Meets Beck, I'm probably gonna update soon, I already have the chapter written.