Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump, thump, thump.
I smacked my head against the brick wall behind me, unintentionally creating a beat.
The noise is going round
I can't escape it now
And I'm surrendering
Laying on the ground
I slid down the wall, not minding the cold concrete. I was giving up. There were voices going around my head, all pointing out the problems with my life.
Oh why-e-a-e-ay
Oh why-e-a-e-ay
I started crying, wondering why.
Why had this happened?
And then I remembered the people who were worse off than me, and felt selfish. After all, I have a family, a house, friends, but just not them.
My head is spinning round
And I can't breath
I'm trying to be there
Be the one you need
Put your comfort in front of my own li-e-aye-e-aye-f
I tried to be perfect, tried to put them all in front and always helped with problems.
But, being the odd one out, it was going to happen eventually, anyways.
But maybe this was a bit too sooner than I would prefer.
But maybe
You would let me die
I sighed, looking around the empty hallway, and wiped the rest of my tears away.
I stood up, and told myself I didn't need them.
Oh, but I did.
Not trying to fall apart
Building up these walls
Trust is something gone,
Don't need it no more
I try to catch a breath
But it's taking me
Oh why-e-a-e-ay
I was already building defenses so I wouldn't be hurt so bad again, but one thought of them and the wall crumbles.
I tried to stop crying, but the tears kept coming, along with these horrible thoughts. I started hyperventilating, trying to stop.
Oh why-e-a-e-ay
My head is spinning round
And I can't breath
I'm trying to be there
Be the one you need
Put your comfort in front of my own life
I sobbed, laying on the ground as I thought more and more about it. Time can heal anything but this, for the more time, the worse I felt.
But maybe
You would leave me in the rain
Alone with tears streaming down my face
Trying just to have a friend,
You said it would never end
You'd leave me sitting there
Crying, pulling out my hair
I tracked at my hair, and told myself to get a grip. I decided to pack up, for they expected me to leave by morning.
I still remember the last words that they said, before I ran out crying into the hallway, where I am now, where no one came to make sure I was ok.
The words burned in my mind as I stood up, and walked towards the guest room, where I was staying. I saw a suit case, and the fact they had already packed sent me sobbing once more.
But maybe,
Just maybe ..
You would let me die
"Seto, i apologize by saying that from here on out, you are no longer a part of Team Crafted. I hope you have enjoyed your time here."
