Dear diary, 28 December
Today is my birthday. You know what? It is a very happy day, but I am crying. There is this empty feeling in my heart, which is making the lump in my throught more and more prominent. I am alone, completely, in this world. Mom and dad died when I was younger, Anna doesn't understand me and my friends? I have none. I only had one friend in my life , jack but he left me , without even saying goodbye .they say friends are not there to give us pain … I say if friends are not there to hurt us then what are they for ? Today while checking my phone, I saw I did not have even a single wish; Anna is away for the weekend. I felt so lonely, that was the first time, I understood that darkness can be charming and loyal more than light .why so? I don't know. All I did was cry silently as I stared at my mobiles screen, with no one but darkness to give me company.
Some say but don't believe that darkness is alive, but only I know "yes darkness is alive "yes it's comforting lovable. And also it is the only thing in my heart after jack left 2 years ago. Don't people say that I am cold? Don't they say that my heart is frozen? Don't they call me snow queen? Well now they know. So what if I am? I don't care. I love the darkness. After all what goes best together except dark and cold?
Only I know what it is to be hated, to be weak and bullied, to yearn for a friend a family. But I only ask why? Why jack why? You broke my heart. The least you can do is telling me why?
Anna sometime asks me why do I write so depressing stuff in my diary , but then again how can a broken girl like me be happy ? It's impossible. From the things I have written it's quite clear that I hate my life. Even if I am found dead tomorrow I guess no one will even -…
Elsa stopped writing, tears were falling thick and fast from her eyes.
She had always been the weaker one; she always used to hide behind her mask. Jack had been the only friend she ever had had and now he too was gone why? Was there something wrong that she had done? Today she had woken up in the middle of the night thinking that someone might have called out to her .but then she thought it was quite impossible.
Tomorrow she was starting at Burgess performing arts university, hopefully here she might even fit in or may have some friends …. Friends... that sounded so forien to her. After jack had left she had been a wreck, she even now shut herself in sometimes, she had been miserable. But why? Couldn't she be a bit stronger? Why couldn't she have been a bit more independent? Well maybe did not have all those answers but one thing was clearly evident …
Elsa opened her diary and wrote down in her neat cursive handwriting only five words but it changed every thing
… It's time for a change.
Looking in the mirror she saw a girl with very pale skin, equally pale blonde hair, ocean blue eyes highlighted by the purple eye shadow with a secretive smile on her magenta painted lips. Taking her bag and smoothening her dress she thinking
Burgess Academy here I come
She left her room, were a single photo of her and jack making a snowman stood on the bed side table
thank you specially to frostbite 682 for her support this chapter is dedicated to her