Hitsugaya x Hinamori

This is an awesome pairing, but Momo is too in love with Aizen to notice how Hitsugaya really feels. Hitsugaya's POV.

Disclaimer: I don't own Bleach…unless you count Tide, in which case I own 300 fl. oz. of bleach!

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That Hurt Me

I couldn't change her. Not that I wanted to, I just wanted to change the way she thought of me…thought of him. She was always blind to his deceit, blind to his lies. I would never lie to her. I would never deceive her. Still, she didn't love me, and that hurt me.

At first I tried to stop it from happening. I tried to keep Momo away from Aizen, but how long can a vice-captain be apart from her captain? They work together. Eventually, I gave up and stood back to watch my world crumble around me. As everything fell apart, she was smiling and laughing with the love of her life, that wasn't me, and that hurt me.

I loomed in the shadows as she fell head-over-heels in love with a man I didn't trust. I've always told her I'd protect her, but when she really needed protection, I just let it happen. She kept on shoving me away when I tried to help her, and that hurt me.

Sometimes I would think she didn't love me because I was small, and she thought I was too weak. I told myself I just needed to prove myself for Hinamori to take me seriously. That was when I was in denial. I told myself those things so I could forget the real reason. I denied the truth so I didn't have to face reality: Momo – my bed-wetter Momo – loved somebody else. She reminded me my denials were failing every time I saw them together, and that hurt me.

When she found Aizen dead, I heard her scream and ran to her as fast as I could. I wanted to help her. I wanted her to let me in like she used to. I expected Hinamori to sob into my arms and let me comfort her. I expected her to tell me she was sorry she was foolish and listen when I told her I loved her. She didn't. Once again, I had to face reality. She sobbed, but not into my arms. She did not let me comfort her, she did not let me in, she did not apologize for being foolish, and she couldn't listen when I told her I loved her, because I never said it. She held her blade to my throat. She called me a liar and a murderer. She told me she hated me, and that hurt the most.