Finally the day had come. They were going to start college at Seattle University, they had all agreed to go to the same college so they wouldn't have to split up and could still do the show. Freddie packed up the bag and sighed, slipping a picture of him and Carly into his bag before zipping it up. Looking around his room he had to admit that even though he had suffered so much embarrassment at the hands of his mother he would miss it.
Even though he was going to college he had tried to distance himself from Carly and Sam to much. Carly and his relationship had been tarnished, not just by her leaving him for Sam but the lies that had built up with them over the years. Freddie smiled as his mother came in.
After he reassured her that he had everything packed he headed out into the hall and almost ran into Carly and took a deep breath.
"Hey Carly" he said softly, "Sam" he said in a not so friendly tone.
"Hey Freddie" Carly replied, narrowing her eyes at his tone "Are you okay Freddie?" she asked.
Shrugging it off Freddie smirked "Well, of course I am Carly" he said and started to walk away "I'll always be happy, as long as your happy" he finished with a whisper, so they couldn't hear him.
Sam, oblivious as usual, took a bit of her Fat Cake and looked at her girlfriend "What's his problem?" she asked.
Carly opened the door to the Shay apartment and threw her bag down "Don't worry about it" she said and slumped down on the couch. "It's fine" she lied and closed her eyes,. Her consciousness sneered at her as she thought about the newest lie she'd had to tell to keep up with the others. She knew that her relationship with Sam had been build on lies, and now her and Freddie's were being smothered by the lies between them. She knew Freddie wasn't okay, that he felt jealous.
"I want to back in time" She muttered as Sam sat down, "And fix everything"
Sam looked at her strangely but decided not to breach the subject, instead calmly suggesting "You know you can talk to me, right cupcake?" and smiled in relief when Carly nodded her head.
Meanwhile down in the lobby Freddie headed to the door and struggled to hold his thoughts back, he had lied to Carly AGAIN. "All I do anymore is lie to her" he muttered as he headed to the parking lot and got in his car, not sure where he was going but needing to go somewhere.
Pulling into the Groovy Smoothy he leaned back in his seat and allowed his thoughts free roam, they immediately stampeded through his brain like an angry herd, eager to be heard. Freddie had lied, again, to her.. But what was he supposed to say? That watching her with the woman that hat tormented him from the day they had met didn't shatter his heart every time? That he wanted to punch Sam, make her hurt as badly as he hurt?
Gritting his teeth he opened the car door and walked into his childhood hangout. "Hey T-Bo" he said walking up and ordering a strawberry Smoothy.
"Hey Freddie" T-Bo greeted casually "Where's the other two?"
Freddie winced and sighed "It's complicated" he said simply and T-Bo nodded in understanding.
Taking his smoothy he walked back out to his car and sat there for a moment before clicking on the radio. Every song on every station seemed to be the same old crap about getting the girl of his dreams so he shut it off "Even in music they get the girl" he growled before taking another drink of his smoothy.
Freddie blamed himself, if he was honest with himself, but he blamed Sam too. Forcing his thoughts back to other things he put the smoothy in the cup holder and resolved to talk to Carly and be honest this time. He needed to tell her soon or he felt like he was going to go insane.
Back at the Shay apartment Carly looked up at Sam as the blonde girl raided the fridge "I wonder where Freddie went" she asked casually.
Sam looked at her like she was sick and grinned in excitement as she pulled out some ham "Who cares?" she asked, "I mean, the best thing you ever did was end it with that nub" she said.
Carly looked up sharply "Don't talk about Freddie like that!" she said suddenly and blushed softly "I mean um, he's a good guy.. Whatever girl gets him will be lucky to have him" she said softly.
Sam stopped eating for a moment "Do you still love him?" she asked, crossing her arms under her chest and looking at her "Do you still love that nub?" she asked curiously.
Carly shifted in her seat "I don't know" she said softly "I love you... But in a way I love him" she said "Does that make sense?"
Sam nodded and sighed, she'd feared something like this would happen, she couldn't expect Carly to just forget all that had happened between Freddie and her. "It's fine cupcake" she said "I understand" she said honestly.
Walking over to the couch she sat next to Carly and smiled "But lets not think about that right now" she whispered softly and pressed her lips against Carly's. Closing her eyes the brunette kissed her girlfriend softly and wrapped her arms around her, trying to lose herself in the kiss. The kiss made everything seem so simple, it was just them and nothing else just like it should be.
Freddie walked in just as Sam had crawled on top of Carly and had began kissing her deeply, more passionately. Before he could control himself he slammed the door on them and headed back to his apartment.
Sam looked up as she saw Freddie slam the door, she quickly crawled off Carly and sighed "I'm going to go talk to him" she said to a confused looking Carly "Stay here"
Walking out the door she quickly walked across the hall to Freddie's door and opened it. "You should really lock your doors" she called out as she slipped into the doorway.
Freddie appeared in the doorway of his room, not looking amused, "What's the point? If Carly wanted to talk to me she'd just have you break in for her" he said dryly.
Sam shrugged "Okay you got me there" she said, "What's with you lately?" she asked curiously as she continued to walk towards him.
"You stay away from me" he warned, his voice strained as if he was holding himself back.
"What's your problem Freddork?" she asked and ignored her warning, standing toe to toe with him now, "You got a problem with me? That it?" she asked.
Freddie closed his eyes, resisting the urge to hit her "Listen to me" he said calmly "I don't want to talk to you right now" he warned again, images of her touching Carly.. Kissing Carly.. Holding Carly.. "Please"
"No I'm not going anywhere" she said, "Is this about Carly? Because she left you for-" She didn't get to finish the sentence as a blinding pain hit her eye and suddenly she was sitting on her butt.
"I told you to go away" said a standing Freddie, panting with his fist clenched and outstretched. Suddenly it made sense.
"You hit me!" she said in surprise "What the hell dude?"
"You want to know what's wrong with me?" he asked, just barely holding in his anger, "You, for all the years we've known each other, have constantly abused me both mentally and physically, but I let it happen because I didn't care, I was focused on the girl I've loved since I met her" he paused to take a breath, not noticing Carly walking in to see what the noise was, "You've smashed my possesions, do you know how many Pear phones I've hard to go through since I met you? But again, it didn't matter because I loved Carly and that was what I focused on"
Closing his eyes he tried not to let his anguish come through as he spoke again "And finally she gave me a chance, and I was ecstatic.. and it worked out! We were working, I had the love of my life as my girlfriend and I was in seventh heaven.. But no, you saw I was happy and so you had to act, you took my happiness away just like you always do" he said "Now get out, I'll do iCarly with you for the fans, but I want nothing to do with you Sam" he finished, turning to slam his door, never noticing Carly standing there.. Her mouth covering her hand.
Note: So that's chapter two, I was asked to continue it and I can't deny a reader. Plus I had a good idea for another chapter. I apologize if there's any grammar errors. I'm working on getting a beta reader to help, so if anyone is a beta reader feel free to leave me a message. Oh and I don't own iCarly.