Little note: I hate the name i gave to the singer. If any of you is good with names, please help?
I'm also thinking at writing on Bellas POV. Any thoughts on that too?
I couldn't stop staring. My mouth was dry and my heartbeat was so fast that i could hear it, she was something else. i think that's the expression you use when you not sure what word you would use that was enough to describe the wave of lust that crashed all over me, i just stand there looking at her feeling absurd that i desire for someone that i didn't knew, for a singer. How cliche is that!? That a singer that probably flirts with everyone is able to make my heart skip a beat when the boy I was with for 3 years wasn't ever able to do it.
The concert dragged for me that moment on. I could only look at her, admire how her eyes sparkle, how her nose wrinkle while singing how her body moved at the rhythm of the music. i couldn't even listen to what she was saying. I believe that my brain just stopped working after what happened. All the sudden i feel a hand around my wrist, in a very tight grip when i look to who the hands belong to a pair of piercing blue eyes stare at me, with tiny speckles of anger. i think i poke the pulls me trough the mass wave of people towards the exit "Are you out of your mind?" he asks waving his hands around "why did you run away?You could've gotten hurt!", i growl back at him, 'I DO NOT NEED A BABYSITTER' I scream mentally, but apparently i forgot to use my words, in a swift motion i just hit him with my shoulder while I go back into the crowd and look for Rose, leaving him behind, probably fuming.
It was normal for us to get cross with each other. we wanted different things in life. He wanted me to be calm and collected, I was everything less. I was extremely quirky, dork and energetic, couldn't stand routine and predictable situations, i loved to stay home and read and talk with Dora and Scampi but at the same time didn't go out and just explore the woods around the house or go down to La Push and get drunk and go skinny dipping. I liked to be two sides of a coin, being able to enjoy both sides of life. I think that also applies to my sexuality, I always saw it to be very fluid, why couldn't i find both genders hot? Always felt that more than anything it was important for me to connect with then person, to fell the tingles in every nerve, to forget there's anyone else in the room and want to have some hot, sweaty and torrid sex with each other. I didn't really cared with the whole definition or silly boxes people try to put you.
To be fair, I've only had relationships with boys, i blame it on my awkwardness on flirting. Every time i tried my luck with the ladies they never really believed that i would be interested on them. They first reaction would be "You can't be gay" and that would just make my head in. I had my fare share of kissing but they never intended to pursuit a relationship with me. Maybe it was the kind of girls i was attracted to. Maybe i really didn't really look gay enough, like they would say. But how would they explain my irrevocable attraction to the girl singing in that stage, how would they explain how fast my heart was beating, how dizzy i felt and how much i just wished to drop on my knees and adore her body. A hand lays on my shoulder and i freeze.
How long have i been looking to the fire exit? " Are you alright, Ali?" Rose asked, i immediately relaxed, at least it wasn't Jasper "Yes Rosie, just had a slight row with Jazz. He was acting all controlling" I explain the situation and she says while looking like i was a child " You over reacted a little bit, Al!", " I did not! He's controlling! I didn't wanted to come anyway!" Rose gasps, probably not expecting this words coming out of my mouth and with all the honestly neither did i, usually tended to be very pacific in particular with Jazz. "That was harsh, Daisy!" She warns me and i knew it was "You probably should talk with him about it!", "I will, I will" i promise " Why you here anyway? Not that i will complain have the attention of my sister for a change, but you and Em seem like you were having fun on your own!" i say with a chuckle, i didn't wanted to make a big deal out of it. It was normal for them to kiss, they were very touchy feel-y. "I was looking for you, Jasper said that you didn't seem to want him around and asked if i could try and 'put some sense in your head' i thought he was exaggerating like he tends to do, but he definitely was right on something, you don't seem to happy to be around him!". I take a deep breath and nod at her "I will talk with him Later" and with that promise we hand by hand went to dance floor and now that the concert was over, the music changed.
A deep electronic beat starts playing, making us jump and grind against each other. Most of the time i was Rose shield against boys, until Emmett decided to join in, pulling my sister strongly against his groin and Jasper was in front of me, his eyes shining and me being sweaty and a bit happy didn't mind it. Just move my body side to side, tracing my curves with my hands, pulling my short hair away front my slightly damp neck, a pair of small hands hold me by my waist, a sultry aroma around, small sparkles were form where her fingers touched me, even trough the dress. It felt good and incredible right. Our bodies were moving together, her hands still holding my waist were making us move slower, more sensually. The air all the sudden was dense, my breath was erratic, my knees were struggling. I could feel the persons breath on my neck. Warm, with the slight smell of whiskey and cinnamon. It was just us in there, the music had lowered, only the beat was constant pairing with the deep breaths hitting me in consistent waves connected directly to my center, making me pull cover to the body. "Careful, my little daisy. I think you upsetting some people" says an husky but still very feminine voice, i recognize it immediately, making me open my eyes and get slapped with reality, Jasper was upset i could see in his eyes, could also notice that he was breathing heavily possibly a bit turn on.
A tiny hand that was in my waist slowly moved up, almost caressing my body, originating slight shivers all the way up, to where pushed my hair to the said and deposit a kiss on the side of my neck, it was like a wave of cold water washed over me and at the same time had fire streaming trough my veins. "See you around!" she said and leaves getting engulfed by the sea of people around us, i turn around to only see her dark mahogany hair, i look back to only then notice rose staring at me with a smirk in her face and Em had his mouth open so big that almost reached the floor "What? Can't a person dance?" I say trying to push to the side the awkward situation "You can! Just remember me to bring a camera next time, that was hot!" "Rosie!" Em and I scream at the same time, she laughs and wiggles her shoulders "It was!" she defends her self.
We leave not long after to the 'incident', mostly because it still played in my brain and i just couldn't push it to the side. How did that girl have so much control over me? We had some kind of magnetic pull. Hand't ever felt something like that. The trip back passed flying, quiet and warm, no one daring to make any noise if not lowly sing the lyrics of some pop song playing in the radio. In a flash Emmett stops the car and without making any noise we get out of the car, Rosie kisses her boyfriend and Jasper kisses my forehead and when i say "Jasper, I-" he interrupts me, giving me a small smile and softly says "Tomorrow", my tummy is in a turmoil immediately, I was nervous and with that he gets to front seat where rose was seated and after another kiss between my sister and her boyfriend the departure.
Rose turns at me and smiles "Well, that was eventful!", "I can say so!","So does that mean you finally accept that you like girls?", i look at her dumb fully "What do you mean? I never said i didn't liked them!", "Yes, true. But you never said you did!" She protests, i grin at her and say " Not everyone needs to have a big coming out story, Rose!", she sticks her tongue out "What about Jasper?", "What about him?", she growls a bit out of exasperation " What will you with him? Are you still in love with him? Or are you breaking up?", I knew this was going to happen. "I don't know. I love him, but i'm not really in love him, i guess...i don't know.", she sights, and puts her hand on my shoulder, squeeze it a bit and says "I think you should break up with him. It's only fair!".She was right and sympathetically Rose pushes us in direction of the front door.
As soon we got in each of us walked to their room and smiled at each other before getting in. I was completely lost in thought. I had to break up with him. oh dear!