Natural instincts Chapter 2

At the end of the class the room quickly emptied, there was no way Jen was going to let Tilly slip out without talking to her, there was so much she wanted to say.

'Tilly can you stay behind and give me a hand getting the room cleared up?'

'Yes sure' Tilly replied.

Tilly was just relieved Jen was asking her to stay, she knew this was hard for Jen but she was still incredibly hurt by her leaving her at the bench, when she knew it wasn't what Jen really wanted. It seemed so unfair, so wrong and what's more it made her really angry. Tilly had never felt so overwhelmingly drawn to someone as she had Jen. She just wanted to be with Jen every waking moment, her heart beat faster at the thought of her and she remembered how breathless she was that day in the art room with Jen pressed herself against her, caressing her arm as she moved to hold her hand with the paint brush in. Tilly thought she would burst, she couldn't help herself turn round and look deep into Jens eyes, her lips and parted mouth were too much as she leaned into kiss her, then Tilly remembering herself drew back. That day, they had been so close and then were just torn apart, she felt like part of her heart had been ripped out by events. Jen had been so accusing and yet the evidence was clear, but the whole thing was unjust. Why couldn't they just be together, they were meant to be from the day on the beach.

Tilly walked up to Jen, who moved to close the class room door.

'How are you? I've missed you'

Jen smiled, more relaxed than Tilly had seen her over the last few weeks,

'I'm ok, I…I am so sorry about hurting you, you look exhausted'

She looked directly at Tilly as she said this, her eyes had tears in them as she spoke

'this has been the hardest month of my life, I am just so so sorry, please forgive me, I never wanted to hurt you, it's the last thing I ever want to do to you. You have no idea how much you mean to me. I was a fool to say what I did, to leave you there alone and hurting'

As she said this she put her right hand over Tilly's as it rested on the desk in front of them. Tilly didn't move, it was so good just to be this close again, her anger subsided and all she wanted was the warmth of Jen's hand on hers to last forever. She lifted her free hand a gently wiped Jen's tears away with the thumb.

'Jen I was angry with you, I still hurt, I've not been sleeping, lying awake thinking of you, thinking how else we could have managed this together. Wondering if I'd ever get to kiss you again, feel the touch of your hand again. Talk to you again and laugh with you, you're so much fun when you relax. I miss you, I miss your touch'

They were quiet for a moment, just looking tenderly at one another before Jen spoke again

'You know after the natural art trip I will no longer be your teacher, I know we will need to be careful' she paused and hesitantly added 'but would you think about spending time with me again, even though I haven't always treated you too well?'

'Jen, are you asking me out? You know I don't want to misunderstand what you are saying, and make a mistake like I did before'

Jen smiled 'Yes I am, but we need to be very careful on the field trip, is that ok with you?'

Tilly beamed the biggest smile Jen had ever seen, she wanted to throw her arms around her right there, but they had to be patient. They turned together and tidied up the room, chatting as they had before the breakup, about what they has seen, or found funny. They were so natural together, there was an ease and comfortableness between them that they both felt. When the room was cleared, Jen pulled Tilly right to the back of the class, out of the view of the doorway. Tilly looked surprised, but Jen held her to her, she caressed Tilly's face with her right hand, her thumb tracing a line down her cheek to her neck, Tilly looked into Jens eyes as both moved towards each other, their lips touching, before Jen kissed her deeply and Tilly responded. It was a risk she was prepared to take, she had wanted to touch and kiss Tilly and now she had a chance before they left the building. Tilly had waited so long for this moment, she felt her body ignite in a thousand tiny sparks, she lifted her arms and put them around Jens neck, drew her closer as their lips moved together. Jen reciprocated and put her arms around Tilly's waist, their bodies met and both let out a small moan before moving back from their kiss. They both knew that if they continued they could both be in serious trouble and be unable to stop themselves even if they wanted to. Breathless they stepped apart, grinning. Jen leaned over to wipe her lipstick off of Tilly's face and they both sighed at the release of the pent up tension.

'I'll text you later Jen said to Tilly'

'Yes do, I can't wait to have a decent night's sleep again, I wish you could be there with me' Tilly added mischievously and winked. Jen laughed

'What are you like? C'mon lets get going, we've got a field trip to prepare for and we still need to be careful'

They walked out of the classroom and out of the college…