A Broken Girl
Chapter 2
Epov

We arrived at the meadow and Bella was in awe of it. She looked at everything; the flowers, trees and the pure beauty of it all. I had brought a small blanket from home as the grass was sometimes, well actually always damp. We sat on the blanket and remained silent.

"How long have you been coming here?" came Bella's voice after a while.

"Since I was ten. Our house isn't far from here, just through those bushes and then a little small walk" I told her. Bella just nodded her head. Then she looked over at me with a with confused eyes. She didn't say anything for a while and when she did I was speechless.

"What did you mean when you said you'd never have a chance with me? And that kiss why did you do that anyway?" She asked. I couldn't speak, I was kinda hopping that she'd forgotten about that, obviously not. What will I say. Oh Bella forgot to mention that I've been in love with you for 5 years! Yeah that would work out well.

"Emm...well ye its complicated and I know you hate me so really I won't ask how you feel about me, but I've had...feelings for you for about oh 5 years now. I didn't particularly like making fun of you actually it pained me to do it and-" I was cut of by Bella's lips on mine. It shocked me for a split second, but I quickly recovered. I kissed her with a fierceness. We stayed like that for awhile until we needed to come up for air. I rested my forehead against hers. I opened my eyes to see Bella with her cheeks flushed and eyes closed.

"Why did you kiss me Bella?" I asked her. She opened her eyes and smiled at me.

"It's something I always wanted to do!" she stated simply.

"What?" I asked her.

"Your not the only one with feelings Edward" I stared at her shocked to say the least. I knew her feelings weren't as strong as my own.

"Bella what happened to you before summer?" I asked her after a few moments of not talking. She moved away and sighed.

"Better get comfy Edward. And be prepared this isn't very pleasant. And please don't interrupt me?" she stopped and I nodded for her to continue. She toke a deep breath and started talking.

"I was on my way home from Port Angeles when I stopped for some gas. The guy in the shop really freaked me out especially when he came out to talk to me. At first I just thought he was bored, but then he started to touch me and when I asked him not to he hit me. I feel back and hit my head against a rock. I was bleeding pretty badly, that I went unconscious for a few minutes. When I woke up I was in the shop. I didn't know what happened but he had my jeans undone and was pulling them down. I tried to fight him of but it was impossible, he was much stronger than me. I kicked and screamed but then he punched me in the jaw. It happened quickly, and it just happened. He raped me twice. The pain was...unbearable. I begged him to stop so many times, but he just laughed at me and said 'your just like all the others. Don't know when to shut up'. I wasn't his first. After he was done he got a bottle of drink and started to force it down me. I started choking on it and then he slapped me and said I was wasting all his drink. Then he rapped me again, but when he put the bottle down I knew it was in my reach, but I waited until...ya know" she paused looking at me. I nodded at her to say I understood, till he orgasamed. I was beyond angry at this moment. She started once again. "Well when he did I grabbed the bottle and hit him with it. He fell over and I kicked him in the head. He went unconscious and I got the hell out of there. I made it back to my house and then told my dad everything. He brought me to the hospital and I spotted your dad and we told him what happened. He done the exam on me, and concluded that I was raped. He toke photos of my injuries. By the end of the exam I could tell that he was beyond angry. I could see it in his eyes, I asked him not to tell Alice. He agreed. My dad went to the gas station. When he arrived he found him still on the floor unconscious. When they ran his prints they found numerous warrants out for him. James Carter has raped 14 women. His first victim was his girlfriend, Victoria Williams. He also killed her. He was 17 when he did that. 17 when he raped and killed his girlfriend, all because she didn't want to have sex yet. He was our age Edward. So in the last 8 years he's raped 12, well 13 other girls, if you include me. And he's killed 3 of them. Your dad was the one who suggest I go to the councillors' retreat. Its called Hope. A very great place for rape victims. It helped me a lot, there are only 2 men there and they are the ones who set it up after there own sister was raped and murdered. They wanted to help other victims so they set it up. There very nice men. Vladimir and Stefan Longman. There sister was Tanya. She was 14 when she was raped and murdered. They've helped a lot of people over the last 15 years. When we met they were shocked at how it turned out. They met everyone who goes there. They had the report on what happened and they asked me how I handled being raped twice and then knocking him out. I'll be forever grateful for how they helped me. But mainly your dad" when she said that I was confused, she must have understood as she explained "He told me about the place. If it wasn't for him, I don't know what I'd of done" she finished.

"I remember that day. My dad came home so angry. It was so unlike him. He banged the front door, his office door and his eyes were terrifying. When my mom asked him what was wrong he just looked at her shook his head. He then went over to Alice and made her promise to never go into any gas station or anywhere on her on. We asked what happened and he just said he couldn't talk about it. I knew then it was about a patient, we all did. When you came around that day after we got the holidays and you and dad went and talked in his office why?" I asked her.

"He wanted to see how I was holding up and when I was leaving, and if I was going to tell Alice. He said it was getting hard lookin at her and not think about what happened to me. I'm telling Alice and Rose tomorrow after school. I'm also going to tell Jasper and Emmett as well" she said.

"Do you want me to be there with you? Ya know moral support" I told her with a smile. She looked at me and smiled and then nodded her head. I noticed that a lock of her hair and escaped her small twist, I reached out and placed it back behind her ear. I looked into her eyes and smiled at her. My eyes went to her lips and I noticed hers do the same with mine. I leaned forward as she did and brought my lips to hers. This kiss was just like the other two before. I got tingles down my spine and I knew right then and there that she was the one. My mother had told me that when her and my dad first kissed they both got shots of tingles down there spines. I only hope that Bella got it as well. I felt Bella's tongue run along my bottom lip and I opened my mouth for her. I heard us both moan when our tongues met. We pulled away after a moment. I looked at Bella and noticed her breathing hard. She looked frightened for some reason.

"Bella are you alright?" I asked her after a second of complete silence.

"Umm...yeah just give me a moment" she said.

""What happened" I asked her.

"I had a flashback of that night. Don't worry I'm fine. Edward why are you really here with me right now?" Bella asked me.

"Cos I want to be with you Bella" I told her. And I'm also in love with you. I finished in my head.

"There's something else your not telling me Edward I can tell. What aren't you telling me? Are you doing this out of pity?" she asked me.

"I'm doing this cos I want to Bella not because of pity. What I'm not telling you is that I'm in-" I cut myself of as I didn't want to tell her just yet. She looked at me with confusion in her eyes. After a moment her eyes were back on me and they were wide.

"How far does your feelings run Edward?" she asked me as she stood up.

"My feelings for you are strong I'll admit that Bella" I said as I also got up from the blanket.

"Back in school you said you wanted to be with me. Why would you want me Edward. I'm a plain Jane, and you want me when you could have Jessica or Lauren or someone who isn't tainted like I am. I damaged, I don't know when I'm ever going to really be okay, when the nightmares stop, when the flashbacks stop, if I'll ever be able to be with you or anyone in my life, why would you want that Edward? Why would you want someone like me?"Bella said as she paced infront of me. She still had nightmares. And what she said about her being with someone other than me made me angry. I walked right up to her and put my hands on her shoulders to stop her from pacing. I looked her straight in the eyes and replied to her question.

"Cos your beautiful, smart, funny, talented and your one of a kind. Those are the things I love about you. Your not like all the girls in school. And to me you'll never be tainted or damaged or less better than anyone else. I want to be with you for how you are and not what happened to you. Bella your the most beautiful girl in the world, I believe that, so why can't you?" I asked her.

"Because I know I can't be beautiful of what happened to me. Something I was holding on to was taking from me. That was for the person I loved not a rapist. I hate that man Edward so much, I wished I'd killed him that night. The doctors said if he got 1 more hard blow to the head he would have died. Death would have been better for him than prison"

"You would've regretted killing him Bella. Your to good to hurt anyone. Your much better than him and you and I both know it. And yes something was stolen from you but you shouldn't dwell on it. Me, Alice, Rosalie, Emmett and Jasper will help you get past this. I'll be here for you. If you let me?"I said to her.

"Why do you want to help me Edward, I'm ruined"

"Will you stop thinking like that. Your not ruined, damaged or tainted. You're still the same beautiful girl I met 5 years ago, yea you just went through something terrible and yea it could take you a while before your back on track. But Bella don't shut us out, you did that to Alice before the holidays and ye two are practically sisters. Let me help you and everyone else. Will you let me help you?"I asked her looking into her eyes.

"If I say yes to letting you help me you have to tell me how far your feelings for me are Edward. And don't lie. Deal?" she asked me. Should I tell her or would that just ruin everything? Crap what do I do? Tell her, better now than never.

"Deal. But you have to believe my feelings for you cos there true Bella. This is not a lie, I promise you that. But first I want to ask you something" I waited until she nodded to continue "Will you go out with me? Be my girlfriend?" I asked her nervously. Once again her eyes went wide. She's been doing that a lot. I watched her breathing deepen. Oh this isn't good I thought. Finally after what seemed like forever she replied.

"Why? What's so great about me?" she asked me.

"Everything. How you treat people, and you don't judge them for who they are. Please Bella just say yes or no. Then I'll answer your other question"

"If I say yes, are you going to keep me a secret?"

"No I'll tell everyone tonight if you want me to, but don't pretend you don't have feelings for me, or you wouldn't have kissed me back"

"Yes" she said with a small smile. I froze for half a second. She said yes. To me, someone who didn't defend her when I could've. I stopped thinking about everything and kissed her fiercely. We feel back onto the blanket. I was out of breathe at the same time Bella was. We broke apart, and I looked down, toke a deep breath and just said it.

"I'm in love with you" I said to her. I looked back at her and seen her eyes wide and her mouth slightly open and her breathing was laboured. Oh that's not good.

"Wh...What?" she stuttered out. I looked into her eyes and said it once more.

"I'm in love with you" Bella remained quiet for quite some time. I couldn't take it any more so I had to say something.

"Bella say something, anything!"

"Edward I don't know how far my feelings are for you and I'm not sure if there at the same level as yours yet, but I know I have them. I'm just not ready to say anything about them" she said to me.

"That's okay with me Bella. I know that you might never feel that way, but that's how I feel" I looked at my watch and seen it was nearly half six.

"Umm...do you want to stay or should we head back?" I asked her.

"Yea we should be getting back" she said.

As we walked back to my car I could feel a sense of dread and happiness swell up inside me. And also pure angry and rage. I couldn't let Bella see it as at wasn't directed at her but at the sick fuck that hurt her. I loved her, now all I have to do is wait for her to realise her feelings for me. I would wait forever if that's how long it will take her.