Distance

Right. Sequel to With Love. -nods- Axel's point of view, of course. In my opinion, it sucks. But that's my opinion. And yes, I am putting it up here even though it sucks. It's 'cause I had someone request to see Axel's P.O.V. And here it is. Just… Here ya go.

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Hey. I… You're probably not going to read this, but I feel the need to explain some things. If you have put this down, I understand. If you haven't, then I guess I must of peaked your curiosity. You may not care, but I care. Besides, you deserve to know these things.

I… I know you took me back, despite your better judgment. That made me happy. It also surprised me, because everyone knows I didn't deserve it. I didn't deserve that second chance. Didn't deserve you. But I got it! It was like a blessing. I thank you for that. I know I broke your heart, and I'm sorry. It's just that, there was this distance. It was a distance that Zexion started to fill. I know he was your best friend, but he wasn't objecting at the time. He still isn't…

I don't want to make you feel like dying. That wasn't my intention, I swear! I want you to love life, not hate it. I'm sorry for that, too. I'm sorry for a lot of things, actually. To many things to write down. You used to make me happy the way he does. But after we split up the first time… Well, you just couldn't make me quite as happy any more. I wish you could've, but wishing never worked before.

I swear, I was going to tell you! But every time I worked up the courage to do it, Zexion somehow changed my mind. He kept saying he would tell you. I mean, I didn't want you to hate him, and I knew that if either of us told you, that's what would've happened. I told Riku that, and he took matters into his own hands. I didn't really want him to, but I figured that's what he would've done. He always has liked you. And he was a little bitter towards me because I had you. I know I'm stupid, I know I'm self-centered, and I know I'm a dickhead. But I was raised getting everything I wanted, and old habits die hard. And if that makes me a bastard, so be it.

Anyways, the point of writing and sending you this is to tell you that I'm sorry. I don't blame you for hating us. I would hate us too if I was in your shoes. I've moved on, too (obviously). Happy with your best friend. Yeah, I am happy. His hair is softer than yours. It's because he doesn't use gel like you do. And his eyes aren't as bright as yours, but they're just as pretty. It's good to know that you have Riku now and that I didn't completely ruin your life. I'm glad you're happy now, Dem.

I'll always be keeping the distance.

Axel.

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Right, I could've done so much better. -sighs- Anyways, here it is! . I don't care if you like it or not.

Review and make me feel luffed.

-Marissa